Guinea pigs needed :) Depression and auto-immune disorders

[Mystress]

 This is so fucking exciting!

Goddess provided a treasure beyond measure. 

A few weeks ago, a crisis in my personal life moved me to ask for new inspiration for resolving issues of chronic depression. It is still really early in my research and testing but it appears, the tech I was given works on *any* issue where the body or mind is turned against itself, from depression to auto-immune diseases.

I know, right? Holy Shit!!

I got the inspiration about cause, on Aug 17 and worked with one of my shamans to test the technique to resolve it, on the 18th. It is that new!

A week later, the other shaman mentioned helping someone we know who requesting help with chronic pain a few days before. I examined his work and noticed it also taken depression and a chronic auto-immune disease (cause of the pain) was in full remission, actually, gone but for the body healing itself of the damage. Clean sweep! We await medical verification.

I think, from early testing it is tech only shamans and vampires can access, requires specific perceptions regular folks don't get. I am hoping with more research I can come up with a "blind" version that works through the DB or higher self and does not reqire the second sights. Stay tuned!

   It works by communicating directly, telepathically with the parts of the body and mind of an individual that is turned against them in some way, followed by time travelled insights so they make a different choice in the past and the dissonant part is never created.  Yea, gone as it never existed except for what damage the body may have suffered. 

  The only side effect noted so far is, two people we tested it on without telling them first, got spider dreams and woke up kicking! Opportunity to consent to the adjustments. The spiders are symbolic of work done on the neural network, weaving new synaptic connections etc. So both were instructed to think of the spiders in the dream, tell them thanks and invite them to finish their work unsupervised. One who chose to watch, felt like his brain memory capacity expanded as if he had installed another hard drive.

So here is the deal. If you have some medical or mental issue that is self destructive illness, like depression or an auto-immune disorder, respond to this thread offering to be a test subject, and respond again after, and a week after to give me feedback on the results.

  I cannot promise it will work, don't go off your meds or anything! This is brand new tech! It works so smoothly you won't feel a thing, except, better.

  If I already tested it on you and/or taught you to use it, post about how that is going?

[begeegs]

Hi Mystress

Well - I have a couple of possibilities for you, if you like. I have an auto-immune issue, psoriasis. I do know what causes it though - the hard-water in the UK! (I am originally from the US) I have had it since I moved here nearly 20 years ago. It is an annoying thing to have, I will attest to it and at times has caused embarrassment when it spread to my scalp. The long term solution is to move to Scotland where they have nice clean soft water :-) However, that is a few years away yet.

My wife suffers from depression and anxiety. I am treading lightly here, but I will say that some a lot of it comes from my young son having autism (he is 5). She is open to the idea of being a guineau pig as well.

The cool thing about your post is that I am very interested in the healing aspects of Kundalini, so this is an interesting topic even if you don't decide to use either of us. :-)

[TheFifth]

As someone who has dealt my whole life with pervasive food and environmental allergies and a rare eosinophilic inflammatory disorder of the esophagus, I am completely open and consenting to be a guinea pig for this. 

[Sava]

I have many food and environmental allergies according to sensitivity tests that I have done so I am also open to being a guinea pig for this.

[TheFifth]

Things I have noticed so far (I'm going to break down symptoms and severity by an category and ordinal scale from 1-10, 10 being absolute worst):

Overall Depression: before=9; after 5
Lack of motivation: before=8; after 5
Fatigue: before 9; after 5
Mental fog and attrition: before 8; after 5

Food Allergy/Esophageal reactivity
Watermelon: before 5; after 0
Avocado: TBD
Cantaloupe: TBD 

There has been marked improvement. It has become clear to me that a lot of what I thought were energy blockages/karmic overload were, in fact, symptoms of high allostatic load (stress) in my body due to inflammation. This effected my mood, motivation, energy, social interest or lack thereof, ability to eat certain foods, ability to focus, etcetera. It is a relief to know that something really was going on--everything requiring effort always felt like such a struggle--because doctors always shrugged me off despite the abnormal cortisol and pervasive allergies.

It feels like strength is still returning so I will follow up again at a later time. The values for the above symptoms will likely drop again, I suspect. Craving a lot of greens, which I used to avoid because they would trigger intense inflammation and stricturing in my lower esophagus. Cantaloupe was by far the greatest offender in this regard. I will see if I can obtain some soon and see what happens.

