Grail Bearers

[Mystress]

  This spring, I was thinking ahead to how bad the forest fires have been in BC these past few summers. We think of BC's forests as a wonderful carbon sink, but... standing deadwood from Asian pine beetles (that need colder winters to die die die) absorb no carbon, they emit some methane as they rot and a lot of carbon when they catch fire.

  So I sat with the planet and asked, possible for a weather adjustment to keep the fires down? Felt like yes. Surrendered it.

  We got rained out, camping. Did not mind. Friends in the SCA reported that the usual desert area where the big convention is, had grass! First time anyone can remember there not being a campfire ban in August. BC fires have not even been in the news. Thank you Goddess.

  I might have done it sooner but it is not my habit to mess with the weather and grail siddhis are so autopilot I forgot about the possibility.

  In the late 90s, a psychic told me he had successfully predicted 6/7 earthquakes. He said the seventh was Vancouver and the reason it did not happen is because I live here. Every few years another psychic comes along to say so again. They don't know why. I do.

  "The King is one with the Land." Old old legends, where the king has a mystical relationship with the land itself. The Pharoh controls the flooding of the Nile, the Mayan Sun King controls the seasonal rains. The Fisher King, old and ailing and the land with him, until a hero comes to be the new king and finds the Grail. Legends of Camelot, celtic version: part of the coronation is a ritual where the king has sex (great rite)  with a priestess, symbolically marrying the earth.

  Grail bearers, are the eyes and ears of the planetary consciousness, can report back on surface conditions and request adjustments. The grail vibration itself... peace coming in waves.

  I have not spoken much about Grail siddhi, because I do not favour wanton use of powers. Just for fun I asked two of the lineage fellas, showing teaching and curious myself. Invited them to watch the pond ripples of their heartbeat radiating outward with waves of peace that dissolve wrongness.  Asked them to ask to be shown the range of their grail's area of influence. One covered several states, the other, most of a small island country. Asked one, have there been any serious disasters, natural otherwise within that range since you attained? Nope, bad thunderstorms seem to dissipate before they arrive.

Fire Serpent Tantra, producing Grail bearers to offset climate change, all over the world, for +19 years.
 

 

[begeegs]

I had wondered about posting a question about the climate emergency and curious to understand everyones thoughts on that. I ultimately decided not to as I am new and didn't know how relevant it would be to everything else posted here. Lo and behold here is that answer ;-)

Hopefully, there are some people around the Amazon rainforest at the moment 

[Gopi]

Thank you for sharing Mystress. This is the first time I am hearing about the Fisher King story even though I am familiar with the concept of King being married to the land. I searched around for the Fisher King story and found a very interesting article. There are some parts of the article that I do not agree with but there are some parts that resonate with my current lived reality. As a human sexuality researcher and FST practitioner, over the years I have had some very insightful and healing conversations with Mystress specifically about male ego and 'wounded masculinity'. So I am sharing chunks of what resonated with me here in the hope of contributing to the discussion with others and learning things for my own growth and wellbeing.

"The Parsifal myth is a medieval story of restoring unity to misaligned masculinity.
...At the heart of the Grail Castle lay the Holy Spear and the Holy Chalice. The two divine implements represent the masculine and feminine principles, which when combined in perfect wholeness produce light into the kingdom of the Fisher King. The Holy Chalice represents the feminine aspect of feeling and beauty that both contains and transforms. The Holy Spear represents the masculine strength required to stand erect and guard the precious Grail. The Grail Castle had fallen upon hard times; the spear had been stolen. The Fisher King was wounded in his testicles by the Holy Spear as it was stolen. The King was henceforth “too ill to live but not ill enough to die” (the modern malaise for many men). The wound to The Fisher King signifies a wounding to man’s sense of potency and his self-esteem. The wounding in this “private part” of himself will not heal and equates to The Fisher King’s “fall from grace” (the noble part of the king has fallen from grace).
The Fisher King’s kingdom has been laid to wasteâ€"the meadows and flowers are dried up and the waters shrunken. The suggestion is that any malaise to the king is mirrored in his kingdom. This implies that if there is a wound to the “nobility of inner man”, then the whole personality (his whole world) will be troubled.  As if by magic, whenever the Fisher King is healed, the lands and people surrounding the king will be healed instantly.
According to legend, the healing of the king and the kingdom will only take place with the coming of “the good grail knight”, an “innocent fool” (Parsifal) who will restore health to the Fisher King, his land, and its people by asking a specific question. The pure knight will ask the perplexing question, “whom does the grail serve”?"

