holy grail part II

[Tommy]

Hi

I have let the confusion boil down, and now i know what it is i am puzzled about:

There seems to be a conflict for me between "surrender" and creating my own reallity. There is alot of new age material available regarding this subject, and it makes sense that we manifest our own desiny.. and it even makes sense logical far down the road. If i am stuck in scarsity and is upset by every little thing i encounter, my experience of life will be "negative"... and i will fall further down this hole untill i release this negative spiral. If i always ecspect failure.. it will surely happen, atleast i will be so focused on this aspect of life that when something unfortunate happens, i will use it as evidence that life is unfair or whatever the pattern is etc.

There is a place near my core where this matters to me, it is mostly a ? and sometimes a ?!.

Is there a conflict between "goddes has it handled" and "creating our own reality"?

I dont see the "surrender" as a passive.. make my life great Goddes and i will be here waiting for it to happen. More as an inner trust/knowingness that i will have the love, help, possibillities that serves me available at all times. And a trust that if i have unconsciouss patterns affecting me and my surroundings negatively they will be resolved as soon as i am able to life without them.. and that somehow it will all come together.

I can understand that when i mend with my inner divinity miracles happen. I can understand that when God-des is living trough me life makes more sense spirit wise if not always logically.

But there seems to be a general set-up. There is planet earth, the sun, summer, winter, i was born, i have parents, i share the day to day experience with other human beings etc.

I can understand in my spirit the freedom of the "himalayan saints". I can understand that i can have that freedom even though i do not live in the Himalaya.

I guess it all comes down to the big questions of exsistence:

why are we here? & the purpose of life?.

Is my inner divinity there for me to dive in and create life.. or am i here for my inner divinity to experience whatever it chooses?

Any insights would be greatly appreciated. Also how you use/live/experience this in your life.

Blessings
Tommy

[Mystress]

  I guess this is why I need to write FST level 2 & 3. There is not much soul stuff in the course, but there is a new lesson about it in the updated version.

 There is no conflict, because you are Goddess. It is only when you identify with the part of yourself that thinks it is not Goddess, separate, that there is conflict. Ego struggles for its identity and power.

Goddess experiencing being you... that happens anyway whether you know it or not, and She doesn't judge.  If you ask, She will create a more beautiful life than you could ever imagine for yourself, while you just go with the flow... but the blueprint for your destiny is in the soul that chose your DNA.

Your soul designed your body, to be the perfect tool for its purpose, and your body knows its purpose is to be a vessel of your soul. They communicate with each other perfectly, it is the conscious mind that is sometimes out of the loop.  The soul usually sits near the power chakra, and influences the body signals of internal navigation. Your karma alarm.

 The place of free will is to choose to love or fear, to follow the navigation or ignore it. It is not about creation, so much as about listening to the navigation in order to travel to the place where your most blissful lifestyle already exists.  In an infinite multidimensional universe, there are an infinite number of "you" having an infinite number of experiences. Which one are you being right now?

 Discernment is soul navigation through life. It is letting the smarter, infinite part of you steer the boat, and to just keep choosing to say yes to what it wants. That is the game, and the challenge.

From studies of NDE's, we know that after you die there is a life review with total emapthy with everyone who you touched in your lifetime, and then one question: "How well did you love?" and you decide the answer for yourself... the life review has given you all you need to know to answer it.

 Discernment= Soul, Dharma will always choose love, so the game is, how well did you listen and follow? How many times did you choose not to, and create a reality of crash and burn? That is your place in the co-creation.  

 True, it will often be an active surrender, but genuine compassion is spontaneous, it comes from the silent mind which acts in perfection, without needing to think.  Ego is noisy.

  Plus, simply the act of continuing to surrender, is good energy hygiene. The flow of your life is the width and breadth of your central channel. Free will karma junk plugs it up. The more energy flowing through your shiny clean energy body, the higher your vibration. Follow navigation to clean yourself, and ascend: reach the place of miracles where your thoughts manifest quickly, and then discover the wisdom of having a silent mind like a Zen Master in order to have a peaceful life without accidental manifestations... If you attach to anything, any idea of purpose or identity you fall from grace.

 Beyond that, it is about getting to know yourself through the process. Identifying your talent, your bliss and then following it. The key is to never make a final decision. I do not know my purpose, if I had one I would get skeptical and surrender it.

 I do know what my bliss is, and sometimes it is spending hours typing to answer esoteric spiritual questions. Bliss is hot baths, big cedar trees, and at the moment I think my gut is telling me that bliss is directing me to haul out the patio furniture and give it a scrub, a light sanding and some varnish. That is the activity that my gut says will give me the greatest sense of fulfillment.

  Happy Canada day!

: Hi

: I have let the confusion boil down, and now i know what it is i am puzzled about:

: There seems to be a conflict for me between "surrender" and creating my own reallity. There is alot of new age material available regarding this subject, and it makes sense that we manifest our own desiny.. and it even makes sense logical far down the road. If i am stuck in scarsity and is upset by every little thing i encounter, my experience of life will be "negative"... and i will fall further down this hole untill i release this negative spiral. If i always ecspect failure.. it will surely happen, atleast i will be so focused on this aspect of life that when something unfortunate happens, i will use it as evidence that life is unfair or whatever the pattern is etc.

: There is a place near my core where this matters to me, it is mostly a ? and sometimes a ?!.

: Is there a conflict between "goddes has it handled" and "creating our own reality"?

: I dont see the "surrender" as a passive.. make my life great Goddes and i will be here waiting for it to happen. More as an inner trust/knowingness that i will have the love, help, possibillities that serves me available at all times. And a trust that if i have unconsciouss patterns affecting me and my surroundings negatively they will be resolved as soon as i am able to life without them.. and that somehow it will all come together.

: I can understand that when i mend with my inner divinity miracles happen. I can understand that when God-des is living trough me life makes more sense spirit wise if not always logically.

: But there seems to be a general set-up. There is planet earth, the sun, summer, winter, i was born, i have parents, i share the day to day experience with other human beings etc.

: I can understand in my spirit the freedom of the "himalayan saints". I can understand that i can have that freedom even though i do not live in the Himalaya.

: I guess it all comes down to the big questions of exsistence:

: why are we here? & the purpose of life?.

: Is my inner divinity there for me to dive in and create life.. or am i here for my inner divinity to experience whatever it chooses?

: Any insights would be greatly appreciated. Also how you use/live/experience this in your life.

: Blessings
: Tommy