Spring is Here

[Shara]

Hi to All,

  For the past several months I have been feeling in a kind of spiritual limbo.  Knowing that these are cycles I have seen before and it's not such a big deal I just carry on with my studies and try not to take it too seriously.  I think it feels like my third eye to a great degree shuts down and I miss out on feeling that connection that I know will eventually be a permanent state.

  Now everything is opening up again,or at least partly.  But my DB has not shown up, and a new Guide is here to teach me.  He is very different-this beautiful shiny angel ( I joked with him and told him he looks a bit like that Fabio dude)-Everything feels so...well...celestial or something.  When I meditate there are butterflies all over.  I've gone from lions and wild Apaches to butterflies and Angels  Sheesh, Goddess likes to throw us a curve!

 I guess I'm mostly wondering why I'm tuning in at certain times, and then I go for a long stretch where I have a more difficult time connecting.  I am a bit confused also that just when I feel I am working with my DB hand in hand ,he's not around.

  C-Light I am very interested in hearing about your trip!  It sounds soooo interesting.  Happy travels!

                                   Shara

[Mystress]

 Hi Shara:
   Kundalini tends to follow a path like a biorhytm. Sometimes high, other times invisible... it all balances out in its own time. After a while you stop questioning its orbit, and just go with the flow.  

 Like me... at present I am sooo detached that it is like my head floats above me on a string like a balloon... teflon aura. Nothing sticks. No motivation but plenty of bliss. Delicious!

Pleasantly detached like a buddha and very glad and peaceful.

 However, that state of detachment makes my committments pile up like these tea room posts are piling up. I read the tea room every day and have read some posts six times but they are lovely and perfect just as they are and I do not seem to find a response. Goddess has it handled.

  It was only today I stopped to consider my present state... even tho it has been going on for days.  druid mentioned that I seem aloof lately yesterday... or was it two days ago? Time is slippery. I realized he was correct but there did not seem to be any reason to change it.

 So I asked Goddess whatzup and got that this is a nice little vacation, after a few weeks of intense hyperfocus on web design work. Totally redoing the gateway, plus adding some stuff to this site and my others.

 When I am hyperfocused like that, I am mostly not in my body and I end up stiff and short sleeped. Hard on the body, it is getting a nice vacation now.

 The only thing that is really holding my attenion these days, is soapmaking. The tallow I rendered the past two days is hardening in my fridge, and it is lovely and snow white. I now have all the essential ingredients for my first soap making experiment. That is exciting! Heh... I bet it will be great soap, there is so much love going into it.

 Anyhow.. the weather is gorgeous today, and I am off to attend a nude wedding on the beach! Lovely. The beach has a fabulous energy vortex and is very wild and natural.

 Will respond to the rest of the posts whenever I come back to the world... in the meantime, it is great to read them, and where my attention goes, my energy goes.
Love and buddha hugs to all!

: Hi to All,

:
:    For the past several months I have been feeling in a kind of spiritual limbo.  Knowing that these are cycles I have seen before and it's not such a big deal I just carry on with my studies and try not to take it too seriously.  I think it feels like my third eye to a great degree shuts down and I miss out on feeling that connection that I know will eventually be a permanent state.

:    Now everything is opening up again,or at least partly.  But my DB has not shown up, and a new Guide is here to teach me.  He is very different-this beautiful shiny angel ( I joked with him and told him he looks a bit like that Fabio dude)-Everything feels so...well...celestial or something.  When I meditate there are butterflies all over.  I've gone from lions and wild Apaches to butterflies and Angels  Sheesh, Goddess likes to throw us a curve!

:   I guess I'm mostly wondering why I'm tuning in at certain times, and then I go for a long stretch where I have a more difficult time connecting.  I am a bit confused also that just when I feel I am working with my DB hand in hand ,he's not around.

:    C-Light I am very interested in hearing about your trip!  It sounds soooo interesting.  Happy travels!

:                                     Shara

[Shara]

 Mystress,

  Your post was so nice-made me smile to get a little hit of your buddha-buzz!;-)  Yeah, It just kind of came to me today how my thoughts about this process are like these little footnotes-they mean so little.  It is all in the being, heh?  

 I always get a great feeling when I am in the middle of some creative process.  How did your soap come out?  Hey maybe you could market it on your website as FST Soap-" Wash your karma away with Mystress' Marvelous Soap"-  Forget snake oil...this is serpent soap!!!