That phrase "“too ill to live but not ill enough to die” still resonates with me on some level (esp. when I do not take good care of myself and my body). I used to identify as that person when I was suicidally depressed a few years ago. I am not that person anymore even though there are some days when I feel weak. I am learning to gracefully accept everything life has to offer and enjoy what I have right now. Thanks to Goddess I have not had suicidal thoughts in the past 5+ years.

"The wounding is experienced as a loss of meaning and a loss of hope for the future, coupled with destroyed self-esteem and isolation. This masculine wound is directed to his generative ability; the ability to be creative within himself and be externally potent in the world. The young man feels psychologically impotent, with no self-love and therefore little capacity to relate with inner beauty to the world. He is left with a haunting sense of incompleteness and emptiness and is too young to face it. Without the ability to articulate what he is experiencing a young man finds it too emotionally overwhelming. So, young men hide their woundedness and run away from the dysfunctional self."

Again... the phrase "left with a haunting sense of incompleteness and emptiness and is too young to face it" resonates at some level. At some level, I have always felt like an old-soul even before knowing what old-soul could possibly mean. There were some older people who instantly told me 'You are an old soul!' and few who chided me for 'acting beyond my age' (mostly when I called out their bluff). It is not that I claim something is special about feeling like an old soul. Some days I feel like I am 7 years old and some days I feel like I am older than the mountains. 

I was having a chat with a friend the other day and realized that if I die on a day when my mood is grumpy, then I am going to look back at my life and only see all the messed-up stuff. Instead, if I die on a day when my mood is good, then I am going to to look back at my life and see all the wonderful things that I am fortunate to receive. Which is kind of scary if you really think about it. I mean we are all going to die someday and we do not know when. So what if I go to bed tonight grumpy about myself and mad about life and don't wake up? What a shitty way to go! The real kicker is: You do not have any control over the ticking clock. But you always have control over how you choose to respond. I have learned both in my professional career and personal growth that incomplete means you are alive. I remember Osho saying something along the lines of 'only dead things are complete'. So now, I just choose remind myself that being 'incomplete' is just another way of saying 'work-in-progress'.

That being said, my friend pointed out to me that I am skipping living in the now and waiting for old age to happen. This resonated with me. Even though FST and Goddess has made my life so much better than what it used to be, there are still times when I feel very tempted to give into resignation. Or simply moan 'Life is toooo hard and scary. I want to check out.' I came across the word 'emotional anorexic' online when I was reading up on self-help stuff. If I remember it correctly, an emotional anorexic person is someone who only wants what they cannot have (pining forever) or they know is bad for them (I deserve to be punished) and cannot enjoy what they do have (I do not deserve good things/excessive focus on flaws). It is pretty messed up because one feeds the other. It is like anorexia in the sense that you do not feel good about yourself unless you know your pushing yourself to starve (of food and love - two vital sustenance for life). Mystress pointed out to me that being an anorexic is all about control. And she is right in my case. Truth is living everyday here and now is sometimes scary and I do feel exhausted.
Goddess please take this from me and transform it into light as you see fit! Thank you Goddess!!

"A quest for outer glory is undertaken largely to inflate an already wounded masculine ego, to bolster self-worth, potency, and male prowess in this world… Modern man is badly wounded and is “too ill to live but not ill enough to die” (the Fisher King malaise) and the path towards true masculinity is rarely seen or modeled for him to emulate.  In the myth of Parsifal, the Holy Spear (the true masculine spear) was missing and hence was split off from the Holy Chalice, representing feeling and beauty. For each man the journey is to learn, heal, and change his life to live the way of true noble masculinity.
The feeling, compassionate side of Parsifal enabled him to become whole and “one”, not split-off from his true masculine “phallic self”. .. Parsifal, in giving “voice” to the mystery of what is important to uphold in the kingdom, knew that “the Grail is located within himself”. The question “whom does it serve” meant that man must choose to give service to his conscience, his deity/soul and honor that kingly noble part of himself."