[begeegs]

Hi Mystress

I did feel something about 1 1/2 half weeks ago which started early in the eve with pressure in the root chakra and then waves of this which eventually kept coming. I laid in bed and just witnessed and it was very pleasant. It eventually spread out across my back region and not confined to just the spine.

I would say that the psoriasis that I have has stayed about the same. I live in an area with one of the hardest water supplies in the country though. They have tons of calcium in the water which even an excellent filter can't entirely get out and I am exposed to it on a daily basis. So I suppose I was asking for something which would be near impossible. :-)

Thanks for giving it a shot though :-)

[TheFifth]

Just had a piece of cantaloupe and would normally be in for a world of hurt. Have a bit of a conditioned aversion to it so I only had one piece to test the waters but so far no chest pain. This normally would have been a 9/10, serious chest pain event in the past. Don't know what would happen if I ate a whole container but will explore further in increments.

Biggest improvements from this seem to be to this condition in particular.

[WhimsicalZephyr]

Dear Mystress and students,

I was one of the people Mystress and Dream Walker tested the tech on. For reference, I have had Juvenile Idiopathic/Inflammatory Arthritis for the last 35 years. The disease that mirrors it most closely is rheumatoid arthritis. I generally say I have RA the sake of reference because people know what that is. On October 3, Mystress taught me the tech and I used it on a couple of people I know. Mistress told me to ask my DB if my arthritis was in remission but for the body rebalancing itself. I checked with DB and the Heart Voice and both said yes.

For the next week, I felt much the same. I was in the middle of moving to a new city, and I was in a lot of pain. I was recently given a narcotics prescription and was taking that four times a day as I had for the last month. But then I spent the weekend in bed and the next week was better. I started to be able to move around the apartment without a cane. I started being able to go out shopping with a cane or walker. I’ve cut my narcotics dosages down to two a day instead of four. I’m still in a considerable amount of pain. My pain levels range from 3-9 on a daily basis though it doesn’t often go to a nine these past couple weeks. Today I forced myself to stay in bed and tried medicating with just Tylenol and muscle relaxants. I was relieved I was able to do this without withdrawal symptoms.

My mental health has been interesting these past few weeks. For the first week, I was stressed to the hilt with moving and bickering with my family about where to place the furniture. I was also very excited and full of joy at being in a new apartment in a new neighborhood in the new city. My emotions were little all over the place. But the second week, I had severe fear and anxiety. I missed my family, I missed my apartment in the woods, and I missed being part of the community where I knew people. Everything here was new and strange and unfamiliar and overwhelming and I was scared. After a week of being scared, I started to get angry with myself which turned into depression, and after a few days of that started mutating into self-pity. But last week I had some family members stay with me and that helped create some happy family memories in my new space which made me feel more at home and grounded. This last week I have had no depression and not a lot of anxiety. I hope this trend continues.

So the tech did help, and I am bouncing back quicker from set-backs, but I am still struggling.I also still worry about my psychotic tendencies as well. And, it’s not a big deal, but I do have psoriasis and it flares up from time to time, so I wouldn’t mind some help with that either. Thank you so much in advance.

Also, I’m curious about how I would get medical verification that I am cured.

Blessings,

WZ

[WhimsicalZephyr]

I forgot to mention that Mystress guided me in using the tech on someone who is very close to me. They are saner, happier, calmer, more loving and more competent than I've seen them in a very long time. They still have problems, and they still have a dark and twisted sense of humor (which I love) but there seems to be a lot of improvement overall. I used the tech on one other person but I have not heard from them since I moved so I don't know how the tech affected them. Many thanks to Mystress for teaching me the tech. Namaste.

WZ

[TheFifth]

So, from what I can tell most of my inflammatory immune issues are still present but I have gained a lot of insight into how my anxiety disorder/depression (mitigated and managed by grounding and mindfulness, but not eliminated) seems connected to the haywire immune system. I have been reading through some research literature that seems to suggest I'm on the right track with this. I notice that if I contract a virus like the common cold I experience mental health symptoms (anxiety, worsened mental fog) and an overall reduced threshold for stress. Realizing that the anxiety is physiological seems to reduce resistance and even helps me to detach from it in a way; though that still doesn't change the state of arousal and reactivity in the body.

