Earth Energy

[Lexx]

At times when i feel i draw on Earth light, perhaps align myself to accept its energy, i feel an incredible heaviness, that it almost makes me shake, and i feel very nauseous. When i work on the grounding, i tend to start strong with the chi, and then when it comes to earth light it is not nearly as complete. I dont visualise the earth crystal very well and its all a bit sketchy. So maybe im not ready for shakti as much as i am for chi? Is this common?
The heavyness is so so strong like i was on the surface of jupiter or something, massive g forces pulling down on me. I sense that my resistance is keeping me out of it, and making me feel the nausea. I think i have felt these feelings before when i have been ill years ago.

[Mystress]

  I think you are trying too hard, it is a form of resistance.

  Sometimes people make the mistake of "drawing on" the earth energy like sucking it up through a straw. That is incorrect.  There is no need for that because Goddess provides.  When you send the sky energy down, the earth energy comes back up on its own, you just have to be receptive. You dont have to focus on drawing from the sun either, it shines on everybody.. just open to it, let it fill you and then give some to the Earth.

   Blessings...

[Jackman]

At first and actually for a quite long time I also had big difficulties with grounding and needed really heavy work to get the energy to come down and have it rise again.. Probably like Mystress said because of trying too hard which of course comes from the big yearning to unite with everything that is. Lately this has changed and the three breaths grounding comes very easily. I think earlier I did not trust that the grounding would work well if I did it without ten minutes of pushing and pulling... 

Namaste,
J

[Lexx]

After i spent some time working on accepting what is, in the present moment, feeling some bliss, and feeling like i was slowly waking up, opening my eyes again, beautiful. When i started to ground myself it was effortless, quiet, just beneath the surface, already there. The act of drawing the sun down is a message to the subconsciousness to submit and for the ego to let go....
Working at 'not identifying' with the karmic release's is so tricky, as im sure it has been my reality for so long now. Do you accept the thoughts, and let your ego die a little death with each one? Is that the way? Almost like 'whats the worst you can do!?' Its staying true to the true self, whilst letting the ego die and thrash about..Can someone talk a little about that razors edge?
Thanks.

[Mystress]

  Surrender the thoughts. Just get into the habit of responding to thoughts with "Goddess take it. Thank you." Breathe.

  You can surrender anything... except other people, you don't own them.  You can surrender your thoughts and feelings about them, your ideas about them, your relationship with them, etc.

  Blessings...