Before joining FST, the only thing that helped me stay somewhat sane and feel a little less miserable was when I did some sort of community service. Now looking back, I see why a LOT of spiritual traditions emphasize service. In Tamil Siva worship, there are two old sayings: மக்கள் சேவை மகேசன் சேவை (Serving people is serving God) and à®...ன்பே சிவம் (God IS love). There is whole branch of yogic philosophy on karma yoga (everything one does is thought of serving God himself) and seva (service). Several Indian spiritual teachers have emphasized that one does not need to do a lot of hard spiritual practices or exotic ascetic practices. One must always honor one's dharma (rightful duty) and serve God wherever they are in whatever way they can. So I really liked this part about self in service of collective good. I feel good about myself when I can help and be of service to someone else.

"With the Holy Spear returned, the Fisher King was instantly healed and immediately the Holy Grail enactment commenced restoring light into the kingdom. The land instantly transformed back into fertility and the waters flowed again. Parsifal knew the reason for his own suffering, as well as the Fisher King’s (and modern man’s), for he had transcended the suffering that results from being split-off from his integrity. Achieving true “kingly” masculinity in this sense is a courageous accomplishment, not a birthright and is birthed through suffering, self-reflection, personal growth, and consciousness in all actions.
Parsifal’s “secret to success” as such, was his lack of trickery (refusal of artificiality), his inner code of honor, and overcoming infidelity. Parsifal (like many of us), set out on the hero’s journey wanting The Grail to serve him (his ego) but in the end he knew that we all serve the Holy Grail. Parsifal in serving The Grail simply learned to listen and honor his own conscience and uphold it with true masculinity. Parsifal listened and honored his own “inner” voice and knowing; and therefore, turned a corner and was safe. For without integration of duality there remains “split-off-ness” within the man.”"

FST does not endorse fear based beliefs. All acts of pleasure and love serve the Goddess. So I do not see suffering as a necessary part of healing although for a lot of people real suffering does make us humble and be genuine with our faith. I cannot and am not allowed to have those kind of limiting beliefs. I do not have answers and sometimes have cranky days. But I have chosen to do everything I do with joy because I can. The above quote "Achieving true “kingly” masculinity in this sense is a courageous accomplishment, not a birthright and is birthed through suffering, self-reflection, personal growth, and consciousness in all actions. resonated with me. I am learning and doing better. It is a little bit scary, tiring, and fun. Which is much better than feeling depressed and sorry for myself, IMO.
Namaste!

Source:
https://www.stand-magazine.com/considering-wounded-masculinity-through-parsifal-and-the-fisher-king/

[Mystress]

Unfortunately there have been very few FST students from south of the USA.

  Also... most of the grail bearers have no idea they can do this because I did not tell them.

   The knowledge was not essential and had potential for ego inflation... FST is not about chasing after magic powers, and the siddhis lesson explains they can be a fun side effect anyway.   In 1999, environmental issues were known but not at crisis stage like we are now.  The post grad lesson barely touches on the King siddhis, it focuses on the internal changes, which are significant and most important to address. The grail radiance does most of the land king stuff autopilot.

  At the time of writing the lesson, I only had the grail myself for a few years.  The personal benefits to the attainment were clear to me, and the grail mythology of unity with the land...  but of course +20 years observing the effects has shown me more of its mysteries.

  While tales of Camelot are part of my UK ancestral heritage, the essence of the Grail magic is drawn from the Mayan Coronation ritual for a Sun King. Chac taught me. Joseph Campbell says a lot about how all world mythologies share similarities because they all reflect who we are, the shape of the human psyche. Its path to self actualization or transcendence is all the same magic, the same story  via different cultural mythologies. Grail King, Sun King, Pharaoh, all contain the same essential activation, and it is something conferred by the earth itself. She may choose not to.

  That is why the preparation is so important, to become worthy. To have the spiritual purity and emotional maturity to persistently choose peace and surrender.  A drama queen cannot become a grail king or the land would suffer. I do my best to screen people via the grad essay, and sometimes point to an area that needs work before they will be ready. Most people take three years and go through the course, multiple times peeling layers before they feel ready to send an essay, or their DB starts telling them they are ready, and some of those ascend soon after.

