Could use some help...

TwinDragon · Nov 28, 2010, 04:31:46 PM

Hi:)

I am having difficoulty getting grounded, and have been for some time now... I keep getting chills, and not the chills I get when it's cold, this seems to be because of something energetic, maybe an entity? I've done some entity clarings as well, but this won't seem to go... And when I try to ground it's as if I'm only getting cold energy. I feel energy coming into my feet but it's cold:S

there are certain spots on my back the chills/energy is moving on as well that seem to be related to my chakras.

Something is coming onto my lower chakra point areas too that are really uncomfortable, I keep telling it to transmute but it keeps coming back... And I feel that it is what is interfearing with my grounding. This feels different from when my K is working in and around my spine which usually only starts when I am in deep grounded meditation and I'm connected with my heart voice telling me it's safe to have the serpents play.

I usually have a very good connection/grounding, but loose it easily in contact with others as I can be very empathic. As if I can't maintain the light in my aura to protect me... My creative senters seems unprotected...

Anyone that might read something on this, or have comments I would deeply appreciate it..

Blossom · Nov 29, 2010, 06:29:12 PM

Hey,

Did you read up on hot and cold energy in kundalini yet? the two serpent energies Ida and Pingala. One being hot and the other cold (emotional energy). Cold energy usually means that emotional energy is clearing out - all perfectly normal.

The empathy and ungrounding is normal too. I have that issue as well (so do others) and it ties back to power games that play out in the SP chakra. You just need to be persistent and keep regrounding. It'll become easier as you continue to surrender things.

TwinDragon · Nov 30, 2010, 07:54:25 AM

Thanks:) I have read about the two different types of energy but never thought of one of them being cold...

Sigmund said it could be that my k serpents and the pathways were imbalanced so I asked Goddess to replace it, and it feels better now...

There's one strange thing though, I usually feel warm from the shakti or the tummo, but I get cold right before my father asks if it's cold in my apartment?

It seems that his worry is manifesting it in/around me...

TwinDragon · Nov 30, 2010, 08:45:03 AM

By further thought on this, I think some of the cold energy relates to a past life where I have repressed emotional issues about healing... My unconcious has brought it up so many times now, I even got a reading that confirmed it... A friend of mine which I dated also brought out these issues in me, that leads to me crying hystericly for no reason:P I'm surrendering this too...

Blossom · Dec 01, 2010, 02:31:24 PM

Replacing the pathways could certainly help the issue, so you get a mixture of cool and hot energy. It balances it for the moment. Yea, the shakti and tummo are hot. Maybe he's simply picking up on the vibes? not the one causing it.

Emotional releasing is multi-faceted, so you have all sorts of related and unrelated issues that surface in order to release/surrender. Crying for no reason is okay, and so is getting angry for no reason (I've had tons of stuff come up the last two weeks) - just need to allow the emotion to express itself without judgement or clinging, so that it doesn't repress itself again. :-)

TwinDragon · Dec 01, 2010, 04:15:01 PM

Hmm, I'm not sure, it was something he said one day that brought up memories and strong emotions connected to the past life. I think either way the stuff is brought up to be healed:)

Thanks:) I understand that... That's sort of my problem, I'm so good at repressing my emotions when they first come up, and later when I feel it's proper to bring them up I'm not able to:P But I've found that songwriting makes it soo much easier, and it's even fun to do... I manage to express it in words and singing makes it easier for the emotional release:) And getting it to rhyme is fun too.. As long as I'm alone, that is lol:P

TwinDragon · Dec 03, 2010, 09:11:18 AM

I'm just wondering, I can't clearly see the colour white when I'm grounding, the energy feels like a very light golden colour to me... The earth energy seems to be in a little bit darker colour and moving slower and the universal in a lighter colour, moving faster... Is this just my view of how the energy feels to me, or should I try to visualize white intead of gold?

Blossom · Dec 04, 2010, 12:10:04 AM

that makes sense. emotional stuff does get stuck in the throat, so singing would be very healing.

I'd go with whatever colours resonate best. if it's gold for you, then do that. everyones experiences and perceptions of things is different, so trust what you get (and let go of comparisions).

TwinDragon · Dec 08, 2010, 04:57:56 AM

I'm trying to do that...

