Weight issues

[Kimberly]

I have been overweight all my life, as I've said in previous posts to this board. I have tried every diet I could get my hands on, and every miracle drug with the exception of Phen Phen. I've worked out regularly and all that jazz, but as I've mentioned before, I've never been able to lose any significant weight. Neither have I gained weight. I have always remained exactly the same whether I gorge myself (which I very rarely do because I don't like the feeling of being too full) or if I starve myself.

Mystress has given me the advice of breathing in through the thyroid chakra, which is what I've been doing for the past week or so. I haven't seen or felt any real results yet, but I've decided not to put any expectations on it, so it might take a while for me to come to understand the connection once there are results.

The other night, I was doing my karma clearing, and I asked to be shown anything that I'm holding on to or that I've not given up or whatever that is effecting my weight. The only thing that came to mind is this very vague idea that I'm holding on to a fear of freedom. The next day I mentioned that to Gustaf and he got a vision of me being very attached to the stigma of being heavy, attached to the familiar limitations and low expectations put upon me because of the weight.

He told me to be present whenever I have any sort of thought whatsoever about my weight, and follow it to where it comes from so that I'll know what to surrender.

This all makes sense to me, but I'm still struggling with trying to understand what it is that I should be surrendering. I've surrendered the fear every time I've thought about it. I've surrendered every thought positive or negative about my weight, my upbringing that brought on the weight gain, and anything else that could remotely have anything to do with it... I just can't think of anything more to surrender in regards to this issue, yet I feel a very strong conviction that my weight is due to emotional/spiritual issues more than physical. I've also surrendered that conviction.  

I'm writing this mostly to surrender it in writing to Goddess, but if anybody gets any insights from reading this, I'd love to hear them.

Thanks!

Kimberly

[Mystress]

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