Fear of Hell

[jacobschapira]

Developed a major fear of Hell so I want to ask those who know - where do people who have committted heinous acts go after death. Are all the Buddhist tales of Hell (Naraka) true?
I had visions of the following:
 - My mum crying over my dead body (grieving)
 - Bird trying to pluck out my eyes
 - In a dark room, Hecate, big black dogs barking at me
 - Men with swords trying to slice me up
 - Sekhmet walking over to me with a basket of human-eating bugs
 - Burn victims
 - Hitler (a phantom apparently) telling me to cut it out now
I refused an offer from Amitabah the Buddha of Infinite Light because I was naive, he just said be vegetarian and not be celibate whatsoever. So did Jesus.

I'm in a miserable state, at home, crisis team still attending me. My Kundalini gave me smells of deoderant and cut sensations on my body, including my genitalia.
I'm afraid I released negative energies into the hospital environment and am going to Hell.

I no longer self-harm nor fast. But when I was fasting I received tempting tastes of food and smells of my grandparents too. Images of children and babies. I had an entity and a dream of the entity abusing children, in sleep paralysis he said  "I've got you now".

This all began after I was sexually violated by a large bird siren thing during sleep paralysis. It forcefully rammed its penis into me.

[Svarah]

Thanks for your vulnerable share.

I cannot speak to the afterlife- I will leave that to those who have seen it.

What I can speak to is my own journey of healing from the fear of hell.

I was raised in a VERY conservative Christian church. Fire and brimstone.

And though I rejected the eternal hell idea at the age of 21 about 20 years later... I started to fear hell and damnation.

I realized that anyone who takes the idea of eternal hell or an unjust afterlife (unequal punishment compared to harm done) has undergone a HUGE trauma - and that this lingers in the nervous system.

And so it has been a process of slowly releasing that out.

In my experience it is one thing to BELIEVE that Goddess is just, fair and loving... and to get the nervous system onboard. Every now and then there are blips of that fear- though they are very small now... I just see it as untruth/trauma/negative energy being released.

Peace,

[Svarah]

PS

One of the greatest tools for healing it for me- was to compare doctrine to experience.

When i felt close to Goddess- I would feel:
peace
joy
love
bliss
serenity
balance

And the idea of eternal hell or unjust hell does not match that.
AT ALL.