Entities versus DB

[Lelle]

Hi all!

I am having alot of interactions from disembodied visitors - I am having a difficult time telling if its my DB interacting with me (the smarter part of my brain being infinitely wiser and maybe putting up with me learning discernment with thoughtforms) or if its genuinely my DB. I'm not particularly afraid, however I'd like to note that I feel more than ready to surrender to my own body mind and get out of my own way. I'm working on commitment to myself and my own life and this course has gone along way in assisting me in doing so.


I can't tell if its the smarter part of my being trying to seduce me. What makes me wary is that I hear "fuck", as if this thing is outside of me - like an echo. but whats outside of seems to be inside of me. Perhaps its based on a fear of some kind, but I'm not particularly afraid - thought word action and deed, right? However I don't feel particularly seduced. If the DB is trying to seduce me, we're on a low grade date that needs to change. I think this might be an unconscious manifestation of my own fears relating to sexuality.

I hear a woman's voice as well, giggling. She feels wiser and seems to laugh at my folly as I surrender more to my own divinity.  Could this be my higher self? The aspects of consciousness are incredibly confusing to me. I feel a bit forlorn. As I write this I can feel a deep sadness enter my being, I feel incredibly lonely for this relationship with my divinity and light within. I was always an extremely independent woman, traveled alot, never afraid of learning, different cultures and perspectives...lived abroad mostly.

Now I find myself feeling completely down and out. It's been a time where my affective ego seemed to disappear at times. Literally. This has not only made it nearly impossible to work as I used to, I am overwhelmed by the phenomenon and meaning in my own life. And lack of meaning. I'm really at the low point and feel so incredibly upset that even me surrendering to my own divinity has gotten terrifying. I walk around and feel incredibly disinterested in life. I want so much a full and vibrant relationship with myself. and a fuller experience of life. I don't even know myself very well.

Perhaps this is the dark night - if so it feels incredibly like I'm being reduced. I don't know how much more down and out I can feel. I am actively asking for the smarter aspect of divinity to come in and take my life over. Keeping it positive but knowing my inner divinity has my own best interest in mind.

I think this is the feeling of helpless that terrifies me. I always trusted that what happened was perfect - I have no regrets to speak of. I want to affirm with this post my full desire for intervention in my own life, of a divine nature. My own higher self and goddess.

To boot the serpents at the bottom of my bum are incredibly demanding - to the point where I was literally dragged into this semi-conscious state that said, "you're mine". The dark part of my mind took over, very instinctual, reminding me almost of the snake that eats its own tail - wise and animal. I feel as if this has taken up nearly all of my own life. Life circumstances put me in this surrender position and I try to breathe through it. Although I can feel the fireproofing the house is simpler.

I am in a position where I feel caput, into surrender.

Simply writing this out brought me great relief...I can feel tingling in my Spine. I can also hear the laughing and giggling.

Thank you for this space for sharing and thank you for your course, Mystress.

[Mystress]

Although I can feel the fireproofing the house is simpler.

   Yeah, did you? Have you done the house spell yet?

  Made me smile that you were laughing at the end. So many ways to surrender. You are doing fine. Remember love can be a weapon against entities.

[Lelle]

Hi Mystress,

I just did the house spell last night - the egg version. Immediately saw an explosion of light from above that filled my room with this joyous bubble feeling. I added pink as well to the outside, so I could be 'cleansed' at night. I pictured it like a karma magnet. It's like my imagination is getting better as days go by - I've been pushed back to basics again and again.  I'd been having a bit of a rougher time with some astral visitors and intense connections and I feel infinitely better. I'd been having a wild romance with myself. I even tried to seduce my own shadow. "Impertinent!"

I will be sending out lots of love I've been bothered by several. Thank you so much for the reply and affirmation. Things have gotten a lot smoother since I started surrendering actively. I am so enjoying the course!!