Fantasies and the face of the DB

[Mystress]

I did a session with someone and wanted to share part of it with you, anonymized by request.


[/i][Mystress] 12:38 pm: so.. what did you want to work on?
[FST Student] 12:40 pm: okay... I was thinking about it. (...) AND my issues with my DB. Do you think you could help me with that?
[/i][Mystress] 12:41 pm: ok, what about your DB?
[FST Student] 12:42 pm: I tell small story, is it ok?
[/i][FST Student] 12:44 pm: 1998 I started feeling him. But 2001 I saw this *hides in embarrasment* local (famous person) on TV. Lightning struck through me. I thought it was him. So, in a nutshell, I went through all kind of crap and obsessions. I managed to put that away for few years, and logged to FST for hope to change that appearance. No use, it went worse.
[/i][Mystress] 12:45 pm: ok, so surrender to it.
[Mystress] 12:45 pm: My DB sometimes shows up as David Bowie... in dreams. I know it is not about the real David so there is no projection.
[FST Student] 12:45 pm: I'm afraid of the effects it has to that person. I'm afraid I see them. Or then I'm paranoid.
[/i][FST Student] 12:46 pm: I want some deity!
[/i][Mystress] 12:46 pm: so long as you are clear that it is your own DB wearing their face then there is no projection.
[Mystress] 12:47 pm: DB= Divine Beloved - David Bowie... lol never noticed they have the same initials
[FST Student] 12:47 pm: Well that was nice to hear! I've been thinking about all that karma
[/i][FST Student] 12:47 pm: Eh, mine is *****, literarly...
[/i][Mystress] 12:48 pm: yeah, I realized that with Edward's post too. Sometimes I want to sort out my thoughts about someone but not connect to them so I just get clear on that.. that my thoughts are about *my ideas* about the person and I invoke a right to privacy.. like a selective mirror bubble.
[Mystress] 12:50 pm: but with stuff like that, you look at what you think they have that you believe you do not...
[Mystress] 12:50 pm: charisma, success, courage, a private island..
[FST Student] 12:51 pm: yep, creativity, sexyness, mystical...
[/i][Mystress] 12:51 pm: I wanted to incarnate as David Bowie but the job was already taken
[Mystress] 12:51 pm: yeah I got that stuff..
[FST Student] 12:51 pm: Okay
[/i][Mystress] 12:52 pm: I am creative and sexy (swollen feet and all) and certainly mystical
[Mystress] 12:52 pm: but I am not a rock god
[FST Student] 12:52 pm:
[/i][Mystress] 12:54 pm: so, be grounded and put a bubble so your thoughts about the real ***** do not reach him but are instead reflected back to you... because they are really not about him, they are about you.
[Mystress] 12:55 pm: then let your DB show up with whatever face he wants to wear
[FST Student] 12:56 pm: Ok. It was quite hard situation. I tried to hang onto that vampire from twilight, but it didn't last..
[/i][FST Student] 12:56 pm: ***** came back, strong
[/i][FST Student] 12:56 pm: I put the bubble up
[/i][FST Student] 12:58 pm: done
[/i][Mystress] 12:59 pm: ok so talk to *****.. ask why your DB takes that form
[FST Student] 12:59 pm: because it makes me hot...
[/i][Mystress] 12:59 pm: woot!
[Mystress] 12:59 pm:
[FST Student] 1:00 pm: with him, his jokes and poking... it's neverending
[/i][Mystress] 1:00 pm: ask if you can enjoy him in that form without it affecting the human named *****
[FST Student] 1:01 pm: He seems very positive about that
[/i][Mystress] 1:01 pm: excellent!
[Mystress] 1:01 pm: So long as you know it is really all about you and are clear on that, it is fine.
[FST Student] 1:02 pm: But he still uses interwievs and so on to deliver me insights and all kind of gifts. Is it safe for me too?
[/i][Mystress] 1:03 pm: yes.. Bowie inspires me too, but your thoughts about him are about you. Be clear in your intention not enjoy but not project and it is fine.
[FST Student] 1:04 pm: Ok
[/i][Mystress] 1:04 pm: I do send bowie my appreciation for him... that is sort of natural and seems fine to do. I was on his website for a while and could actually write to him and tell him so, which was cool. Did not expect a response.
[Mystress] 1:05 pm: I let the membership lapse tho, it was 97$ a year and I rarely visited it
[FST Student] 1:05 pm: First couple of years were hellish. My old teacher believed in physical twin flames. So you know how that goes.
[/i][Mystress] 1:06 pm: yup
[Mystress] 1:06 pm: stalker land lol
[FST Student] 1:07 pm: yes. Thank Goddess I didn't do anything like that. Couple of idiot lightworkers kinda letters to website.
[/i][FST Student] 1:07 pm: I still get embarrased about them
[/i][Mystress] 1:08 pm: heh, let it go. I wrote one to Richard Bach's website that I am sure made him think I am a nut case if he actually saw it
[FST Student] 1:09 pm: heh!
[/i][Mystress] 1:10 pm: what you see is yourself reflected, be clear on that and in your intention to not project stuff onto the actual human and its fine.
[FST Student] 1:11 pm: yeah, i've been thinking about that. When I see him, I see an angel. Totally out of my league.
[/i][Mystress] 1:11 pm: ugly mirror bubble is a useful thing, you can set it to reflect back anything or everything you might be sending out.
[Mystress] 1:12 pm: you can set it to be a filter, that only what *****'s higher self might find good gets through.
[FST Student] 1:12 pm: can I program ugly bubble just for him, that it lets others through? So it's not too much
[/i][Mystress] 1:12 pm: yes
[Mystress] 1:13 pm: and when it is specialized like that it is ok to leave it up for a while. Its the 100% universal return bubbles that can make ya crazy if on too long.
[Mystress] 1:14 pm: I sometimes get stalker types with a Mystress sock puppet in thier heads, I put one up for them because I dont want my thoughts about them to encourage them to continue with the obsession
[FST Student] 1:15 pm: I understand. That's why I've been trying to change it all along
[/i][Mystress] 1:15 pm: yeah, but trying to control your thoughts is ... well, kinda impossible. So allow the thoughts just dont let them go anywhere.
[FST Student] 1:17 pm: I've affirmed this kind of stuff already, so maybe he hasn't got so much of my opinions and adoration...
[/i][Mystress] 1:18 pm: well, ask your DB
[FST Student] 1:18 pm: Eh, some... but he seems happy about that..?
[/i][Mystress] 1:19 pm: ya like the filter I mentioned, people rarely become famous unless they want appreciation
[Mystress] 1:19 pm: you think he is wonderful, it's usualy OK to tell him so in your mind
[Mystress] 1:20 pm: I thank David for being such an inspiration to me.
[FST Student] 1:20 pm: He is cool!
[/i][Mystress] 1:22 pm: Do you mind if I post parts of this chat to the forum to clarity about that?
[Mystress] 1:23 pm: I'l delete your name if you prefer
[FST Student] 1:23 pm: I am embarrassed..... Very embarrassed... could you take **'s name away.
[/i][Mystress] 1:24 pm: yes
[Mystress] 1:24 pm: I was planning to write about it anyway but sometimes people understand better, reading a conversation.
[FST Student] 1:24 pm: this has been my very dark secret, which proves that i'm an idiot stalker paranoid schizo...
[/i][Mystress] 1:25 pm: Wheeeeeeee!
[Mystress] 1:25 pm: lets start a club!