Dissolving the pain body

[Gustaf]

Vyana posted a thread some time ago about different approaches to the pain body, gestalt it out, or just allow it to be?

This question kept rattling around for quite a while. And I'd like to start a fresh thread about it.

What has come to me is a paradox. If I focus deeply on presence, the pain body is destined to show it's head soon enough. Because it's the accumulated resistance in me. An example, this morning, I started to move out of a funk of stress that had gripped me for some time. I went up in the morning and went to the utmost simplicity. Yoga practices were focused on simply laying on the floor, breathing. Simply moving my hands, stuff like that. Eating slowly, and with presence. Feel the body, feel the couch I sat in. 30 minutes later the pain body found a completely insignificant situation about work that meant I would have to go into the office even though I had planned to work from home. I went into a complete fit, with screaming and cursing and resisting. My inner guidance was clearly saying, just go in, there are other things waiting too. The resistance just created a lot of pain. Sabotage. The peace from the morning was gone.  The realization of this made the anger dissolve fairly quickly.

Goddess was right of course. Some quite miraculous things not directly related to the job happened. My boss asked me to talk to a coworker who was fallout out more and more at work, and who has had health problems for quite a while. We talked about work, and his resistance gradually started to fade.  He then called me back and told me he was working out a plan to quit smoking, lose weight and get his body fresh and healthy. Something he has never told me he's wanted to do in the 7 years I have worked with him.

The sabotage is a paradox. It is the ego, yet it is Goddess. Goddess triggers the resistance. The resistance is ego. The ego perceives it as sabotage.

Turn it the other way.  Gestalt the pain body as Vyana says. How could you do that without presence?  It takes intense presence to romance the Shadow!  And the only thing that you can do in order to dissolve is to allow it to be. Love it. Allowing. You do not try to dissolve it, you are simply there.  I guess it's just a matter of perspective, whethere you see it as an action, shadow work, or simply giving it space whenever it arises... The process when it happens, is to me, the exact same thing.

If I am able to stay grounded/presence enough when it arises, it will dissipate fairly quickly.  If I fail to stay grounded, the success is immediate the moment I realize what it is. That very moment, I can start to drop projections, excuses and judgements that gives it reality and separation.

Therein lays the beauty, as far as I am concerned. I cannot fail with it. Every realization is a total success.

Goddess, thank you for this space of sharing.
Gustaf

[Daniel]

Thanks for sharing that, just what I needed to hear right now.