                  Hugs back at ya!
                             Shara

[Mystress]

:  Mystress,

:
:    Your post was so nice-made me smile to get a little hit of your buddha-buzz!;-)

Oh, I am glad!

:   Yeah, It just kind of came to me today how my thoughts about this process are like these little footnotes-they mean so little.  It is all in the being, heh?  

Yes. when the process is in process (which it is, even when it seems silent) most of the stuff that comes up, the thoughts and moods are the stuff on its way out. Thinking about it slows its exit and makes it bigger, feeding it on the energy of attention.

 There is a thread on K-list I have been too detached to respond to, or even read all of... very unusual for me to have 20 unread K-list posts piled up in that mailbox...

 Anyways, the thread is on what is thought? One of the first responses were that thoughts are the Divine coming forth. What that really means, depends on what chakra level you look at it from.

  In non duality, it is true but where we live in the physical, it is clear that some thoughts... like your insight about being, carry a very different charge in the body than other thoughts... like wondering where your DB got to.
  Some thoughts ARE inspired directly, and you feel the resonance in your belly. Your heart lifts, your power chakra expands. You feel filled. There is wonder, and simplicity. Sometimes a sense of humility that you did not see the simplicity before. Grace speaks.

 Other thoughts are also inspired, but it is your DB asking permission to take out the trash. Saying "Do you still want to hang onto this idea or can we let it go?" These thoughts can be recognised by how they make you feel smaller and weaker. Let them go, shrug them off, surrender them. Come back to the Now, to Being.

 I wrote recently about how we all have a merkaba built in, factory equiptment, Goddess provides. It is navigated by thought and emotion.

Anything you attach to takes you to a subtly different universe. If you start to observe how the world changes, when it is raining, or when your boss or lover is having a bad day, you will become more aware of how you move through dimensional worlds as well as time.

 Pulled into other people's worlds. Pulled out of yourself, into the past or dreaming the future. Giving your life energy to that. Your power.

 All this travelling just gets tiring. It makes cool fiction, like Stargate or Sliders. Life threatening drama... who would want to live like that?

 It is time to come home, into your Self, into being. Then the navigation is handled, you go there. Into Grace. Becoming fully present in your own world. Home.

:   I always get a great feeling when I am in the middle of some creative process.

Yes... when it is flowing the alchemy is wondrous.

:  How did your soap come out?

I have not made it yet... I have not yet been inspired as to what herbs or fragrance to add, if any. I have a pretty good collection of essential oils and herbs. I will feel my way through it tomorrow probably, and see what is inspired.

 I was at the wedding... which was a really wonderful day. I have been to a lot of weddings, and this one was the best. It was so darn cute I thought I had not missed the 60s after all. Very relaxed and joyful. The weather was amazing, the ceremony was interrupted to watch a mating flight of bald eagles occuring in the sky above the beach, counted as a blessing on the marriage. It was just that kind of day.

  Kind of amazing for me, it is the first time that portions of the three main communities I socialize with, were together in numbers. Pagans, beach folk and fetish people. It is like seeing seeds I scattered years before, bearing fruit.

 As it turns out, you might be able to attend, on TV. There was a camera crew for an upcoming show on Life channel called "wierd marriages"... by the people who brought you "weird homes". It will probably weeks or months till it comes on the air.

: Hey maybe you could market it on your website as FST Soap-" Wash your karma away with Mystress' Marvelous Soap"-  Forget snake oil...this is serpent soap!!!

Oh, that is funny... I have been reading about soapmaking for a few months, gradually gathering what I need and getting courage to handle lye. I was writing to one of my Priestesses a few days ago and it karma clearing soap joke occurred to me, including the snake oil part... I laughed and surrendered it. Gave love to the idea of simple, pure beautiful soap, with oatmeal and bentonite clay added. No magic required but simple sensory pleasure in the moment of bathing.

 Few days or webpages of research later,  Goddess gave it back. I read it is a tradition in the far east to give gifts of handmade soap, to wash bad luck away. Heh.. and now you. That makes three.

 Well, I am going to make some soap. If Goddess wants to enhance the result, then She will. Sounds like She plans to... heh. Surrender that too.
   Blessings!  

:                    Hugs back at ya!
:                               Shara