I think the colours I see is the just the colour my emotional reaction to the energy is or something... Like the feeling is to me of unconditional love is golden:P Or other emotional states is other colours:P

Anyway, I think I have for some reason reflected in myself my grandmother who is having like a chronic bladder infection and now I feel like I have it ... It doesn't make sense because I haven't been freezing, it's just been the chills I sometimes get, and my bladder meridians are moving around and it's rather uncomfortable... And I hardly ever get a bladder infection, the last time was about two years ago and before that I can't even remember...

And now the heat has started again that hopefully is the tummo taking care of it...

Sorry for ranting about this stuff, it's just that I become very annoyed when these things happen.. Even angry when I can't seem to surrender it.

I'm wondering how the relationships with family has become for any of you after you started on the spiritual path with surrendering traits that was learned by parents? I've surrendered a lot of things through familyconstellations etc, patterns and stuff that I learned from my parents when I grew up... But it's still a difficoult thing with family and sensitivity for me.

And through kinesiology there's been a lot of stuff that has come up to let go of that had it's origin from when I was little... That I can't even remember conciously:P

TwinDragon · Dec 08, 2010, 05:39:49 AM

It's odd how when I'm writing about stuff and the answer seems to come afterwards... I think I was tuning in to the relationship between some of my family members. And I remembered the phrase/affirmation my theraphist taught me about it, and it's like something was lifted:)

Thank you Goddess...

Mystress · Dec 08, 2010, 11:07:39 AM

Quote from: TwinDragon on Dec 08, 2010, 05:39:49 AM
It's odd how when I'm writing about stuff and the answer seems to come afterwards... I think I was tuning in to the relationship between some of my family members. And I remembered the phrase/affirmation my theraphist taught me about it, and it's like something was lifted:)

Thank you Goddess...

Its part of the nature of this cyberspace, sometimes people find they get answers before they are even done writing. Goddess provides!

Strong emotional energy releasing sometimes feels cold.
Kundalini feels like cool breezes to some people.
Angry or very emotional ghosts feel cold.
Blossom was good about the serpents. TY.

TwinDragon · Dec 09, 2010, 01:55:50 PM

Thank you Mystress:)

TwinDragon · Dec 13, 2010, 03:39:21 PM

Just another question...

Lately I've seen seing something like a black (and sometimes with the colour brown) figure/spirit around me.. Sort of like a fluctuating energy appearing, it's difficoult to describe... I only see it in a glimpse when I'm not focusing, if I try to watch I can't see it anymore as my physical vision interfears... I'm not sure but it seems like it's trying to get my attention, but I don't know how to communicate with it conciously. I always tell stuff to transmute into light if I'm sensing something I'm not sure of what it is. I don't know, just throught I'd share...

I think my DB has shown itself as a fluctuating energy as well, but I've seen it as a more transparent energy rather than black. Could this be my DB? If so it is showing up a little bit odd:)

I welcome you to share if anyone gets a feeling on it:)

Surrendering this to Goddess... Thank you very much!

Mystress · Dec 15, 2010, 08:44:12 AM

I dont think its your DB, just a curious spirit. You can ask your guardian angels to handle it, take it into the light.

The trick with things seen out of the corner of your eye is to keep your eyes still and look to see whats there, with your mind.

Blessings.

TwinDragon · Dec 15, 2010, 04:04:02 PM

I thought it was something like that too, and have asked that it be taken to the light... I don't sense it anymore.

I usually tell spirits I see or sense to go into the light or leave my apartment... Since I have the right to keep my apartment ghost and entity free:) But I'm not always sure it does since when my third eye isn't open I don't see it transmute... Then I ask for help:)

Thank you for the tip... I try to do it, but sometimes when I get curious to what it is, my physical eyes go back into focus and the stuff dissappears from my vision..

Not always though... Last night I saw a white light growing as if it was in my computer:P And that was right in front of my vision..

Anyways thanks and blessings:)

Mystress · Dec 29, 2010, 03:15:05 AM

You wouldnt be seeing this stuff unless your 3rd eye is open.

TwinDragon · Mar 04, 2011, 08:50:33 AM

True.. I think I was seeing the shakti or Goddess conciosness or light of it since I was on the grounding page when I saw it:) It seems that my third eye is starting to open up more again.. Visualizing the grounding comes easier and is more "lucid" if that's the right word for it.. And yey, that means more grounding!:)