It does seem that the tech did work on reducing the esophageal condition, interestingly enough. Who knows--maybe the other stuff is just some permutation of general hypersensitivity. My whole body has always been hyper excitable on pretty much every level--emotional, physical, mental, spiritual. I suspect and feel intuitively that an overgrowth of candida albicans is playing a role in a lot of this; but really eliminating this would require an overhaul of my diet and a ton of discipline with eating that I would probably need to adopt permanently, due to some kind of genetic weakness for grains and excessive carbohydrates. I take a supplement to reduce this--and it has helped tremendously over the years--but it has not been enough to clear it.

An insight I got earlier today was that these challenges have served to kind of narrow my path and, in a way, force me to surrender and are, in their own way, a blessing in disguise. That is not to say, however, that I should become attached to the challenges themselves or the whole "sickly kid" shtick I developed over the years. 

I'm digressing as I tend to do. It all feels connected though. As for why this tech may not have entirely worked on me I have no idea; but I find that as I make pretty big leaps in surrendering lately I'm just okay with whatever happens. My health and clarity of mind will be as Goddess wills.

[WhimsicalZephyr]

I had been feeling pretty awful this last month, with lots of pain, anxiety, depression, and suicidal ideation. Mystress and Gopi helped ground me in SL and that leveled me out enough to do essential self-care and get my butt to medical appointments. When Dreamwalker did the thing on me, the Saturday and Sunday night I slept very deeply with lots of really cool energy and visions. I did dream of spiders, and I remembered to thank them. I think I invited them to continue with the work. Then I had a vision of an astral computer grid-like head and neck superimposed over my own head and neck, and it felt like this astral brain downloaded silence, stillness and peace. For the next few days I felt lighter, airier, freer, and easier than I have felt in a long time. I felt like I could do anything, and yet felt perfectly content just sitting there. The chop wood, carry water became simpler.

The last couple of weeks was busy and stressful but I got through it with minimal anxiety. The anxiety seems to be mostly related to my upcoming shoulder replacement surgery. I asked my Heart Voice and DB if my inflammatory arthritis was in remission and got an initial happy feeling though I also got guidance that continuing to be in remission depends somewhat upon me. I am not sure if that checks with discernment though or is me holding onto doubt and fear. I am having an upcoming total shoulder replacement in January. I stopped taking my arthritis meds on the Nov 15th as per surgeon’s orders as they can slow healing, and I’m curious to see how my body responds. I plan to have my inflammation levels checked at the beginning of January and in mid-February to see how I am responding to not taking the immunosupressants. I do feel like I need to keep up with my spiritual work, and occasionally reach out and ask for help from Mystress and Lineage. There have been many days recently when my pain/anxiety/depression/suicidal ideation was a 9 for days on end and I could not get grounded at all, so I was very grateful to Mystress and Gopi for helping me out in SL. And during emergencies I will continue pretending I am a tree, drink milk, and eat yogurt, Mystress. *smiles*

I did the thing on someone who means a lot to me and she seemed to feel better for a while, but now she’s in the psych ward. I feel I have some unfinished work to do and would appreciate any guidance I am given.

WZ

[WhimsicalZephyr]

HI Mystress and all,

I've been thinking more on demon resolution and I have a couple of questions. First of all, what are demons? How are they formed? Are they self-created? And can you create new ones after a resolution has been done on you?

Thanks in advance

WZ

[Mystress]

   You are getting ahead a bit? I did not say they are demons in this thread.

  (I tested teaching the tech to a couple of vamps including WZ so she is talking about info not seen here yet. )

    My tentative conclusion is, only shamans and ascended people can do it successfully, vamp or no.  Has to do with being able to visit or see into the dimension where the splinters exist. They are hidden deep in shadow and part of Jung's definition of the shadow aspect is that it is invisible.

  For Sami descended shamans like myself, the shadow aspect becomes the Guide and seeing into other people's shadow selves is part of the gig.

  Some years ago, I was asking Goddess how I am supposed to teach Shaman magic to vampires, I got an insight that a lot of the abilities I considered shaman-only are actually ascended-only.  Not all, but many.  Ascended people are quantum, already everywhere so the shadow realm dimensions where the splinter demons exist are accessible to them.

  Part of the process involves calling forth the splinters and speaking to them individually to get their consent. Requires access.

