Merci Mystress

[DeviRam]

Merci Mystress for your answer. Your link on how to clear entities helps me already a lot because I had not realised the value to focus on something else after inviting the entity (or any other energy, right?) to trasmute into light, and also had not realized that by focusing too much on an entity we actually pin it down.

I have quite a few questions which alreay came up :
_ On lesson one, you describe kundalini, if I understood well, as universal energy. I never had for myself the experience of a lighning of light in the spine. But I regularly have the experience of a very soft, warm energy slowly going up the spine till the top of the head, bringing with it a feeling of deep unity and harmony with all. Is this kind of experience also a kundalini experience? I do not however have the experience permanently, and it should be permanent, right? The feeling of unity is permanent, but often only comes as a feeling to be silence, pure Being, permeating all. Only when the light also flows there is one added fullness, a sense of deep joy.
Also during sex, although sex is for me a very deep experience of unity with all, enhancement of love and very pleasant feeling throughout the whole body, I never had the "big ban"which people describe as orgasm. Does this mean that I never had orgasms, or are my orgasms different?

- In your link "the divine Beloved" you speak of the unconscious creating a form of the perfect beloved for us. I hv the great fortune to have for a husband the perfect manifestation of what I imagined as the perfect beloved, so do not need to appeal to the the unconscious for this, but thiere is an experience which puzzles me : I experience the Divine as "The One", both masculine and feminine, beyond name and form, whose body I can touch when my own body melts into infinity, whose senses are not encapsuled in sense organs but are the fine niveau of the senses, who is the perfection of the One Self of all there is. In addition, since I started being busy with healing, I often perceive divine personalities, who have all the qualities of the One described before, but who in addition have a body, with a face, hair etc. These Beings ( Christ, Maria, Uma, Durga...) always appear extremely beautiful, vital, radiant. The experience is very concrete. For instance if Christ moves His Hair, I feel the prana entering into the pores of my Being etc. Are those the creation of my unconscious or of the unconscious of the people who are being healed? In the same way, the Angel who heals through me often appears as having a very beautiful face... Are those -physical appearances the creation of the unconscious or is it that Divine Beings do have a body?

-When I now repeatedly do the grounding visualisation you advise to do 8 times a day for 45 days, after some time (it does take a few minutes for the bla-bla of the mind to settle...) the white-golden light which flows towards me from the center of the earth becomes as a blue hue, a very soft warm blue energy which enters the body and fills it. Then the body expands into infinity and there is only silence and this blue energy. Is this a valid experience or should I rather focus on keekping the flow of light?.
This is for now. I feel very grateful to be able to communicate with you and send all Love
DeviRam

[Mystress]

  Hello, DeviRam:

: Merci Mystress for your answer. Your link on how to clear entities helps me already a lot because I had not realised the value to focus on something else after inviting the entity (or any other energy, right?)

Right. You have to let go of the attachment of your attention before Goddess can take it. Otherwise, your words say one thing and your actions say another, and actions are stronger than words.

:to trasmute into light, and also had not realized that by focusing too much on an entity we actually pin it down.

: I have quite a few questions which alreay came up :
: _ On lesson one, you describe kundalini, if I understood well, as universal energy. I never had for myself the experience of a lighning of light in the spine. But I regularly have the experience of a very soft, warm energy slowly going up the spine till the top of the head, bringing with it a feeling of deep unity and harmony with all. Is this kind of experience also a kundalini experience?

Yes! Not everybody gets lightning and freight trains... and in some ways it is a good sign if you do not. Your energy is flowing smoothly.

I do not however have the experience permanently, and it should be permanent, right?

Yes and no. Do not judge yourself too harshly. where you are at, is perfection in the here and now.

 For example, right now I am running on about 2 hours sleep, having stayed up all night redoing the FST e-card site. (Not uploaded yet.)
Anytime I turn inward the energy is there, the Grail, the glow and the joy... but at present I am turned outward writing to you, partly focused on directing my housekeeper, etc... so I feel it less. With time, the energy becomes more permanent but even the Buddha can have a bad hair day.

: The feeling of unity is permanent, but often only comes as a feeling to be silence, pure Being, permeating all. Only when the light also flows there is one added fullness, a sense of deep joy.

Beautiful!

: Also during sex, although sex is for me a very deep experience of unity with all, enhancement of love and very pleasant feeling throughout the whole body, I never had the "big ban"which people describe as orgasm. Does this mean that I never had orgasms, or are my orgasms different?

