Vertigo

[Mystress]

Vertigo, we call it when heights make dizziness.  Phobias and such, are one place where I do not listen to the body, but push  against it.  You could drive a truck across that bridge, though as a historical site it is closed to all but foot traffic.  The body was being a drama queen over nothing, it was perfectly safe... at these times where fear is illogical and not intuitive, I face fear and try to push past it.  The Divine Beloved represents the body-mind, but this sort of thing is not of it.  The place where animal instinct is counter productive, like how you must blindfold a horse to lead it from a burning barn.
From an old thread http://fire-serpent.com/tearoom/index.php/topic,855.0.html

  I have had an interesting week, and thought to update my comments on this phenomena. 

  Three years ago I went deaf on the left side.  These past few weeks I got an MRI and discovered the cause is "acoustic nueroma"  a 21mm slow growing, benign tumour on the auditory or balance nerve going from the ear to the brain.  It is a genetic quirk, not inheritable. Nerve sheath doesn't know when to stop growing.  The nuerologist explained the reason I have not been getting symptoms of nausea or dizziness is because the balance nerve on that side has been dead for a long time, and my body has adapted.  He credited my yoga practice.

  Contemplating my memories... It took me a really long time to learn to ride a bike, as a kid.  Skateboarding was simply impossible. Being very clumsy at some things frustrated me, and motivated me to refine my balance where I had it.  Started doing yoga spontaneously around puberty, around the same time my ESP started kicking in. 

  I realize that my fear of heights-  which is quite specific to things like fire escapes, where I can see the ground far below, is actually physical.  I only have 1/2 a normal gyroscope, so when the visual information conflicts with the physical reality ... vertigo.  My instinct to challenge it, was my body practicing adapting to compensate. 

 

[juergen]

Strange nerve who is dead and still wants to grow, eh?

Now many seems to fall into place!
Dead nerve looks like a candidate for the knife, though healing would always be first choice; dead nerve is somewhat a  wide term to interpret and specify but i'm shure You'll make the right choice and You'll walk better than ever out of it, i wish it from deep within!
I've seen You fallin on the spine, twice,  in my mind's eye and there was clearly a streak of clumsiness, filling me with great empathy, You're such a fighter!
But it's always good to get definite information,  this time by MRI, modern hightec, very positive, constructive.

It's also interesting, You painted it on Your logo, the third eye! many many times

Finding this quite interesting: http://home.comcast.net/~ginursa/EyeOf.html

With the third eye there seems to be a trade motif: like: "Ya can have the sight, but have to pay"; often a theme in fairy tales too;
Odin, Theiresias, the seer in that movie with Don Sutherland and Julie Christie about murder and mystery in Venice, Ullysses's friend the Cyclops.
Perhaps there is still more behind it, if so You'll have the privilege to know first by this experience. Lately speaking much of Maslov's law could also be a clue to it.

What i mean is, that i cannot believe that Goddess wants us to give an eye or an auditory nerve for an awakened 3rdeye in exchange, sounds rather "Arian", camel-dirt.
Ok this might get judgemental here, but i have to assure that i'm no camel-dirt free zone, (so please Goddess, take this and Thank You, because knowing where dirt is, i need not investigate further this area).

Wishing You millions interesting weeks to come and thanking You for sharing these authentic peeps,

juergen

[Mystress]

Dead nerve looks like a candidate for the knife, though healing would always be first choice;

  If I could have healed it I would have by now... seems these type tumours respond to healing energy by growing bigger... because they are not foreign, a DNA quirk. An error in the blueprint.

  Knife, yeah. I have to have some pretty intense nuero surgery to remove the tumour before it gets big enough to push on my brain more than it already has. It is way in there, behind some very hard bone.

  Odin traded his eye for wisdom, there is mythology of power barter for body parts... I dunno. I don't like to think of Goddess as a haggling fishwife. 

  It does move me to look deeper into my DNA though... born a shaman, both sides of the family carry the genetic markers for psychic ability but repressed by christianity.  Come to fu flower in me, as if they were selected for that potential. 

