Hey Squirrell and Hello to new member Chad

[Ellie]

Hi Chad, hope all is well.

Gosh, responding to your recent posting Squirrell.

It was not a pleasant exprience at first. Not in the least
It felt really weird and very troubling. My body would shake and shiver
a great deal. I messed up my life financially , but am in recovery mode now.
I also did some really dumb things along the way, mostly just talking to myself
and engaging some entities ( not a good thing to do). All that has cleared with determination and good ole
common sense.  

I guess the keyword is grounding. It has been the most important aspect of K thus far.
Also, I worked with sound vibration to settle my energy.The sound technology and vibration
chakra stuff that cleared me up considerably. I went through a similar exprience where
I did not know how to be myself, who to talk to and so forth. Its a combination
of being too aware of oneself and lack of grouding. When you are
grounded it is no longer an issue. I did a combination of Mystress grounding meditation
and Budhist insight meditation (anything that brings the energy back within yourself).
I did this by focusing on looking within myself, for me second and third chakras were my focal
points. I started taking flac seed oil and lots of vitamin E. Acupunture helps clear the
physical blocks that are stagnations (emotional, mental whatever)
that K wants to clear. This how I managed to balance the energy.  I totally sympathize with your
experience and offer only my version, as K is unique to everyone's own being.

Im at a place where I want to share with others who have been through this
rather unique experience. It was truamatic at first but now Im so used to it
that it has become second nature to me. Some really awesome moments of
bliss that comes when I come into contact with certain people.

I hope this helps. I know that this experience can only get better for
you. Corresponding with you all really does put me in a good mood.
Having a community is what its about for me.

Much love for all of you,

Ellie  

[Squirell]

:
: Hi Chad, hope all is well.

: Gosh, responding to your recent posting Squirrell.

: It was not a pleasant exprience at first. Not in the least
: It felt really weird and very troubling. My body would shake and shiver
: a great deal. I messed up my life financially , but am in recovery mode now.
: I also did some really dumb things along the way, mostly just talking to myself
: and engaging some entities ( not a good thing to do). All that has cleared with determination and good ole
: common sense.  

: I guess the keyword is grounding. It has been the most important aspect of K thus far.
: Also, I worked with sound vibration to settle my energy.The sound technology and vibration
: chakra stuff that cleared me up considerably. I went through a similar exprience where
: I did not know how to be myself, who to talk to and so forth. Its a combination
: of being too aware of oneself and lack of grouding. When you are
: grounded it is no longer an issue. I did a combination of Mystress grounding meditation
: and Budhist insight meditation (anything that brings the energy back within yourself).
: I did this by focusing on looking within myself, for me second and third chakras were my focal
: points. I started taking flac seed oil and lots of vitamin E. Acupunture helps clear the
: physical blocks that are stagnations (emotional, mental whatever)
: that K wants to clear. This how I managed to balance the energy.  I totally sympathize with your
: experience and offer only my version, as K is unique to everyone's own being.

: Im at a place where I want to share with others who have been through this
: rather unique experience. It was truamatic at first but now Im so used to it
: that it has become second nature to me. Some really awesome moments of
: bliss that comes when I come into contact with certain people.

: I hope this helps. I know that this experience can only get better for
: you. Corresponding with you all really does put me in a good mood.
: Having a community is what its about for me.

: Much love for all of you,

: Ellie  

: Hello to Chad too!!!
Thank you for replying Ellie, it was nice to read your words and I did write you a reply, but it wittered on, so I didn't send it.

I think rather, I posted a morose poem later, about someone close leaving. It was good for me, because I could express it in a safe enviroment (thank you everyone)but probably abit "Bloody hell" for everyone else, so no more of that will be going on (possible changes could occur tomorrow:)

Thought I'd try again at ans Ellie - you said that you did Buddhist insight meditation, which type of Buddhism is it?

I went to a Zen Buddhist retreat where you practised focusing in the here and now, letting all thoughts go, regardless of what.  Is it similar?
I probably do meditation alot less than all
of you, so I would love to hear any experiences in relation to it.

My experience was:
In the first session (which was an hour)the sounding of a big gong making me jump and the lady next to me falling off her stool! then I got "told off" by the monk for laughing.

I liked being there, and that some of the Nuns and Monks could still relate to others. They were still grounded.  What I'd seen of spiritual people  and the religious studies dept at college, was that if someone is spiritually high they would find it hard to commune with people who are not, and feel "been there, done that".  I Think the monks understood.
I liked that.
words run like water, once pooled all the same.

I don't want to be that spiritually high if I can help it.  I'd just rather calm where I am.  Mystress Angelique, the monks and a lot of others I admire, their power is amazing, but I don't aspire to it.  No way.  I don't want to be shamanically munched.

Nor do I want to get to the stage where I meditate all day and decide at the end, that my hair is getting in the way of my connection with universal energy.

With the Goddess, its unconditional, I can just be me, If I don't like something ( and thats me being honest about how it went for me) I can give it to her and she takes it from me.  Now, even when its something I really love, I give it and many more thanks besides. Its so true about if you need to deal with it the goddess gives it back. Thks Mystress.

I've done it again, whittering.

Hope you ans the orignal question Ellie, more to ask.

Any one else out there?

Take care
Squirell