   When I try to teach it to non-shamans they just get imagination noises. Not useful at all. That is what happened when I tried to teach it to Sigmund and Gustaf. Their own DBs verified that their visions of the demons they tried to call, were imagination not real. Dead in the water at step 1.

  Additionally, vamp vortexes have no ability to see or detect entities, sock puppets or splinters so they cannot support the work. They see All as One unified field of energy. (Kind of makes me wonder what consent means, for them.)  Shaman guides can see or work with all of those plus all sorts of old gods, faeries etc. so probably they can support the process even if the Shaman is not yet ascended.

  It also, impossible to DIY, even for me, because of the nature of the splinters being "set against" means they are resistant. They just glare at me, arms folded, flip me the bird. It is very rare to find something that cannot be resolved by oneself.

   I tried working out whether it might be possible by invoking a proxy, like the guardian angel but nothing felt resonant.

  These specific identity splinters are created when a child is having a very dark moment of despair and self loathing, harshly rejecting some aspect of themselves,  so intensely that they create a fracture in the psyche. The vilified aspect becomes split off from the main part of the identity.

The resistance, rejection becomes a part of the splinter's identity.  They self-identify as demons because they have been "demonized" blamed, rejected by the person they are part of.

  Identity splinters are the only sort of "demon" that actually exists. That part I have known since the 90s. Not all identity splinters are demons though. There are other types like sock puppets that come from a different source.

  It happens during the years of childhood when ego is first being formed. Child has a lot of power to shape their own psyche, deciding who they want to be when they grow up.  Adult minds are not so pliable, and the work is time travelled, undone before it happened (so it never happened and only exists in memory)  I do not think it is possible for an adult mind to recreate the issue.

  It does seem, repeating the treatment a month later (giving the spiders time for completion) can sometimes bring forth a few more that were hidden or did not respond to the call the first time, for whatever reason. The second round ones seem weaker, like they are somehow incidental to the first batch.

  Examining druid's demons, it is like he rejected any emotion not appropriate to a knight of the round table! Kind of adorable really, except for the effects.

  I put out a call on facebook too, at the time and ended up testing the tech on >50 people. Useful! There were a few surprises:

   1.) Other types of splinters opportunistically responded to the call, at first they seemed to be trying to sneak in so I started inviting them.

   2.) Splinter demons can body jump. Worst case I found was an autistic boy, he had a load of them and 7 of his splinters came from four other people. Did not get any feedback on that one, still curious.

  I have experienced splinters body-jumping before, I once (2002?) had one of the alters of an MPD friend stuck in me for 6 months before I worked out where the wayward emotions were coming from. The resolution of that one was spectacular.

   The splinter was a preschool child who never spoke. I felt moved to do a higher self negotiation between her and her convicted pedo dad, who had also molested her daughters. The daughters got him convicted but he was insistent they lied and the family believed him. Couple hours later got an astonished email from my friend,  ("What did you do??!!") Relatives were calling to tell her, her Dad had finally confessed. "The girls did not lie" (in court testimony) ... and the timing!  He was drunk in the hot tub with the other men, at the massive annual extended family reunion. Everybody got the news and all the other kids, cousins finally were believed and got help. So for that one I would say, Goddess did it. The purpose seems clear and the timing of when I figured it out was perfect.

  The how and why of demon splinters body-jumping remains unknown at this time.

  For me, carrying someone else's identity splinter was wayward emotional noise. Not sure what effect the demon type ones have, there is no reason I can think of for them to be "set against" the new host like they are for the one created them.

  All I know is sometimes, doing the final step (giving the pearls of wisdom made from transmuting the demon's karma, to the higher self of the individual to be time-travel delivered in the moment before the splinter was created,)  sometimes the higher self would not accept them all. "Not mine." So I would call for the higher selves of whoever the pearls belonged to, to come and get them.

When I say > (more than) 50: 50 people volunteered themselves or a loved one but because of the body jumping splinters, some other folks benefited too.

  Was not always pearls, either. The non-demon splinters karma sometimes transformed to a teardrop shaped faceted ruby or a blue-white glowy (dazzling bright) crystal. Pretty sure the crystals are spiritual gifts, attainments and the rubies are genetic implants. They represent blood and blood represents DNA. We think of DNA being set at conception but there are many types of DNA, particularly those related to stress reactions that are set later,  in response to the environment.  A genetic implant to tone down the genes controlling exaggerated stress reactions born of trauma sounds amazing eh?   