  There is quite a bit of evidence I am a minor Tibetan Lama, which makes me wonder about the mix... Are all Lamas also shamans? What is the essential nature of the reincarnating spirit?  Or was the Shaman element added to make up for a lack of training in the temples of Tibet?  In the early 60's when I was born, the Chinese were busy slaughtering every Tibetan monk they could find... there was nothing in Tibet, to go back to... and perhaps opportinity to do the work without being chained to the strict Tibetan spiritual and political hierarchies.

   Then I let go of thinking in terms of reincarnation and it doesn't matter.  Just Is.

[juergen]

I'll delect on Your interesting explanations about the Tibetan Lama and reincarnation later, but for now You know what has to come

deep breath,

it is a matter of fact, that good Homeopaths have healed a lot of tumors for about the last 200 Years, especially the benign ones.
I would not have brought the issue again, but feeling the fingers around the area of the ear, which is all bones, i can imagine that a surgical operation 'd be no pleasure trip.
But You know, the potencies are made spiritlike, there is no place they can't go to and if perfectly chosen they can do the finest surgery, without complications. And more so: going beyond the mere symptom the remedy also checks for the cause, goes deeper to the root and from the root again outwards to possible other seats of dis-ease.
And even more: since the nerve is still active, since it produces growth, now i wonder what to understand by that it's dead? Ok i'm no expert(and don't want to treat You ), but if i'm on the right track, there might even be hope for deafness to leave.

I'm just coming from putting an article by my Korean ex,  into (correct)german language, which is somewhat promoting a psychic woman, she has started to work with.

She is certainly no con, because once on the phone, She sensed smoke in my stomach, and only later i remembered i had had smoked cheese for breakfast.
As She failed to heal a complaint of Herself by Herself, She consulted a homeopath and the story went its way..

Now She is a healing practioner, and She is "beating all classes", for instance helping ex to reopen and cure all old difficult cases.

I don't hear often from ex, so this seems a coincidence, and i wouldn't miss to give it a shot

Since the mainstream way here is so little of an easy walk, i thought this is at least an example that there might be alternatives, homeopathy probably not the only one.

Finally i think it all comes down to specific details, details of ease and dis-ease, and their harmony, to heal.
Definite healing.

We still want You around for the next couple of years, right?

blessings,
juergen

[Mystress]

Juergen wrote: it is a matter of fact, that good Homeopaths have healed a lot of tumors for about the last 200 Years, especially the benign ones.

  While on one hand it would be easy for me to say "sure, what can it harm?'

  but

  My experience of that ear losing hearing came as a result of a neti neti accident that put salt water behind my ear drum.  The docs tell me it had nothing to do with this.

  I mentioned spiritual healing to the chief neurologist. He told me of a guy that tried it, naturopathy, diet, reiki, etc... the tumour grew huge.

  Then, when he told me it is genetic, it made sense.  The flaw is in the blueprint. Feeding it, just makes it do more of what it does, which is good healing for normal DNA but only magnifies the problem with flawed DNA.

   It is entirely possible that the healing I (and others)   did on that ear when it had water in it, fed the defect and caused the tumour to grow big enough to damage the nerve, in the weeks it takes for water to evaporate or be absorbed.   There is no other real explanation for the co-incidence of losing my hearing at that time... suddenly rather than gradually.

  I have never heard of a homeopathic remedy that can rewrite someone's DNA... which is essentially the healing needed here... and I don't think I would take it, it there was one because of the potential for too much editing- more than needed to be rewritten, which opens the door for new defects and lethal viruses.

  Having considered my various options, it actually appears that the mundane act of physically removing it seems to be the path of least harm.  Feels very deflating for a spiritual healer, BTW...

  Don't send healing to my little nueroma. Do not feed the tribbles. 
 

 

[Mystress]

  as to mundane explanations... There is a reason why egg donors are young women, in their 20s... biological clock, reproductive genes start to fail past age 35.   Mom had me 3 months before her 40th birthday.  Tick tock.

[juergen]

Dear Mystress,

the one thing i have to say for the moment, is that i have been an idiot that i let me carry away to start that conversation with that cell; it was not ethical, i understand now; please forgive me! I surrender that idea.