  The vampire egregore told me, the reason I was chosen called to find the path to transcendence is that FST is the most advanced and effective ascension tech on the planet. Nice, eh? 

One result of my Shaman re-activation, on the steps of the pyramid at Chichen Itza, 1993 when I agreed to be trained as Priestess to Chac, the Rain God of the Yucatan...  (So long as it did not require me to murder people by ripping their hearts out, showed him how useless a priestess in prison would be. He responded it was not necessary, like none of that stuff was his idea.)  In the months that followed, it proved difficult and kind of useless for me to learn the court rituals of a long dead culture so I invited him instead to look through all the stories in my mind to find the resonant mythology to communicate the essence to my modern western head.

  That is why FST is full of references to what he found in my head: sci-fi, superhero comic books, ancient greek mythology and UK/celtic mythology like Arthur's search for the grail. Grail bearers "cup runneth over with love" floods approximately a 300 mile radius. I suspect it grows larger over time, standing waves tend to increase in power the longer they continue.  Mine can probably be measured by earthquake distance.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_earthquakes_in_Canada All earthquakes for the past two decades. All the ones around me are far enough away to barely shake here and have no fatalities or injuries. It proves nothing but is intriguing anyway.

  I think, climate change crisis is *why* Goddess chose to make me Avatar. I am hip deep in it, consulting with Her every day about the latest news. Sometimes when I ask what can I do I hear 'you are already doing it' which brings me back to FST, teaching grounding and producing Grail bearers.

  Seems like, polishing FST and finally promoting it might be the most important thing I can do with regards to climate change. Tricky because FST is not about giving energy to fear, if that were allowed as a promotional strategy, then membership would be in the millions and I might be dead.

   She has promised me that our survival as a species is not at risk. The other side of climate change fears, it is the rise of eco feminism and people feeling a whole new love and longing for connection with the Mother.  I call them orphans, for their feelings of loss and disconnection but they are not orphans because Mom is alive and waiting. Their numbers are legion, and growing as more people consider the possibility of loss. Reuniting the orphans is just, the most beautiful thing. Calls to my heart and my heart is Hers.

  The new lesson #11... (FST is expanding to 60 lessons) was to be about the Water of Life, but that is already mentioned as a footnote of the Grounding in one Breath lesson and can be expanded there or elsewhere. Does not seem important enough for a whole lesson, its a tasty bit and now I have a lesson section for those. 

The new lesson #11 will be about climate change, going green to honour the Mother and an introduction to the Planetary Consciousness that is the true source, and guiding touch of K fire. 

  This topic is kind of a warm-up to writing it. Like a pianist cracking their knuckles before playing. Glad of all the responses!

[Mystress]

Gopi wrote: As a human sexuality researcher and FST practitioner, over the years I have had some very insightful and healing conversations with Mystress specifically about male ego and 'wounded masculinity'. So I am sharing chunks of what resonated with me here in the hope of contributing to the discussion with others and learning things for my own growth and wellbeing.

  And, if you don't mind... also grail bearer, all the FST Lineage are grads.

Your contribution is interesting, and welcomed. I can agree with most everything you contribute, with one caveat... I am a woman eh?  The term is Grail King but the attainment is not gender exclusive. It is certainly an accurate male view. The ritual itself- "we are all female, to the Divine." Female meaning receptive.  Grounding, the God light of the sun comes into the crown. We receive and pass it on... like a bumble bee carrying pollen.

   Mythology, iconography: Chalice and spear, chalice and sword/althame. Tip of the blade dipped into the liquid in the cup,  male and fem joined, symbolic sex.  Christianity laid overtop of, and borrowing from the celtic folk mythos that went before- the two make the pagan shivalinga, heterosexual sex, fertility, Great Rite. Union of opposites is the source of creativity, fertility. Christianity being patriarchal, the blade protects, the cup remains virginal.

  Cup of blood, continuously running over, is the physical heart. So the chalice symbol is sometimes replaced with a heart and there you have a million tattoos of a heart with  a sword stuck through it. Sun light and starry void womb, photons piercing the dark.  Like a fractal, the symbol repeats in many places, levels but all the same essential meaning- life, fertility. All the way back, to conception itself. Sperm piercing egg. Sword and vessel.