  Goddess shows me the coolest stuff!

  How it works: The pearl holds tremendous spiritual energy, very specific insights, plus the supportive presence of the higher self making the delivery, inspires the child to make a different decision. The splinter is never created and that ripples forward into the Now.  Since the change already happened in the past, the demons in my vision fade away, smiling happy and waving bye bye as soon as the HS departs with the pearls.

  When I explained it to druid he looked happy, clasped his hands together like he was holding something precious and said "I don't need the demons because I have the pearls." Interesting take on it.

[Gopi]

Thank you for sharing insights from your research Mystress.

"Additionally, vamp vortexes have no ability to see or detect entities, sock puppets or splinters so they cannot support the work. They see All as One unified field of energy. (Kind of makes me wonder what consent means, for them.)"

I can confirm that this has been my experience.
My vortex won't go near non-consensual stuff because it feels indigestible/unappetizing.

" the rubies are genetic implants. They represent blood and blood represents DNA. We think of DNA being set at conception but there are many types of DNA, particularly those related to stress reactions that are set later,  in response to the environment.  A genetic implant to tone down the genes controlling exaggerated stress reactions born of trauma sounds amazing eh?  "

This resonates with my personal experience Mystress.
I did not get visual cues as rubies.
I have been reflecting about how cycle of abuse that has been passed down through generations can be broken.
I thought the effect of breaking the abuse cycle will only affect my life but guide pointed out that kind of change has genetic/evolutionary effects.
Which has left me sort of speechless.

[Mystress]

My vortex won't go near non-consensual stuff because it feels indigestible/unappetizing.

  I think you misunderstood my question. It is a bit of a brain teaser. I'll try to explain it better.

  You got a glimpse of how your vortex sees things, individual elements like identity splinters and entities are invisible because the vortexes see an indivisible sea of energy, all is One. How does a vortex ask for consent from individual people if it does not perceive any separation? Clearly it does, somehow, it is very invested in respect for free will... but... how?

  You look at the sea, you see one unified body of water. You know intellectually that the water is made of individual water molecules but you cannot see them, only the whole. You cannot interact with a single water molecule because you have not the ability to separate it out from all the others with your human senses.  So how does a vortex ask consent from individuals if it cannot see any individuality, just a sea of one-ness? What does consent mean, to them?

  Maybe yours can answer it. I have been aware of it for some years, working with Vlad in SL before talking about it to FST.  I considered whether they might be using the senses of the host but that doesn't feel true. My best guess? So far? They do not "get consent," in the way we think of it, at all. They are closely wired into the Planetary Consciousness and She shows them what to eat.
  Next then, comes the question of giving back the insights from the transmutation. How does that work, knowing who to give to, without awareness of individuals? Does Goddess handle that for them too, or...?

   Then, what about consent from the host? The difficulties involved in persuading them to come out of hiding and interact with their host vampire on a conscious level? If they take their cues from Goddess, should the request for the reveal be directed to Her?  I know from finding vamps, it is possible to ask the vamp's DB or guides to reveal the vortex structure in the energy body, even if the vortex is not talking yet. Be nice to find a shortcut. 

I did not get visual cues as rubies.
I have been reflecting about how cycle of abuse that has been passed down through generations can be broken.
I thought the effect of breaking the abuse cycle will only affect my life but guide pointed out that kind of change has genetic/evolutionary effects.
Which has left me sort of speechless.

I only got a few rubies, from splinters that were not demons. I did not stop to ask those splinters what they are.

  It was a sort of 90's lightworker idea, that when you break the chains of family abuse cycles, it ripples back in time to free the ancestors too. I have experienced a little bit of that myself but it still seems a strange idea when looked at from other levels.  For one thing, if the ancestors have already died and gone into the Light, why would it make any difference to them?

  Not saying your insight is wrong: I have experienced a bit of it myself, ... but my gut does not accept the idea unconditionally so I still have a lot of questions.

  Its like the vortex question. How a meat brain in linear time thinks of consent, maybe something quite different to a quantum being so possibly, a lot is lost in translation?

  That breaking a cycle of abuse would affect the descendants is obvious enough, but...  Well, your mom would be delighted if you became a dad but it seems pretty unlikely. So what does it mean, exactly?