You have made a lot of experience with the ear and Your reasoning is comprehensible.
It's not up to me to seek for influencing You, although it's hard.

You have insights i don't.
In that very narrow field of hom., i have experience You don't.
Stuff for a comedy, after all.

Healing the past is a great idea and i believe nothing is impossible.


Love,
juergen

[hollyberry]

Dear Mystress,
I am new to FST - I decided to join after a tummo session with Sigmund (lovely experience, unfolding gently day by day). So, I am new and I am finding a great deal of lovely material on the site, really delighted by finding so many evolved and evolving human beings here....it's truly amazing.

ANYWAY - I'm not a professional anything, no healer, no yogi, no credentials in any department, just searching....but one of my searches made me purchase a tuning fork - 528 HZ  and a little singing bowl. The 528 fork has an absolutely lovely sound (in fact if I could record it and loop it I'd quite like to carry it around with me on my Ipod as a little nip of deliciousness as a substitute for the Jack Daniels!).

What I wondered was, as I have actually been so busy with other things and now have some CDs of energy sounds - I would be very very happy to send you this tuning device just for you to listen to - might be absolutely no good at all, might be poppycock, might be something you have already worked with and moved on from years ago etc etc etc. but I hope you don't mind me making the offer - it would be nice in any event to give something back for treasures I'm finding on your site.

I've added a little link in here from a chat line I found online about such 'therapeutics' http://www.transparentcorp.com/community/forum/lofiversion/index.php?t1094.html - I work on the basis of believing whilst not believing and find that a quite happy vantage point......anyway let me know and if there is a P.O. address for FST I'll send it, if not no problem either.

Many thanks and kindest regards,

Hollyberry

[Gustaf]

So how does one go about healing flawed DNA?

Namaste
Gustaf

[hollyberry]

Hi Gustav,

Reasonable question and yes it does sound rather pathetic as a concept, if the diagnosis of faulty DNA is accurate and that faulty DNA is the nub of your question - in the link I sent there is plenty of debate and plenty of people who ask exactly the same question - quite heatedly. As well as NOT being all the things I mentioned, neither am I a doctor or scientist so I have no biology or chemistry or physics to offer either. So, having given you all those disclaimers - all I can offer is that there is no shame in trying all sorts of apparently loopy New Age concepts out to see if anything comes of them - there are colleges of sound healing and people a lot bigger and cleverer than me have things to say about the potential power of sound:

"There will come a time when a diseased condition will not be described as it is today by physicians and psychologists, but it will be spoken of in musical terms, as one would speak of a piano that was out of tune" - Rudolf Steiner

Anyway - the little tuning fork I have can only be listened to by striking and holding next to my ear (there are other ways proper therapists use them apparently, holding near various chakras etc - but that becomes a little too far fetched for me as a concept...at the moment).

Aren't miracles supposed to be possible, isn't it part of our human heritage - maybe rare, but if you never dare to try something if prompted by questing (and the body and body mind work in mysterious ways) - then maybe you miss out on things too. Contemporary medicine has much to recommend it, Ayurveda and Chinese Medicine too, maybe even this Quantum Healing thing that currently abounds - I just think the whole human body is rather miraculous and its potential for self healing and adjusting as yet untapped....and there are all kinds of healing modalities and some tumours can be persuaded to shrink not necessarily grow bigger... heaven only knows.....


In fact later in this post is another day.............I have just re-read Mystress post and this time properly read it, really properly read it and felt myself at the point of where Mystress might be with her ear and her decision:

"the mundane act of physically removing it seems to be the path of least harm"

and........that is more than likely to be exactly right, coming from someone who IS a healer and a seer....but I did think I had no wrong motivation for mentioning the sound healing - purely as a diagonal way of thinking.

Also, I often wonder whilst the healer heals, when the healer needs healing this might come from some other direction - just asking questions really.....but then who asked me to do that on Mystress behalf when she can do it far better than I can    _ I just had a cartoon picture in my head of my tuning fork flying into the trash can........but I'm not throwing it because is DOES sound really beautiful......and in a greedy world of too much stuff and too much colour and too much noise where little is really appreciated or seen or heard - focusing for a moment on a single sound is quite a nice thing to do.....and maybe that's what I ought to be concentrating on doing, addressing my Shadow issues.