  Grail symbols hidden under other meanings because the symbol is so old, older than the pyramids, the original meaning is lost. The Western world dismissed the possibility of the Grail siddhe power as pure superstition.  Imagine my surprise to discover it is real and I have it.

  Two Christian symbols, the Immaculate Heart of Mary and the Sacred Heart of Jesus. Hers has a sword through it and is wrapped in roses (they have thorns too) and his has thorns wrapped and a fire coming out of it.  Her virgin chalice was tapped by the Holy Spirit to conceive him, and he is a vessel of that spirit.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Immaculate_Heart_of_Mary

The worthy Grail King, the holy fool... the pure heart. Tarot card of zero, egoless and infinite. Path of surrender, always making the leap of faith so pure, flowing along with Life.

You fool!!     I am learning to gracefully accept everything life has to offer and enjoy what I have right now.

Osho's interpretation:

A fool is one who goes on trusting; a fool is one who goes on trusting against all his experience. You deceive him, and he trusts you; and you deceive him again, and he trusts you; and you deceive him again, and he trusts you. Then you will say that he is a fool, he does not learn. His trust is tremendous; his trust is so pure that nobody can corrupt it.
Be a fool in the Taoist sense, in the Zen sense. Don't try to create a wall of knowledge around you. Whatsoever experience comes to you, let it happen, and then go on dropping it. Go on cleaning your mind continuously; go on dying to the past so you remain in the present, here-now, as if just born, just a babe.
In the beginning it is going to be very difficult. The world will start taking advantage of you...let them. They are poor fellows. Even if you are cheated and deceived and robbed, let it happen, because that which is really yours cannot be robbed from you, that which is really yours nobody can steal from you.
And each time you don't allow situations to corrupt you, that opportunity will become an integration inside. Your soul will become more crystallized.

Osho Dang Dang Doko Dang Chapter2

Moment to moment, and with every step, the Fool leaves the past behind. He carries nothing more than his purity, innocence and trust, symbolized by the white rose in his hand. The pattern on his waistcoat contains the colors of all four elements of the tarot, indicating that he is in harmony with all that surrounds him. His intuition is functioning at its peak. At this moment the Fool has the support of the universe to make this jump into the unknown. Adventures await him in the river of life.
http://kathryn.mnsi.net/major/major.html


Crystallized soul sounds like vajra diamond body, ascension.

I feel good about myself when I can help and be of service to someone else.

  Yes, that is maturation. The change from boy to man comes when he ceases to serve the selfish whims of his ego and gives himself over in service to something bigger.  It is essential.

The above quote "Achieving true “kingly” masculinity in this sense is a courageous accomplishment, not a birthright and is birthed through suffering, self-reflection, personal growth, and consciousness in all actions. resonated with me. I am learning and doing better. It is a little bit scary, tiring, and fun. Which is much better than feeling depressed and sorry for myself, IMO.
Namaste!

Jung said "There is no coming to consciousness, without pain. " I understand where you are coming from, the discipline of joy is a better way to learn, not feeding the negative voices of depression is important.

  Still... would you be able to embrace that idea if not for the suffering that came before? It shaped you, motivates you and so it was not without value.  Every step on the road to grace, is important and of value,  even the bad falls.

[begeegs]

Thanks for the response Mystress.

A vampire egregore? That sounds interesting. I am assuming that you mean in the spiritual sapping sense? I know that I hear about the group mind being a current of sorts, but I never really thought of it as a living entity in its own right.

I am relieved to hear that the species will not die out as there are some books/articles which talk about the over acidifcation of the oceans from taking in too much CO2 from losing the albedo affect. I can't help, but think that we will end up witnessing a large amount of the population dying as in addition to climate change as it also appears that the poles are also shifting. It makes me think that if humanity is aware of this on some level as well and we are starting to see that battle of the Maternal/Paternal sides playing out. When I say this, I effectively mean something like unbridled Corporatism against the rest of the population. Or potentially, I should just stop reading the news and related articles and try something lighter like hamsters eating tiny burritos ;-)

(for those interested in hamsters eating tiny burritos - have at it - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JOCtdw9FG-s)