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[ianalexander]

Hello all, just joined. Thought I would explain why I joined. Well my life was quite hectic and I seemed oddly inclined towards any crises you can think of. To make matters worse am a member of the military where small mistakes are magnified and people could potentially get hurt. Which was confusing because for years was working on meditating on my chakras and even got to the point where at will could open the front chakras. So I decided to investigate further and the work of "Barbara Brennan" was a great help, she includes what hardly any of the chakra literature seems to mention: the role of the Back chakras. So I worked on my back chakras and in a month the contrast was almost as dramatic as night and day. I noticed suddenly I had confidence, no longer felt the feelings of vulnerability and the panic situations stopped. They seem to govern the individual self - and also feels like heat every time. Also seems to be where the karmic package of self is stored because when opening the back chakras karma is released. What I found out was energetically I was inside out - all the focus on the front chakras removed the vestiges of self which now I know is just as important as recognizing the unity beyon, it seems a balance is necessary. However through time I went overboard. I remember recieving a dream one night after targeting the back chakras. Was a scene of locking myself away like Will Smith in the movie I AM LEGEND. My unconscious was telling me I was too seperate. And now I have the reverse situation, my chakras won't activate and a rush of heat always sabotages any attempt to activate a chakra. I am in a relationship (baby on the way) now and notice I sometimes strain to feel emotion, as I would wish I could be more intimate. Was wondering if advice can be offered or if you Mystress are open for a session to fix this situation. Thank you all

[Sigmund]

Hey, ian.  Welcome aboard.  Interesting course of events that led you here. 

In regards to your wanting to be more emotional and intimate, I wonder if you're either at a plateau and just need to let things have their time or, if your wanting things to happen is holding them back.  Just something to chew on.

I've come to see that surrendering things to Goddess is the best way for things to work.  Mystress says surrender is a smooth way of releasing things unlike having them release emotionally which isn't much fun.

   Regards

[ianalexander]

Hello Sigmund thank you for your reply. I don't know if it is due to the Shaktipat provided by the Serpent Tantra reading or if it was just time, but remarkably I found a method of rectifying my chakras. I have been experimenting with the use of visualization and noting the activity of my chakras due to what I was visualizing. For example simply visualizing cleaning your house after a few minutes of sustained visualisation causes your throat chakra to react. However after a while I noticed I felt a cold sensation - but no associated sensations of what usually follows when a chakra is activated. So I changed my approach I visualized being on stage speaking to a crowd and telling them to "live their truth, speak their truth etc." and this caused the feelings of my throat chakra to activate. While the throat chakra was activated I then went back to imagining cleaning my house. Suddenly felt the change, rather than cold felt a good mixture of heat/cold along with the sensations of chakra opening. What I gather from this is, imagining cleaning my house without the conviction that such activity was important wasn't doing the job of opening the chakra, it was causing an ice cold sensation with no feeling. I believe that cold is karma. When you do something that you believe goes against what you believe or you feel you are forced - you give your power away - karma results and is stored as cold in the body apparently.

[Sigmund]

Hey, ian.  I'm glad to hear that you've been able to move on from seeming to be stuck. 

I can't speak to the very last thing you say.  I do know that hot and cold are the sensations that the snakes give off, the snakes that coil three and a half times around the central channel.

   Regards and blessings

[ianalexander]

Yes actually I was wrong. Believing the cold energy in my throat chakra was bad I attempted to erradicate it with the hot energy. There was a sense of heat but the cold lingered beneath it in a muddy lukewarm state. Suddenly My eyes got sleepy, I was struggling to keep them open and felt really terrible. So I reveresed what I did, made the visualization in order to get back to the cold state. However the energy kept bouncing between cold/hot was lukewarm and felt a strain in my thyroid. I was awake again, then completely awake then wired. My heart started beating real fast, and the general excitation getting stronger as I struggled with the chakra to get back to cold. Throughout work when I had a break I would continue the visualisations until I reached a colder state and felt more relaxed. So I was wrong with equating the cold with karma, seems it governs when to calm the endocrine gland. My chakras are pretty much in a state of disorder again and have to fix it with my new knowledge. This maybe "prana" and the heat "apna"? At any rate this is why I need constant contact and guidance with a healer haha, constantly messing my aura up.

[Mystress]

  I am not a big fan of Barbara Brennan, some of her stuff is interesting but it is much too ridgid. Chakras spin clockwise or counterclockwise as they are meant to.

  Maybe you should quit messing with yourself so much? Pray for Goddess to adjust or change your chakras as She wishes, surrender is the imperative of kundalini and the most powerful force in the universe knows your process and what you need better than you ever could and things will go smoother if you can manage to stop micromanaging and interfering.

  All these ego judgments, cold is bad, cold is good, maybe cold is just what your chakras needed in that moment and it was handled for you before your ego decided to interfere? 

   Whenever you feel a kundalini symptom, get grounded and thank Goddess for taking care of you. Trust She knows what you need and is doing it. Watch what happens next. Stay grounded. Look for perfection.  Trust what is happening is exactly right, Goddess has it handled.

   Do not expect ego to understand it, ego is not infinite and Goddess is;  so ego trying to understand Goddess is a no-go.  Ego wants to meddle because it does not trust Goddess and thats natural since ego is all made of fear, eh? Stop feeding fear.

   Were you grounded when you wrote these posts? Get well grounded and re read your own words. You may be surprised how fast the answers come.

BTW: sleepy is GOOD! It means Goddess wants to work on you with ego out of the way, asleep.