I hope this site is a site where people can share things without being afraid of more advanced or intellectually superior people coming down on them like a ton of bricks when they betray their ignorance......I notice in the previous post, Juergen felt a serious apology was needed for naively offering that a form of healing might help - perhaps I, like him am way too naive and like a child, a small animal or a student who will not listen - transgression for a second or third time may merit a ticking off or a sharp rap on the knuckles.....in which case I will squirm for a bit, get over it by learning and growing up a little more. When I begin to understand how very much of a human being Mystress is I will find myself with very pink and burning cheeks for making such crass offerings.

I am currently learning to rein in my yang tendencies and I am also trying to learn how to listen and how to ask questions rather than leap in with my five penneth when it is unsolicited - finding it a bit difficult I admit.......it's always easier to go around looking for other people to interfere with than get to grips with ones own business.... so ....... you've given me food for thought anyway.....so many thanks for that Gustav.

Namaste (is good)

Hollyberry

[juergen]

Gustav wrote:

So how does one go about healing flawed DNA?


Not directly!
Not the way genetics engineering is seeking to do, which is going to fail,  for the monkey mind; even one single cell does lots more of chemical and bio-engineering than all medical staff joined could possibly do; i didn't exactly compute this statement but it's merely an intuitive estimation, ok.

From my point of view, Nature, *Goddess* is the Healer.

When Mystress says the blueprint lies in DNA She is right, as right as when She says that Her MOM is the center of the earth; so i conclude a more original blueprint closer to vacuum, lies also there. I also speculate  about the Cosmic Centre as an even more original Center, but that is not so important here.

If You research successful healing You will find the law of healing.

For example analytic psychoanalysis: having the patient go thru the suffering once more, constitutes a new confrontation with the past event of disease when evil started. Actually a loop of confrontations, one after the other, the next profiting from the previous, and so on fading out to healthy restoration.

The crux is stuck energy. Energy-Mountains cast aside along railroad-tracks, never reaching destination.
Energy being where it ought not to be, and not being where it ought to be. Blind Trains derailed; in their wake more blind trains to derail, chronic leakage, ugly cicatrices that never heal perfectly, likely to break up easily. -->uncontrolled growths
These Energy-trains have to be trained to become seeing again(or maybe seeing for the first time in their life), for that special track section, because otherwise they follow blind after blind. The link and key to this is the once condition of disaster, disaster's cause. Hypnosis can also help in regressing, finding that cause/condition. Actually it seems to be the railway track, who takes the task of the train, advanced tech.

Another clue to the cause are the actual complaints but it's a sort of an art to separate the chaff from the wheat here, but some are really relevant.

Psychologists work cautiously with the patient to dig it up, hypnotists go more directly to the subconscious and if they understand the healing well, they come to faster  results, however sometimes the way of the Chinese curse.. ; Carl Jung for one seemed to be reluctant with hypnosis(though it can be fun for play).
Homeopaths are more into thorough examination of all kind of circumstances, often pissing the patients off .
If patients are goody and homeopaths are goody, the homeopathic medium comes in, the remedy, chosen for similarity to the cause of disease and complaints. The confrontation is here administered by the remedy, so to say.

Most people have a different understanding of remedies; what they ususally have in mind is, remedies for diseases; a misunderstanding comes from here, for example when Mystress uses the formulation, that She "hasn't heard of remedies for genetic disorders" so far.
It's an illusion to think of remedies that way as if there were remedies for this and remedies for that,  which is the way of traditional eastern medicine, herb women, that kind; the difference of understanding remedy is, that traditional herbal remedies are not individualized to the actual case; choosing from their treasure may succeed or may not, it's sort of a trial and error play and chances are that the remedy doesn't find itself at all within the artificially arranged limited arsenal, only homeopaths make these experiences: that the tremendous breakthru may come from a total "outsider", which was chosen creatively according to strict rules, ok?
And please not to forget the preparation of remedies, potencies!
Considering the arduousness of finding the remedy, in many treatments, it is of considerable advantage for the therapeut to be  a *clearvoyant*, as You will better understand than me.