[Gopi]

"Maybe yours can answer it. I have been aware of it for some years, working with Vlad in SL before talking about it to FST.  I considered whether they might be using the senses of the host but that doesn't feel true. My best guess? So far? They do not "get consent," in the way we think of it, at all. They are closely wired into the Planetary Consciousness and She shows them what to eat.
  Next then, comes the question of giving back the insights from the transmutation. How does that work, knowing who to give to, without awareness of individuals? Does Goddess handle that for them too, or...?

   Then, what about consent from the host? The difficulties involved in persuading them to come out of hiding and interact with their host vampire on a conscious level? If they take their cues from Goddess, should the request for the reveal be directed to Her?"

As you mentioned before, I agree with you that ascension makes a difference and does not feel predatory.
When I zoom into emotionally charged places that hold trauma/pain, there is a level of clean-up-crew work which is just hoovering nom-noms for vortex.
I do not get any personal individual details while doing public clean-up-crew work - just a glimpse of the resulting shiny clean energy field if I ask for it to be shown.
And I do not pry or force anything specifically from anyone.
Then there is stuff that I do with my friends and loved ones.
I know my dad gets cranky - so sometimes I just eat his cranky stuff and I have not faced any resistance (may be because there is trust).

I already have random people show up when I meditate.
So I request Goddess and my guide to not draw attention to me.
My friends and colleagues have repeatedly told me that I brightened their day and I give thanks to Goddess.
Not sure if any of this is helpful/new to you Mystress.

[Mystress]

Resolution for depression and some types of auto-immune disorders - Update!

Last Sept, +50 people responded to my request for volunteers to help me test some new healing tech Goddess showed me. Only about 1/3 of those got back to me with the requested feedback, but it was overwhelmingly positive and doing so many gave me many new insights into the method. Thank you all!

I promised, I would find a way to make it shareable. I knew Goddess would show me a way to extend this mercy, In the past few weeks, I got a break through that amazes me.

Want to test the next level?

Monday, I had two of my students test the new tech, in chat. They both felt a rush of intoxicating euphoria, then (empathy) I felt them slipping into a deep trance. They were "gone" for 20 minutes. When they came back, I had them check the chat time stamps... they were amazed it had been that long.

So, wait until you have privacy and some free time!

Center yourself. Note the time. Be open and receptive.
Think, or speak out loud:

"I am calling upon the Avatar's Ascended Amigos to grant me their mercy. Please give me whatever healing, cleansing, integration or insights you may have to offer. Thank you all for your kindness."

I invite everyone to try it. Very excited to hear about your experiences!

[begeegs]

I meant to reply to this, but blanked - lol.

I did perform this a few nights back and the words came in my head 'thank you for asking'. This was a little after I had asked :-) I then started to feel sorts of pressure around my heart region. I just observed this for a spell and then also heard - well, maybe not heard, but the words popped into my head 'you will feel better now'. Since this time, my groundings and meditations have been a lot better, so I do feel like something tangible happened.

Thanks for the tech!

[Althea]

Does this offer still stand? I have asthma, and would love to be a guinea pig!

[WhimsicalZephyr]

When I was introduced to the Avatar's Ascended Amigos a few weeks ago, it was intense. I felt an electrical buzzing in the arms, hands, head,  legs and feet. It kinda felt like walking into the Crystal Ark in Vancouver, a store that sells nothing but gemstones. Incredible, intense energy. I zoned out and then a being appeared sitting across from me with long hair and beard and wearing a white robe with red sash. He radiated contentment and peace. I asked him his name and he smiled and said I could call him Joy. We sat for a while looking at each other and grooving on the good vibes. Just sitting next to him made me feel like I'd just smoked a bowl of the world's best Jack Herrer, I was that relaxed and happy.

Since then my depression has been more manageable. Despite having some issues with my regular homecare and being in the midst of a pandemic, I'm coping ok. I actually can't remember the last time I felt any suicidal ideation so this month has been pretty good. I think at some point recently I decided that since I'm not allowed to die, I may as well make the most of it and live my best life instead of feeling resentment at the situation. No point in staying alive if I'm going to be miserable, hateful and feeling sorry for myself all the time.

I just said the prayer again and got the buzzing again though the trance only lasted 5 minutes, which was still really nice especially when I tossed some karma at Pip and got double the buzz. Thank you so much for introducing us to the Amigos, Mystress.

