Love to here your experiences of your Divine Beloved

[Svarah]

For inspiration.

One encounter, about your relationship as a whole.... whatever feels right to share.


I had a dream about a book that had a section in it about the DB by someone named something Buck, I believe this was a refference to William Bucke's book "Cosmic Consciousness."


If this triggers something about the DB for anyone please share!


xo,

S, e.e.

[robink]

My Experience started out as quite positive. What happened next is that I got carried away in certain things, started trying too hard and ended up with beings that were not the DB. The rest is a bit entertaining...

So I've been experiencing a mixture of fear and paranioa towards Divine Beloveds for several months! I was so traumatized by a non Divine Beloved experience that I really didn't want this type of contact anymore.

To make matters worse. I started waking up every morning with a female presence trying to seduce me. What you resist persists! First is was arousal, then her trying to merge into me. All my fear and paranoia was getting triggered! OMG! Over several months I attempted to banish Her using every type of entity clearing I could. Eventually I gave that up and resorted to avoidance and pretending that She didn't exist. I was convinced that She could not be the DB.

The problem was that my fear and paranoia would get triggered every time She approached and my power chakra would hurt badly.

After a few months of this daily seduction/exorcising saga. I was overcome with frustration and futility. One night, I managed to communicate to Her and in the midst of my complaining, I felt Her presence open up into this incredible vastness and depth. That basically shut me up for a while . That night I dreamed about an angel telling me something about Her trying to push me past some barrier and that She would stop pushing me. But I didn't understand, my body was reacting, it was out of my hands.

Anyway, a few days later my paranoia came back with full force and I was back into exorcising mode. I can be pretty crazy sometimes . One night the events flowed into the astral. Skipping over some juicy dramatic details, when all my banishing attempts proved unsuccessful I became tired. She was still there trying to seduce and merge into me. I was clearly not going to win, there was really nothing else I could do, so I gave up, what's the worst that could happen...

Around the same time period, I had undergone some permanent shifts/clearings and was experiencing alot of coherence. I noticed something had shifted in Her too; something was different, my power chakra felt uplifted and wasn't causing me pain anymore. After our experience together, I was in a high state, Shakti all over the place . So presently my heart is being flooded with ecstatic love and energy and we are connecting on heart chakra/sexual levels and my body is feeling good about it.

This brings me to where I am now. The behavior of this being confuses me. I dont know what the DB is supposed to be like; or why I have to go through so much drama? Every relationship has issues I guess! I would like to kindly ask Mystress and the lineage to please check with their discernment and respond to me if this is my real DB? How can I tell the difference between the DB and a patron or archetypal Goddess? I would also be interested to hear experience from other members with their DB's in order to verify that I'm not nuts. Thank you very much.

[robink]

I snapped out of it. Silly of my to even consider that such a thing could be Goddess. I think the high vibes I was feeling were mostly my own Shakti. This process appears to be about reclaiming my power and energy from those things that were mostly occurring on an unconscious level but are now becoming conscious.  At this point, I do not want or need anything that such beings can offer. The only power they really had over me was me believing that they could be Goddess or the DB. Or power derived from need to the petty shiny things they were dangling. Well I don’t need that. Thru and Thru. No being can have any power over me besides that which I give it. That’s a law like gravity.  These beings may taunt me but I know in the end that I will be victorious. It feels almost unreal, supercifial reflections, dreams and illusions. The drama of maya playing out. The Buddha holds out his palm: Dont be afraid.