I have some questions....

[TwinDragon]

When it comes to relations.

Ok... So if someone was to fall in love with me

Are they falling in love with the human me or are they falling in love with Goddess in me? Or the void aspect of me? Or are they simply picking up on the Shakti and mistaking the feeling of it for romantic personal love???

I failed to recognize it when someone fell romanticly in love with me as I have a hard time differenciating that kind of love between the unconditional love of the Shakti... I took it as Goddess in me sees Goddess in you and recognizes that we're one, and whee, there's love and there's bliss... But a friend of mine said that he was in love with me romanticly. The same night that my friend recognized this, we were at a forthplay, I also felt like I was showing him the void in me, and I found people there we met later that night, so maybe that's got something to do with it lol. There was a lot of Shakti in the air that night, but how do I tell the difference between Shakti-love and romantic love??? He's an ateist too, don't know if maybe that's got something to do with it. Also it might be cause of my eccentricity, and all my funny ramblings of my experiences...  Don't know...



Anyone having some answers here, I would deeply appreciate it...

Goddess all this stuff is for you, and please take the holes too!:D

[ant]

i don't know much about Shakti love,
but i am a man and think i have experienced 3 different kinds of love
1) the love you would have for a family member
2) a sexual love
3)romanice infactuation, i think this mostly a fantasy, but im looking for it from my DB now

ant

[TwinDragon]

Hmmm... Any of these kinds of love gives me the amrita nectar... Both types lol! So I guess I'm still in the dark with this...:p Thanks for commenting... I'm too in that process with my DB:)

[Mystress]

 I always assume it is shakti. The mechanism of falling in love is to project the inner divine onto an external person... so falling in love with the Guru is considered to be sort of normal, though presumably not expressed sexually. Goddess does it so they pay attention, and because the love they give comes back multiplied so the loving itself is of some benefit... learning to not take it personally is wise... frustrating as hell for the lovers too lol. They want you to fall in love too and if you do then what happens with your relationship with  your DB if you project it onto them? What happens to them to recieve so much power from you?

  The dazzled ones always think its real, and its forever, and if they trusted that they wouldnt be urgent about wanting committment lol. Most of the time the love spell Goddess put on them fades in a month, usually less than two years.  Life takes them away, they move on like students graduating... and all the words of love and forever dont mean a thing.

 Svengali type relationships can be rewarding, romantic, fun... and by their very nature do not last.

 I have had dozens of relationships... but only two two relationships in my life where leaving the man was never an option, no matter how difficult the relationship became at times. . .
 
   

[TwinDragon]

I have experienced someone falling in love with me because I accidentally empathized them to the point where he couldn't think anymore. I knew it wasn't me he fell in love with but the Shakti/Goddess aspect of me, so I cut off contact with him, so the crush could wear itself off... I think he fell in love with that he would get shaktified around me or something.

"They want you to fall in love too and if you do then what happens with your relationship with  your DB if you project it onto them? What happens to them to recieve so much power from you? "

I don't know, I don't have much experience in this... But I've gotten to experience other kinds of power exchanges when I did healing on some folks. Didn't like the feeling of it though, receiving the other party's Divine Power during the session, it felt wrond for me to have it!

One time was with my mother; I did a healing on her (we are both able to heal and just thought we'd try it for fun) The dynamic of it was like this: First I received her Divine Power (she then started feeling like she was very little, and that I was bigger than her) But then I grounded her firmly to the crystal (and then she felt really powerful again and like she was anchored to the ground/earth. And like she was really balanced/steady in her body. I guess it started a process in her. I was a little bit worried before I did the healing as I had healed a friend of mine's wounds, and stopped her wound from bleeding, and I didn't effectively cut the connection and so got some karma from her the day after too. I knew my part in the process was to simply redirect their Shakti to them. So it's their powers allthough they might not have realized that. I also did a session on my sister and my mother was in the room, and she actually empathized me while I did it lol. When my hands went up to her head/third eye I had a strong reaction to not want to do anything there, and that's exactly what my mother felt too! My sister felt really strong vibrations through all of her body during the session.

Anyways that's my experience of performing healing on others... Other than empathy and transmuting stuff through my own body.. I used to simply be able to sense the stuff in me as a reflection but managed to stop doing that and focus on my own stuff.

