I've just established a very deep connetion with myself, and I'm in love.

[Embrace]

I came to a realization tonight. We are all constantly connected to our true weather we choose to be or not, and weather we choose to listen or not. All the memories and fears we have experienced up till now and all we will experience is only happening to us so that we as a universal conscious awareness can better ourselves. Because that's what we're here to do. That's what love is.  We create our own reality by choosing to love everything equally and therefore resonating with our pure nature.  When we resonate that way, we bring part of the universe back into harmony and compel the other parts to do the same.  Like a lake that you drop a stone into and the ripples on the water know how to rearrange themselves into one harmonious state again.
The spirit is beyond emotions. Love is not an emotion, it's a state of being. I now understand that it doesn't matter what it takes to get you here because once you're here you can never go fully back.  You can still become too distracted by your ego to really listen to yourself, but that's what meditation is for. It's so you can get your ego out of the way unite with your true self.  I've always understood that on an intellectual level but never on an experiential one.   I've been too attached to the intellectual to the let experiential hold as much importance in my mind.  Not giving equal love to both.  The union produces something more beautiful than either of the two alone.  Awareness.  Feeling the love of creation.  You are making something that wasn't there before, creating awareness from nothing. A child.
I'm very grateful to be alive.

[DeviRam]

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: I came to a realization tonight. We are all constantly connected to our true weather we choose to be or not, and weather we choose to listen or not. All the memories and fears we have experienced up till now and all we will experience is only happening to us so that we as a universal conscious awareness can better ourselves. Because that's what we're here to do. That's what love is.  We create our own reality by choosing to love everything equally and therefore resonating with our pure nature.  When we resonate that way, we bring part of the universe back into harmony and compel the other parts to do the same.  Like a lake that you drop a stone into and the ripples on the water know how to rearrange themselves into one harmonious state again.
: The spirit is beyond emotions. Love is not an emotion, it's a state of being.
Hello, friend, I like this point a lot... love is not an emotion.. it is a state of being... life...
I now understand that it doesn't matter what it takes to get you here because once you're here you can never go fully back.  You can still become too distracted by your ego to really listen to yourself, but that's what meditation is for. It's so you can get your ego out of the way unite with your true self.
I wonder if the point is really to get the ego out of the way or just to recognize it, to let it be because we are not we it is.. We are.. so all falls back at its place, and the ego has also its place as long as we do not let it fool us anymore... For me it was a great feeling of freedom when I realised that the point is not to get rid of the ego but just to be on the camp of Being and to let everything else find its place within being... I do not know if I express myself clearly? It's like putting the sword down and realise that there can not be ennemies because only the Self, Being is, and that as long as we have a body the ego has its value too... What do you think?
 I've always understood that on an intellectual level but never on an experiential one.   I've been too attached to the intellectual to the let experiential hold as much importance in my mind.  Not giving equal love to both.  The union produces something more beautiful than either of the two alone.  Awareness.  Feeling the love of creation.  You are making something that wasn't there before, creating awareness from nothing. A child.
: I'm very grateful to be alive.
Me too......

[Embrace]

: I wonder if the point is really to get the ego out of the way or just to recognize it, to let it be because we are not we it is.. We are.. so all falls back at its place, and the ego has also its place as long as we do not let it fool us anymore... For me it was a great feeling of freedom when I realised that the point is not to get rid of the ego but just to be on the camp of Being and to let everything else find its place within being... I do not know if I express myself clearly? It's like putting the sword down and realise that there can not be ennemies because only the Self, Being is, and that as long as we have a body the ego has its value too... What do you think?

I definitely agree with you on that.  = )   I love my ego as much as anything else, but for a long time I've let it rule my actions. Now it acts like a spoiled child who wants to hold my full attention all the time, even speaking over the voice of my DB or higher self when I ask questions.  It fools me, as you put it.  I also feel that it acts as a filter to my creativity.  The creative states that I enjoy the most come from being in pure, unfiltered contact with my higher self, but recently (as in not as child), I've only experienced those states with the help of psyochoactives.  I want to be able to quiet my mind without having to harm my body in the process.  Right now, I have a lot of trouble doing the grounding exercise, because as soon as I begin to feel something my ego steps in to analyze it and it's gone.  Any suggestions?   I've tried giving my analytical mind to Goddess but it feels like it's something I'm not ready to part with yet.  Maybe that's just my fear of what I might discover when I do...

Much love and gratitude for all your time and focus.  
Kim