mirroring

[Lady C]

Hi everyone,

I have a black mirror...2 nights ago i tried scrying into it with no success - just kept fading into nothing.  Last night i read the lesson on mirroring and did it again.  Much more activity this time - caught glimpses of faces, and one really scary one - made my stomach jump.  But i said hi - it stayed in the background for a few minutes then i couldn't see it anymore.  

This face reminded me of something that happened about 4-5 years ago.  I was laying in bed, turned off the tv to go to sleep, and saw a red light on the ceiling fan.  Kept looking for the source but couldn't find it.  Sat up still looking, and on the tv was a face - initially i thought of a demon.  You'd think i would've run out of the house screaming, but instead i went to the tv and looked for a few seconds - then turned it on to see if maybe some scary movie commercial had been on.  Nope.  Then i turned it back off and it was gone.  Lights went on.  The more i thought about it - the more i thought it looked like a wolf's face - black with the white fur around it's eyes.  Although i was pretty shaken, it felt protective and i welcomed it.  Any ideas on what that was?  I searched the net and found a couple of wolf pics and a poem about something similar - what a relief!  I went around singing "I'm not the only one."
Didn't think of myself as awakened at that time,just worried that i was crazy.

More heavy stuff coming up to be surrendered.  It's really wonderful that i can more readily identify what that 'psychotic screeching harpy' wants me to handle. Name the dragon for what it is.  The harpy is not a good mom, so we need to become better friends.  Thanks for all your help with this, Mystress.

Hugs to all,
carla

[Mystress]

: Hi everyone,

: I have a black mirror...2 nights ago i tried scrying into it with no success - just kept fading into nothing.  Last night i read the lesson on mirroring and did it again.  Much more activity this time - caught glimpses of faces, and one really scary one - made my stomach jump.  But i said hi - it stayed in the background for a few minutes then i couldn't see it anymore.  

: This face reminded me of something that happened about 4-5 years ago.  I was laying in bed, turned off the tv to go to sleep, and saw a red light on the ceiling fan.  Kept looking for the source but couldn't find it.  Sat up still looking, and on the tv was a face - initially i thought of a demon.  You'd think i would've run out of the house screaming, but instead i went to the tv and looked for a few seconds - then turned it on to see if maybe some scary movie commercial had been on.  Nope.  Then i turned it back off and it was gone.  Lights went on.  The more i thought about it - the more i thought it looked like a wolf's face - black with the white fur around it's eyes.  Although i was pretty shaken, it felt protective and i welcomed it.  Any ideas on what that was?

This is really beautiful, Carla.. classic. If you go back to the fifth lesson, "Aspects of consciousness", you will read a brief description of the "Shadow", also known as the Portal Guardian.. yes, protective.. and the Shadow is the whole topic of a lesson, two lessons ahead of where you are now. Skip ahead and read it, if you like.  

: I searched the net and found a couple of wolf pics and a poem about something similar - what a relief!  I went around singing "I'm not the only one."

Nope, you are not alone in this. Recently I wrote to K-list about the aspect of myself that is the Berserker.. I'll repost a snippet here for the benefit of those who are not on the list:

<<  I too, have a difficulty with excessive empathy, combined with a
touch of ADD resistance reflex. I have a nose for manipulation that is
extremely sensitive, and uncannily accurate.  I am very sensitive to
control games and projections, either they knock me right out of my body,
into the witness state where I can see them clearly for what they are,
unfiltered by ego.. or they bring out the berserker in me to send them back
as fire-bombs as a way of returning the karma to sender... which is also an
out of body state, but with the shadow taking over my actions, to protect
me. Instinctive self defense.
     My berserker, when fully activated, will win or die trying. .. that is
the nature of the berserker.. a single minded state and I do not feel my
own wounds till the war is over. It's like the incredible Hulk..
"Don't make me angry, you would not like me when I am angry"..  How to deal
with a berserker is the same as how to deal with a raging grizzly. Lie down
flat and be quiet.>>>

 I also refer to the Berserker as "Alpha Wolf"... an aspect of my Dominance. It comes out in protection of my autonomy, my individuality.. and it is also a part I manifest deliberately, as a Dom. It is what you were manifesting, in those ongoing fantasies of ripping your ex into teeny bloody bits. Taking your power back, defending your territory, your autonomy. Momma bear, alpha wolf.. same same.
    blessings..

: Didn't think of myself as awakened at that time,just worried that i was crazy.

: More heavy stuff coming up to be surrendered.  It's really wonderful that i can more readily identify what that 'psychotic screeching harpy' wants me to handle. Name the dragon for what it is.  The harpy is not a good mom, so we need to become better friends.  Thanks for all your help with this, Mystress.

: Hugs to all,
: carla