I'm pretty sure me and my ex projected our Divine Beloveds onto eachother. Which I got cleared during the higher self negotiation/constellation. Allthough at first he didn't want to let go of the pieces he had kept for me. So it took a while... I was wholly ready to give him his Divine Beloved but he didn't want to let go of mine lol. I don't like having that kind of power over anyone, nor do I like giving another that kind of power, it feels, totally wrong for me to do so...

But I wonder, isn't it possible to be in a functioning loving romantic relationship, without projecting the Divine Beloveds onto eachother? I wonder, because I do wish to someday have a relationship with a physical man too, and not only my inner Divine Beloved, and not just having love affairs (which have been fun for now lol)...

Sometimes my Divine Beloved has in fact showed up as a reflection of my previous lovers, (or it might have been some astral thing) so I asked him to just manifest as himself, and also asked there not to be any astral stuff, other people's unconcious or entities involved so I could explore with my true Divine Beloved...

What's the Svengali type relationship?

[TwinDragon]

I'm drawing this post up a little... I'm getting more clarity on things! Wee I'm working on the pregraduation lesson and this might be some pre-work to that:D

A couple of years ago, I wasn't aware of the power that my empathy could have on people.

Me just looking at someone in the high vibrational state, is really a shaktilaser beam of attention that can drown the recepient in Shakti. And the karma flows to me. I learned the hard way these effects. I've had people developing crushes on me, from thinking it was love. And it is love. It's just not personal! But unconditional love. Now with my third eye that open, I can actually see it. A black "line" or portal opening in space, where shakti-light flows from me into it, and to wherever my attention goes to. When I discovered it the first time I acknowledged it and DB wrapped me in my wings, and then I was invinsible. Transparent. Went back to not focusing too much on anything for that to happen! I became nothing. I pretty much empathize anything I focus on for too long. I also realize that I have already reached the Holy Grail! Before I started on the tantra, I gave my heart up to the crystal, and she gave me back something, as if she installed something in my heart! It was the peace-maker. Allthough I didn't quite accept the gift back then, I couldn't figure out what it was, or what that meant... but for now, the standing wave comes and goes. (I have some resistance towards it that I'm in the process of releasing) I can even see the standing wave with my third eye! I went to the shower the other day, grounded, activated the standing wave, and woow, some karma stuff just weent bumping off on my left side! Going... Wherever:P It seems it activates just by the intention of grounding...

Anyways.. I have learned to be very discerning in where I let my curiousity, attention and empathy go. I didn't realize the larmic laws before this course. Didn't understand why I would get so "dense" just from my focus on certain people!

And just by sitting next to me... For example, I was having a forthplay, and I was really grounded. And a guy sitting next to me, suddenly said, he couldn't think anymore! He was drowned in shakti just by sitting that close to me! Another guy, I accidentally looked at for a little loo long with shaktilaser focus, also said, he couldn't think anymore. Talk about being drowned... Maybe I was putting them into Zen... This was also before I started on the course. Thanks so much Mystress for this course, it has tought me so much, and I've gotten so many clarifications etc...

I have discovered my weaknesses though. And apparently I do have an underlying need to play karma vampire! And I know that my shadow gets my needs met if I won't get them met. One of my weaknesses are that sometimes if I'm not fast enough to reject a projection, I do get pushed up into the witness state, where I become a reflection of whatever they project and want from me. Been doing this my entire life, apparently! And... it sucks! Working on this...

But...! I have found ways to make it easier for me to surrender. Singing Kate Bush etc lol! It's really pleasurable. I'm also trying to get past my knee-jerker resistance pattern! Woow, so many insights lately!!! Is it possible that my issues with my left side is because of that knee jerker resistance pattern?? It seems that, that's the side of me where incoming karma, and intuitive information is coming to! And growing up, resistant to building a sosial mask, I was giving shaktipat to wherever my attention went to, and the left side got the hits! And my knee jerker resistance on that side, made me block some of the flow in my left side (the side is physicly a little bit smaller than the other, and DB showed up as the reflection of me, with one side of him with black holes etc.. One side of him missing! Woow... We're healing this currently... Major changes! I'm coming back to who I used to be... Goddess/higher self, DB sides of me which I didn't really have the guts to show to the world before... I also have a knee jerker resistance to getting intuitive information etc. A part of me doesn't really wanna know!


I'm sorry about this maybe being rambly, but I'm getting insights as I write, and things go a little bit here and there... Lol!  All of this, for Goddess to eat! Thank you very much!