Like our Newbie Helen and my idol in this context, Sam. Hahnemann, i like illustrations, although they are actually not necessary for practicing, hmm, but useful for developing and getting a grip. So what happened to our railway model..

..healing the past by confronting: accompanying the flow of energy (our energy package train) with the old settings(illmaking condititions, like dwelling in malaria swamps, extreme dissapointment, extreme exposure to water etc as well as general chronic complaints) when outbreak happened, by ways, be they psychoanalytic, homeopathic, hypnotherapeuthic or a glad mixture of these, preferably under clairvoyant sails, is at first something odd, paradoxical, that's why people usually avoid it. Because,

..according to the way we learned it at school, (school arithmetics), this would only add to the trouble, right?
But then there is so much experience from daily life, of second, third and whatever chances;

And as this path of FST is experiential, so is healing. Experience it once more, and become healed(or grow)!

The train who had to pass a difficult course needs to learn once more! In many ways conditions may be  more favorable now than they were in the past.
For instance i may have visited a place, a landscape, a country, a town, a family, when there was something very ugly going on, or i was bitten by a dog, or someone made a remark that i am a failure... then a portion of energy was blocked then, so it could not arrive at its destination, but instead held captive somewhere else, where it became habitual for it, even to increase  -DOUBLE TROUBLE-(like no fullfilling love but a chancre instead, bahhh).

then i will have to go back there! To one degree going back to that town is the same(same town) but this time i see that this day is open for business, so i can "learn" this town's all kinds of shops (anyone might imagine to their preferences); at the same time i unlearn my old frustration of once.
Or maybe i'm getting to attend the same cynical teacher who once predicted me a sad career, and maybe realize how no one else takes him or her for serious, they simply laugh where i grieved, you know? Repeatings with a slight variation can indeed be encourging.

Further there is another more important aspect: The Test.
An experience that had been a failure, an infection etc, is repeated with all my "disabilities" all flaws, even with heightening them, which is what homeopathic administration effects, likewise psychoanalytic confrontation during sessions.
So i'm going thru that critical railway-section again with the handicap of a certain burdon, addons of mastership, or simply: requirements; then *Goddess* can add skills as need be, so passing by that section(of life, functionality) becomes a safe heaven.
And the burdon is my actual disease, related mysteriously to certain tasks where i'm likely to fail.
I'm likely to fail if i suppress and ignore my probs, and i'm likely to win, if i face them.
Now sometimes complaints are really so severe as to better anaesthetize them, but it's no problem: the remedy provides them anyway.

"Failure situation" is "proving situation", and it's good to go there; Mystress has recently referrred a lot to this kind. Only the object of what is to be tested trained and strengthened, varies.

Repeating an exam is exactly what this is about.

Being under examination with all the burden activated contains a good motivation to get past the burden

In such a situation, Goddess provides the necessary means for us to pass even if once we failed.
It doesn't matter if broken molecules in DNA are involved, because the original blueprints are not the DNA. As DNA is created and is evolving/changed/mutated, it can be repaired and healed.
If evolution creates new species or heals broken chains doesnt seem of principal difference.

btw, there is a relatively new discipline which deals with so-called epigenetic switches, who have not been physically located so far, and are a theoretical concept like the soul in modern university psychology.
At least they stand for a real and interesting phenomenon: that genetic disorders diagnosed by gene-analysis do sometimes produce pathology, but sometimes not.

The law of healing is universal, however in chronic hereditary genetic cases, potencies have the advantage of stubbornness(like that of a salvation army officer holding the collecting box under one's nose until there is a certain reaction).
One poppy-seed sized pellet stays for a month or more(or less).

My information of homeopathic effects in genetic disease is quite firsthand i.e. from very confidential source.

Of course the universal truth of the healing law is no passing craze, and has been verified largely.