Hmm... it could be several things. Could be your energy flows so smooth through the second chakra that it is redirected higher automatically, but I tend to think it is more likely your second chakra is blocked or shelled. Could be you are not quite in your body enough to feel sex as sex. Hmmm.. feels like that is it.

: - In your link "the divine Beloved" you speak of the unconscious creating a form of the perfect beloved for us. I hv the great fortune to have for a husband the perfect manifestation of what I imagined as the perfect beloved, so do not need to appeal to the the unconscious for this,

NO! That is not what it is about. Your husband cannot be God for you, you have to look within for that, and put your DB first. Do not project your DB onto your husband. That is what "falling in love" is. Being "in love" is not the same as "being love". There is separation. You have to clear those projections, so you can see and love your husband for who he really is, and create an internal relationship to your own body-mind.

:but thiere is an experience which puzzles me : I experience the Divine as "The One", both masculine and feminine, beyond name and form, whose body I can touch when my own body melts into infinity, whose senses are not encapsuled in sense organs but are the fine niveau of the senses, who is the perfection of the One Self of all there is.

It is possible that being is your DB.. it can take any form. It is your own Divinity, manifest as the polarity of your ego.

In addition, since I started being busy with healing, I often perceive divine personalities, who have all the qualities of the One described before, but who in addition have a body, with a face, hair etc. These Beings ( Christ, Maria, Uma, Durga...) always appear extremely beautiful, vital, radiant. The experience is very concrete. For instance if Christ moves His Hair, I feel the prana entering into the pores of my Being etc. Are those the creation of my unconscious or of the unconscious of the people who are being healed?

Where two or more are gathered in Love, Goddess is there. What form She takes depends on the beliefs of the people involved. The DB is God-dess taking form.
  Seeing your DB as all that Is, reflected in everything is the higher chakra goal... very good! However... the inward relationship must be primary, to give you a strong sense of Self in the physical world of here and now.

 My sense of you is that your upper chakras are in great shape, but your lower ones are... well, you do not live in your body. You have to clear the lower chakras to really occupy your physical being. That is the harder part of the process.

 I could be mistaken... check with your heart about it.

Possibly they are projecting these beings onto you, and by accepting their projections you become that. This is rocket fuel for spiritual growth, but in the long term it can be disempowering for both parties. They see Goddess in you but do not get to own/accept/unify with Her, in themselves. Also, if you are serving Goddess in them, then you are not focused on Goddess within yourself. These days I tend to lead people through the process of healing themselves rather than doing it for them, so they can know "thou art God."

:In the same way, the Angel who heals through me often appears as having a very beautiful face... Are those -physical appearances the creation of the unconscious or is it that Divine Beings do have a body?

Well, in some ways that is a not-answerable question. We cannot percieve anything except through unconscious interpretation so it is quite impossible to be "objective" and say a spiritual being is this or that. You see yourself reflected no matter what, a reflection of your unconscious beliefs. You are All.

 While working on my cardsite last night, I put up three pix of archangel Michael, by three different artists. None of them look exactly like the Michael I see... they are all blonde but that's it.
  When he is helping me work with people, I often do not mention him but people report seeing a light helping. I am Michael, he is the form my DB most often manifests as, for the sake of relationship.

: -When I now repeatedly do the grounding visualisation you advise to do 8 times a day for 45 days, after some time (it does take a few minutes for the bla-bla of the mind to settle...) the white-golden light which flows towards me from the center of the earth becomes as a blue hue, a very soft warm blue energy which enters the body and fills it. Then the body expands into infinity and there is only silence and this blue energy. Is this a valid experience or should I rather focus on keekping the flow of light?.

It is a perfect experience. K. fire often shows up blue. Blue is the color of the throat chakra, spiritual communication. That is why the Fire Serpent in the FST logo is purple and blue flames. K-fire plus Violet flame of Saint Germaine. Alchemy. The Shakti brings up stuff and the violet burns it away.
 If something like that happens in the grounding, most often Goddess did it and you can just go with it. If you were Tibetan, you would be imagining the Earth energy as Red and the sky energy as blue. The K. snakes are often shown red and blue too. I teach white for the grounding because it is universal and appropriate for beginners. When I ground, often I get the "clear light" which is like a transparent heat shimmer... but I do not suggest trying it till your energy body is mostly clear of shadow.

: This is for now. I feel very grateful to be able to communicate with you and send all Love
: DeviRam

Love to you too! Thanks for your questions.
  Blessings!