Strange experiences

[Kimberly]

Hi. I know this is the first time I've written to these boards, despite that I'm taking the classes too, but I usually don't really have much to say.

However, Gustaf has convinced me that the things I'm experiencing right now, which are very strange and somewhat difficult to describe, should be shared with the group and Mystress to see if anybody might be able to help me out with dealing with them, or figuring out what they are at least.

This is something thats been happening to me on and off ever since my Tummo Initiation last fall.

As I said, this is really hard to explain, so I hope this makes sense.

What seems to be happening is that out of nowhere, without any warning or apparent cause, my mind (for lack of a better word) is suddenly transported into what seems like another dimension or something. In this other dimension, I'll be with people who I know are familiar to me in that dimension, in places that are familiar to me in that dimension, doing things that seem natural in that dimension. However, when I come back to myself, I know that these are not people, places or things that I am familiar with in this life.

And occassionally, I'll be working on something in my normal "reality" and suddenly get the feeling that the things and people I've been thinking about for the past several minutes are things and people I don't know. Like, without realizing it, I've been contemplating things from some alternate reality or something. But, when I realize this, all the things I've been thinking about from this "alternate existance" slip from my mind and I can't remember any of them any more, no matter how hard I try.

This is not something that happens constantly, it often occurs every few weeks or something, and the episodes come and go for a period of a few days to a week, then they stop for a while.

This time, they began again yesterday, and last night while I was sleeping, it happened again. It was the first time that I remember it happening while I was asleep, and it seemed incredibly intense. I woke up with a very strange feeling, like it was awkward to be in my head or something. And I had a slight headache.

Then later, I ended up taking a nap in the middle of the day, which is something I never really do, and it happened again, and I woke up with a horrible headache, and I remember that there was a very distinctive smell when I woke up from that too, but now I can't remember exactly what the smell was, only that it was very strong and unpleasant, and for some reason reminded me of some sort of medical something or other, like a smell you'd find in a hospital or something. I also woke up feeling somewhat powerless and down because of that powerlessness.

And I have to confess I'm a little scared that I'm suddenly going schitzophrenic or something. I know that sounds ridiculous, but I don't know any other way to describe this, and I'm getting kinda nervous about it.

So, if any of you can give me any idea as to what these experiences might be, how I should deal with them or even draw some sort of benefit from them, I'd really love to hear it.

Thanks for listening anyway.

Namaste,
Kimberly

[Mystress]

  Hello, Kimberly. Glad to see you posting.

  I have had experiences like this too. Being other aspects of myself, but the memories fade when I return here, and that is as Goddess Wills.

 We are multidimensional beings. The node of consciousness that experiences itself as Kimberly in the here and now is also experiencing itself as other persons in other places. Sometimes in the Twilight Zone we get a glimpse of this: the phenomena is not completely uncommon because it appears so often in fiction literature, TV shows like "Quantum Leap" or "Sliders." All the stories of someone falling through a window in time and space and being someplace else, for a while. Kidnapped by Faeries. It is a "hook" in several stories I can think of, to have a charachter split in two parts, one that is off having adventures and another that is locked in the rubber room at the funny farm, dreaming the adventures. Read a fantasy novel, last week with the same theme. "The Iron Dragon's Daughter."

 The fear that our lives are not reality and really only the dreams of madness, typically comes up along the path of awakening.  It is part of getting used to the idea that life is an illusion, the soul's dreaming... It is one of the places where "fear of insanity" manifests, to be released.

 The resolution is that... it doesn't matter. In the here and now, you are having the experience of being Kimberly, writing to the Tea Room. Just keep dealing with what is in front of you.

 Blessings...

: Hi. I know this is the first time I've written to these boards, despite that I'm taking the classes too, but I usually don't really have much to say.

: However, Gustaf has convinced me that the things I'm experiencing right now, which are very strange and somewhat difficult to describe, should be shared with the group and Mystress to see if anybody might be able to help me out with dealing with them, or figuring out what they are at least.

: This is something thats been happening to me on and off ever since my Tummo Initiation last fall.

: As I said, this is really hard to explain, so I hope this makes sense.

: What seems to be happening is that out of nowhere, without any warning or apparent cause, my mind (for lack of a better word) is suddenly transported into what seems like another dimension or something. In this other dimension, I'll be with people who I know are familiar to me in that dimension, in places that are familiar to me in that dimension, doing things that seem natural in that dimension. However, when I come back to myself, I know that these are not people, places or things that I am familiar with in this life.

: And occassionally, I'll be working on something in my normal "reality" and suddenly get the feeling that the things and people I've been thinking about for the past several minutes are things and people I don't know. Like, without realizing it, I've been contemplating things from some alternate reality or something. But, when I realize this, all the things I've been thinking about from this "alternate existance" slip from my mind and I can't remember any of them any more, no matter how hard I try.

: This is not something that happens constantly, it often occurs every few weeks or something, and the episodes come and go for a period of a few days to a week, then they stop for a while.

: This time, they began again yesterday, and last night while I was sleeping, it happened again. It was the first time that I remember it happening while I was asleep, and it seemed incredibly intense. I woke up with a very strange feeling, like it was awkward to be in my head or something. And I had a slight headache.

: Then later, I ended up taking a nap in the middle of the day, which is something I never really do, and it happened again, and I woke up with a horrible headache, and I remember that there was a very distinctive smell when I woke up from that too, but now I can't remember exactly what the smell was, only that it was very strong and unpleasant, and for some reason reminded me of some sort of medical something or other, like a smell you'd find in a hospital or something. I also woke up feeling somewhat powerless and down because of that powerlessness.

: And I have to confess I'm a little scared that I'm suddenly going schitzophrenic or something. I know that sounds ridiculous, but I don't know any other way to describe this, and I'm getting kinda nervous about it.

: So, if any of you can give me any idea as to what these experiences might be, how I should deal with them or even draw some sort of benefit from them, I'd really love to hear it.

: Thanks for listening anyway.

: Namaste,
: Kimberly