Question about Divine Beloved

[kittygrrl]

Several months before starting FST, I had a very real and intense dream that I now think may have been my DB, but I have some confusion on the matter.

I was in a dark room, strung up like in a sundance, tethers attached to these stones that had been inserted into parts of my body. The people there (couldn't see them) were using the tethers to try to pull me apart. I was screaming in fear and agony, knowing I was certainly going to die while they watched. Then, the leader of this group of shadows (I got the feeling he was in charge of this "ritual") spoke up and said "Stop it! You're scaring her to death." He stepped forward out of the shadows.

He then made everyone leave, lit some candles, and began to comfort and care for me. It was very soothing, and I felt so much love and compassion for and from this man. It became very sensual, and seductive! I woke up from this dream feeling wonderful, incredibly light and refreshed, full of love and joy. That feeling stayed with me for quite awhile, and I only had to think about him to increase it. After reading the lession on meeting your Divine Beloved, I can't help but wonder if he was my DB? Is that possible? If so, why was he trying to tear me apart at first?

[Lynn]

: Several months before starting FST, I had a very real and intense dream that I now think may have been my DB, but I have some confusion on the matter.

: I was in a dark room, strung up like in a sundance, tethers attached to these stones that had been inserted into parts of my body. The people there (couldn't see them) were using the tethers to try to pull me apart. I was screaming in fear and agony, knowing I was certainly going to die while they watched. Then, the leader of this group of shadows (I got the feeling he was in charge of this "ritual") spoke up and said "Stop it! You're scaring her to death." He stepped forward out of the shadows.

:  He then made everyone leave, lit some candles, and began to comfort and care for me. It was very soothing, and I felt so much love and compassion for and from this man. It became very sensual, and seductive! I woke up from this dream feeling wonderful, incredibly light and refreshed, full of love and joy. That feeling stayed with me for quite awhile, and I only had to think about him to increase it. After reading the lession on meeting your Divine Beloved, I can't help but wonder if he was my DB? Is that possible? If so, why was he trying to tear me apart at first?

This is just a suggestion, of course, but perhaps the dream was indicating the "tearing apart" of your old concepts that needs to take place before your DB and you can unify fully. It could be signifying to you that although it feels like you are dying sometimes,it's only the ego, not to worry, everything will turn out the way it should.

[Gustaf]

: Several months before starting FST, I had a very real and intense dream that I now think may have been my DB, but I have some confusion on the matter.

: I was in a dark room, strung up like in a sundance, tethers attached to these stones that had been inserted into parts of my body. The people there (couldn't see them) were using the tethers to try to pull me apart. I was screaming in fear and agony, knowing I was certainly going to die while they watched. Then, the leader of this group of shadows (I got the feeling he was in charge of this "ritual") spoke up and said "Stop it! You're scaring her to death." He stepped forward out of the shadows.

:  He then made everyone leave, lit some candles, and began to comfort and care for me. It was very soothing, and I felt so much love and compassion for and from this man. It became very sensual, and seductive! I woke up from this dream feeling wonderful, incredibly light and refreshed, full of love and joy. That feeling stayed with me for quite awhile, and I only had to think about him to increase it. After reading the lession on meeting your Divine Beloved, I can't help but wonder if he was my DB? Is that possible? If so, why was he trying to tear me apart at first?

Doesn't the DB also show up as a Shadow aspect?  Like the good cop/bad cop of your own unconcious, both consisting of unconditional love, wishing for you to go beyond your old emotional baggage and self image.

The tearing apart is almost a bit like Kali, ripping your self image and beliefs into shreds, or the male archetype of Rudra (Shiva in his destructive image)  Then the beautiful form manifests, and pulls you out of the remains.

I can't tell you whether he was your DB or not. But maybe you can? Maybe even ask him, whenever he manifests?

Either way it sounds like an incredible dream!

Namaste
Gustaf

[kittygrrl]

: : Several months before starting FST, I had a very real and intense dream that I now think may have been my DB, but I have some confusion on the matter.