The following links are only a few quickly researched to lend some add. credit to my claim.

http://www.articlegold.com/Article/Genetic-Obesity-and-The-Legacy-of-Family-Fat/8921
http://ecam.oxfordjournals.org/cgi/content/full/nem161v1


If my memory tics rightly, healings have resulted in positve genetic confirmations, cells with repaired chains; the only reason, why most physicians don't recognize homeopathic success is, that homeopathy is not modern medicine,  which is a pretense and an act of typical limited thinking at the same time.
An expression is also coined: spontaneous healing,  spontaneous mutations,                                               
spontaneous whatsoever, at least this way each miracle is generally accepted so far, but at the same time outlawed, like all ESP.

And the Shamans and all kind of spiritual healers?

A wide field i can't oversee; the little i understand is, that many Spirithealers are not directly concerned with that kind of disease or even often averse to healing, so it is no wonder if they are not the greatest healers of the world, right?
You can be lucky but they don't go too specific about healing disease directly.
A complementation of both these worlds however seems to fit to create curative bliss.

Especially i see Mystress first place as a Spiritual Healer and Teacher.
Then She says She has had homeopathic treatment as well, but without obviously having this principle completely accepted and integrated.

And i accept Her reservations fully, because there aren't too many good homeopaths around, and "not good" comes quickly down to much worse, than a mundane operation.

So getting energy to flow freely goes with experiential learning and really all it takes "to do magick" here  is to look, but of course the magick works in the backgrounds, like a *grey* eminence, and neither experience nor logic gives any indication, that aids, cancer, genetic failures and anything we don't want, is principally excluded from second chances.

Always fun to chat with You
juergen

P.s.:

And *Mystress*, to hold a slightly relatively old egg cell responsible for just one little quirk, given what a gorgeous *woman* You are, is just not... , ok, i just don't buy it

When the ear got worse with salty water, then You can bet that this is the cause



P.s.P.s.:
hope this is sounds not to much like "Black Widow's elder brother"

[hollyberry]

To Mystress and Gustav and Juergen,

Just a little postscript note: after our flurry of posted communications I was reading through one of Mystress lessons on FST and came across an article in the Earth & Sky Energy lesson - a lovely piece or writing by someone called Frey Rey, an excerpt as follows:

http://www.widdershins.org/vol11iss7/01.htm

So one time, at this festival, I had the opportunity to be the recipient of the combined healer energy from a Vicky Noble healing class. She was looking for volunteers for the group to practice on, and I happened to have a very groovy lump growing out of the side of my neck. Turns out the healing circle had zero effect on the lump (that benign cyst required surgery), but it was my ticket to some massive amounts of transformative energy that I desperately needed.

I notice also that I have been sticking my nose in all sorts of parts of the tearoom and I'm going to back right off for a bit and deal with what I should be dealing with, myself and my ego.....           soz

[Tommy]

Enjoy and welcome  And thank you all for making this Tea Room a very inspiring place to visit!

Tommy

[Mystress]

    I really never intended my comments on vertigo to go in this direction, although I guess it is no surprise.

   I appreciate y'all are compassionate, I am happy you care about me, but this is too much.  I do not recall asking anyone to "fix" me.   I have surrendered and found peace in disability for the first time since losing 1/2 my hearing.  If Goddess wants to miraculously restore my hearing, then She will. She has all the power in the universe.  I've let go of wishing for it, because that is just resistance to what Is.

  When I first got water in my ear three years ago, I posted about it to several lists and discussed it with just about every healer I know, including a Shaman who has been known to change her own DNA... not a single one including myself even *saw* the tumour.  All the spiritual healers of various stripes I have been to, over many years... excellent psychics, none of them ever said "BTW you have a tumour in your head." Naturopaths, iridologists, medical intuitives... nobody saw it.  All the chats and other circumstances over the years where I trained healers by letting them work on me... I've yet to find a healer including myself who can even see it clearly.  Even having the MRI to look at, I still cannot quite transpose the images to an internal picture.  Goddess made it invisible to spiritual healers coz it ain't our job.

   The psychics cannot even see it, and they have had decades of opportunity. 
  The scientists took pictures, in 3-d!!  They win. They get my vote for who is going to deal.