Need some help..

[Sean]

Hello Mystress,

I picked up some black stuff and I can't get rid of it. I've tried all my things I know, but its still stuck there. It was a few words spoken by a nun. Caught me all open from whats been going on. Of all the things to happen... And I was doing so good too...

Its been some time and I'm getting worried that its going deeper. I feel weighted down with it..

There is snow on the ground. Its happy time. I dont have time for this stuff anymore. What can I do?

Thanks

Sean

[Jasper]

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:  Hello Mystress,

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:  I picked up some black stuff and I can't get rid of it. I've tried all my things I know, but its still stuck there.
:  Its been some time and I'm getting worried that its going deeper. I feel weighted down with it..

Hi Sean,

Don't know if you tried this but what you can do is talk to it and ask why it is there and what the message for you in this is.

If it cannot easily be discarded, it is there with a reason i guess.

Blessings,
Jasper

[Sean]

Hello Jasper,

Yea, I've been trying that but I'm not sure thats it. Usualy it goes when I tell it I got the message. This stays. I'm not even sure about the message.

I've been trying new things too and have found out some cool new things to do. But still its not it.

Things I have tried:

Talking
Surrendering it
Surrendering any resistance to it..
Ignoring
Burning
Sending feelers into to charge it..
Loving (this was cool and new, but its not it..)
Healing
Asking other things I know of about it(learned here)

The thinking stuff
Not me, not going to worry about it
This belongs to Goddess not me,
Let it go,

I'm pretty much out of things I know how to do. And this is what I want to learn about how to stop from happening. Everytime I see a nun or priest or anyone with religious clothes on I get pretty mad. I might be happy all day, but they can ruin it if I see one. Now I already surrendered this idea away. But things are so new for me. I'm getting my personality back a little at a time and I'm working on getting everything together with me. Its a strange time and I'm pretty open to be hurt by these things.

Just yesterday I I saw music in 3d space again like I used to. I even had a dream last night that I remembered. I broke out my keyboard again, wanted to do more things in Photoshop. I'm getting better at being around everyone and was looking into classes and courses to work more on these things.

Now this happens.... Its like a taint in me. I dont want it. This is the stuff that drove me under before. I need to know how to deal with this. Its sticky.

Thanks

Sean

[Mystress]

  Heya:

   Not much I can add to what Jasper wrote. He is right. If you surrender something 10 times and Goddess won't take it, that is because She gave it to you, in the first place. Continuing to try to surrender it, is just using surrender as an avoidance behavior... another kind of resistance.

  You have to accept it and unwrap it like an X-mas gift. So you can find out what it is and what its for. Goddess is All, so She is in that persistent gunk too. You have to unwrap it and find Her wisdom inside.

  Sometimes the unwrapping make take a good long look in the "Ugly mirror", which can be uncomfortable.. painful or embarassing, but the insights are jewels worth getting a little muddy to dig out.

 Ya cannot surrender it, so you surrender TO it. Accept the message inside, then it will go on its own because its job is done.

 I have a pretty good idea what is in the package, and it has to do with how your negative feelings about the church smacks your head.
  Happy Holidays!

:
:  Hello Mystress,

:
:  I picked up some black stuff and I can't get rid of it. I've tried all my things I know, but its still stuck there. It was a few words spoken by a nun. Caught me all open from whats been going on. Of all the things to happen... And I was doing so good too...

:
:  Its been some time and I'm getting worried that its going deeper. I feel weighted down with it..

:  There is snow on the ground. Its happy time. I dont have time for this stuff anymore. What can I do?

:
:  Thanks

:  Sean

[Mystress]

Have you tried applying forgiveness? Gratitude? Blessings...

:  Hello Jasper,

:
:  Yea, I've been trying that but I'm not sure thats it. Usualy it goes when I tell it I got the message. This stays. I'm not even sure about the message.

:  I've been trying new things too and have found out some cool new things to do. But still its not it.

:  Things I have tried:

:  Talking
:  Surrendering it
:  Surrendering any resistance to it..
:  Ignoring
:  Burning
:  Sending feelers into to charge it..
:  Loving (this was cool and new, but its not it..)
:  Healing
:  Asking other things I know of about it(learned here)
:  
:  The thinking stuff
:  Not me, not going to worry about it
:  This belongs to Goddess not me,
:  Let it go,

:
:  I'm pretty much out of things I know how to do. And this is what I want to learn about how to stop from happening. Everytime I see a nun or priest or anyone with religious clothes on I get pretty mad. I might be happy all day, but they can ruin it if I see one. Now I already surrendered this idea away. But things are so new for me. I'm getting my personality back a little at a time and I'm working on getting everything together with me. Its a strange time and I'm pretty open to be hurt by these things.

:  Just yesterday I I saw music in 3d space again like I used to. I even had a dream last night that I remembered. I broke out my keyboard again, wanted to do more things in Photoshop. I'm getting better at being around everyone and was looking into classes and courses to work more on these things.

:  Now this happens.... Its like a taint in me. I dont want it. This is the stuff that drove me under before. I need to know how to deal with this. Its sticky.

:
:  Thanks

:  Sean
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