: : I was in a dark room, strung up like in a sundance, tethers attached to these stones that had been inserted into parts of my body. The people there (couldn't see them) were using the tethers to try to pull me apart. I was screaming in fear and agony, knowing I was certainly going to die while they watched. Then, the leader of this group of shadows (I got the feeling he was in charge of this "ritual") spoke up and said "Stop it! You're scaring her to death." He stepped forward out of the shadows.

: :  He then made everyone leave, lit some candles, and began to comfort and care for me. It was very soothing, and I felt so much love and compassion for and from this man. It became very sensual, and seductive! I woke up from this dream feeling wonderful, incredibly light and refreshed, full of love and joy. That feeling stayed with me for quite awhile, and I only had to think about him to increase it. After reading the lession on meeting your Divine Beloved, I can't help but wonder if he was my DB? Is that possible? If so, why was he trying to tear me apart at first?

: Doesn't the DB also show up as a Shadow aspect?  Like the good cop/bad cop of your own unconcious, both consisting of unconditional love, wishing for you to go beyond your old emotional baggage and self image.

: The tearing apart is almost a bit like Kali, ripping your self image and beliefs into shreds, or the male archetype of Rudra (Shiva in his destructive image)  Then the beautiful form manifests, and pulls you out of the remains.

: I can't tell you whether he was your DB or not. But maybe you can? Maybe even ask him, whenever he manifests?

: Either way it sounds like an incredible dream!

: Namaste
: Gustaf

Thanks Lynn and Gustaf for your words and insights as always...I really appreciate it!

Gustaf...I don't know very much about the shadow and I guess I'm confused as to the relationship between DB and the Shadow...but now you have me thinking. Thing is, I haven't been able to "see" my "DB" or get this same person from my dream to manifest so I can ask him. I've had several other beings from dreams make repeat appearances (dreams only... yep, my dreams are highly entertaining, but I'm not that evolved on the waking plane!), down the point where it's pretty amusing (Oh, hi again, it's you!) but this guy....nope. No go. Hence my confusion...hadn't seen him before and I haven't seen him since, unless he's showing up in different guises Ah, me confused....now THAT's nothing new

[Mystress]

Hello, Kittygrrrl:

 I cannot tell you if it was your DB, although it sounds like it.

 The best way to interpret dreams is to realize that you are all the players in your dream, all of them are aspects of yourself. Take the role to understand the motivation.

 Remember, you cannot feel pain, in dreams... there was no agony, you only felt fear. Without the fear, the death and rebirth is painless. Fear comes of not trusting. The dream is about your relationship to Kundalini.

 Normally, the unconscious mind is a slave to the ego self, and it may only interfere if asked, or to save your life. He did not speak out except to comment on your fear, which was inappropriate to that type of ritual. The self sacrifice is meant to be a gift of love.

   To me, your dream is simply archetypal... clear metaphors.  You were being torn apart because you asked to be, to become enlightened. When you resisted it stopped. Free Will is Goddess Law.

 Blessings...

: Several months before starting FST, I had a very real and intense dream that I now think may have been my DB, but I have some confusion on the matter.

: I was in a dark room, strung up like in a sundance, tethers attached to these stones that had been inserted into parts of my body. The people there (couldn't see them) were using the tethers to try to pull me apart. I was screaming in fear and agony, knowing I was certainly going to die while they watched. Then, the leader of this group of shadows (I got the feeling he was in charge of this "ritual") spoke up and said "Stop it! You're scaring her to death." He stepped forward out of the shadows.

:  He then made everyone leave, lit some candles, and began to comfort and care for me. It was very soothing, and I felt so much love and compassion for and from this man. It became very sensual, and seductive! I woke up from this dream feeling wonderful, incredibly light and refreshed, full of love and joy. That feeling stayed with me for quite awhile, and I only had to think about him to increase it. After reading the lession on meeting your Divine Beloved, I can't help but wonder if he was my DB? Is that possible? If so, why was he trying to tear me apart at first?