Hello again

[acolyte]

Hi everyone.  I've been involved with the course off and on for a while now.  Seems I deep down (inner guru?) know there is much more to life, but laziness usually creeps in and eventually chokes off my active interest.

Anyway, a stumbling block for me in the course comes when listening for the heart voice.  I've had intermittent glimpses of feelings, but having little patience, I've given up, and figured "It's just not time yet."  Recently after I came back, I rushed through the beginning lessons, got to the heart voice lesson, and got discouraged again.  Started the same pattern of shelving the whole thing.

I don't want this to turn into an essay...but an insight I gained tonight, after going back to lesson 1...is that there is no hurry.  I reread the lessons, and gained a lot from them.  I must have read them 10 times before, but somehow missed so much.  Even writing this post has allowed me a new perspective.  And all I'm doing is following the first lesson...keep a journal.  It's right there in black and white, but I knew better.  That wasn't for me.

Of course, it's easy to blame my attitude on today's society...instant everything...but that's a poor excuse.
Hopefully, *this* time I will maintain a modicum of self-discipline, exhibit some patience, and benefit from this valuable resource, this forum included.  Take care everyone!