WZ

[Mystress]

Thank you so much for all of your feedback!

  Anyone can call on the Amigos at any time. Don't feel shy, they are outside of time and literally have nothing else they would rather be doing.  I think there are about 2400 of them volunteered, at last count. I only know the identities of the first three.

  It started, with a guy I rented to help out around the house who turned out to be ascended. The house energy did not bother him at all except for one spot in my room that made him feel irrationally angry. Same spot my little dog likes to stare at as if she is watching something that I cannot see. I had an idea who it was, checked with one of my shamans... what do you see, about 5' to my left? Oh it is that love slave of yours, the one who died.

  Yeah, that is what I thought. He has always been a friendly ghost, when I thought of him which is rare these days.  So I stepped into the spot and didn't feel anger just a lot of sadness, regret and loneliness. My response to that was to cuss him out for dying stupid. Ok maybe some anger but really just old grief and frustration, softened by decades.  When I got that out of my system I contemplated his presence, hanging out.  he was vanishing too,  later, same night I ascended. I thought it was just empathy, maybe it was but it had never occurred to me that he ascended too.  cymbal always appeared when I thought of him, as spirits do. Did not occur to me he was also there when not thinking of him. Haunted. ok.

  No use sending him into the light again, did not have the heart to kick him out. Had not intended to make him immortal, it was his devotion and it was unchanged, he still wanted to serve me. I do not like to give a lot of attention to dead people, even ascended ones because life is short and eternity isn't. I am like, don't you know some dead people you can go play with?'  He didn't seem to know that was possible.
  Second time I have encountered someone died not knowing they are ascended, who didn't know their abilities. Hmm. Always assumed there was some sort of orientation process, I guess.

  So I got an idea to introduce him to my other dead ascended love slave, percyval. Then I got an impression of the two of them standing in my room talking very excitedly, waving their arms like Italians.  Pure joy coming off them, didn't try to catch what they were saying, seemed to be sped up. Not a great clairaudent, more empathic and visionary.

   I am taking in their delight but also wondering wtf and thinking of that another guy I had been working with died not knowing he was ascended. So I brought him in too, and then I had three guys, talking very excitedly, gesticulating and the joy radiating off them.  So, that was fun.

  Got me wondering, how many people are there, who died not knowing they are ascended and are now stuck because they have no idea how powerful they are?  So I sent out a call, then another, and another... no idea how far back in history but it seemed like I gathered a crowd of about 180 people.

  So I gave them the basic rundown of what happened to them and delegated my spirit self to teach them everything while I slept. Life is for the living and she can spend a decade in an instant. I was very interested to know if they could do the depression thing initially, and if they would be willing to help people  but I could find no reason not to teach them all I know, with an offer of something to occupy their time.

  Then I did with them all,  as I had already done with the third guy. I took them to an afterlife we call the city of philosophers and explained they could spend a century there, if they wanted, learning anything and then return to this same moment.

  The city of philosophers is a place Shamans discover because our guides take is there for classes with old Gods and dead people. It is an afterlife like a university town, if the town spanned the history of building but skipped high rises because real estate is infinite. Every gifted artist, thinker, inventor, musician or genius whose work benefited humanity is there and they take classes from each other in a sort of spontaneous open university town. Also a lot of old Gods and such, can be found hanging out.

  At one point about five hours later, much though I was enjoying the three hanging out it was a bit distracting so I suggested they go get a beer, or something and let me focus.
 
  Over the next few days, something odd was happening, each time I looked in on the group it was bigger. Residents of the city were joining in and seemed excited about it. When the numbers went over 1200 I thought, this must be the most interesting thing that has happened in centuries, were these guys really bored, or what?

  Heard the distinctive male voice comment "... it is also about, Who is asking."

  Hit me like a brick to the head, made me gasp because I have never thought of myself as anyone of least importance there.  The Avatar... took a step back to try to get my head around it.  Took another. Nope. Gave it over to my spirit self to deal. Next time I looked in, the number had doubled and I got the impression some who could visit other afterlife places had been recruiting.  More ongoing classes.
   
  A few days after I sent the three amigos off to get a beer, I got to wondering how they were doing and asked dreamwalker to dreamwalk them.

  The next day, he said he had not dreamt anything about the three, instead he was taken to an Irish pub in the city of philosophers. The bartender looked like a bigger leprechaun. He ordered a whiskey and the bartender gave it to him along with a heavy gold coin that was a free drinks forever token. The drinks are always free, here, the bartender told him. The bartender recommended he listen to a song called "Fiddler's Green" by an Irish folk-punk band I don't recall the name of because my head exploded hearing the song title.

  dreamwalker was very excited because he did track down the song the bartender recommended, listened to it after he woke up and it was like the music expanded his mind and gave him new abilities... he has amazing dreams.

   I asked if there was anyone else in the pub? Yes, three guys were sitting at a table and he described a bit of what they were wearing. I asked if one of them was a big guy, kind of Nordic looking, shoulder length ash blonde hair?  Yup. (cymbal) Was one slender and kind of Mexican looking? Yes, wore a cool hat. (pervyval)  The third, the fisherman, was he slender and pale?

   dreamwalker said yes, and the fisherman gave him a two finger salute, he returned it and mentioned the movie where he had first seen the gesture.  My head exploded. Again. Heart too.  The BBC memorial tribute show for that guy, had a photo of him giving a two finger salute as the backdrop. I found it and shared the url. Is that the fisherman? Yes. The sailor, who spent decades in AA, died of liver cancer anyway. Fiddler's Green. So perfect.

  I explained to him: Fiddler's Green, is the Irish Sailor's afterlife, where the drinks are always free, the fiddle is always playing, the rivers run with whiskey and you never get a hangover.  Sometimes, when something is so, immaculately perfect, the sense of wonder never leaves. I had suggested they go for a beer, or something. dreamwalker found them, in an Irish pub called Murphy's, that is a little piece of Fiddler's Green in the city of philosophers.

  One intriguing thought lingers.  cymbal's ascension implies it could be granted by initiation, or ritual.

 

[Priestesssss]

Okay I'm caught up with the Avatar's Ascended Amigos.  I remember being a guinea pig too, last year, and responded with a notecard in SL about my experience.

I must've blanked out about it afterwards, with all the distractions.  Shut myself down and went way off-center before starting the FST course again.  Now reading this it's like 'oh yeah'.

I am easily discouraged and overwhelmed and have had a hard time eating most things these last few months, besides nuts and chips, avocado dip, frozen pizza, so now my potassium level is too high.  Great....

Depression meds are slowly helping. 

Being so needy causes feelings of self loathing.  I'll reread this thread and call on them.  Will post on what happens. 

[Priestesssss]

Good morning,

I called on the Avatar's Ascended Amigos last night and felt several curious beings above, looking at and chattering about me, like they were discussing what was needed.

I heard one/some talking about my muscles.  And I sensed an issue with the inability to feel love/loved.  Had an urge to move into fetal position, which I didn't do at first but then did, my eyes teared up for a bit.

The rest I don't know consciously.  More than an hour had past when I felt it was over.

Woke up today feeling positive energy flowing through me, like the depression has lifted.  Now for my part...to trust and to stay grounded.

Namaste

[Svarah]

Would like to be a guinea pig.

Complex-PTSD, Bi-Polar Spectrum (not full blown bi-polar), depression, anxiety, severe behavioral addictions... and the worse- that I seem to sabotage everything I do.

Do I need to do anything else to sign up?

[Priestesssss]

Hi Svarah,

Here are the instructions Mystress provided:

Resolution for depression and some types of auto-immune disorders - Update!

Last Sept, +50 people responded to my request for volunteers to help me test some new healing tech Goddess showed me. Only about 1/3 of those got back to me with the requested feedback, but it was overwhelmingly positive and doing so many gave me many new insights into the method. Thank you all!

I promised, I would find a way to make it shareable. I knew Goddess would show me a way to extend this mercy, In the past few weeks, I got a break through that amazes me.

Want to test the next level?

Monday, I had two of my students test the new tech, in chat. They both felt a rush of intoxicating euphoria, then (empathy) I felt them slipping into a deep trance. They were "gone" for 20 minutes. When they came back, I had them check the chat time stamps... they were amazed it had been that long.

So, wait until you have privacy and some free time!

Center yourself. Note the time. Be open and receptive.
Think, or speak out loud:

"I am calling upon the Avatar's Ascended Amigos to grant me their mercy. Please give me whatever healing, cleansing, integration or insights you may have to offer. Thank you all for your kindness."

I invite everyone to try it. Very excited to hear about your experiences!