Getting slapped

[edward]

Hi fellow people!

Taking this course makes me feel like I'm getting slapped in the face all the time.

And I like it, not only because of my masochist tendencies, but it's like "wake up boy". And then I notice that my mind has got me carried away. Then I surrender again. Surrendering works very well.

I notice that my world is getting magical. I experience magic events several times during a day. If I say to Goddess "Show me something today", something cool and "wow"-like things happen afterwards.

I have also noticed that I sometimes get a "hard-on" when I see beautiful scenes outside when walking my dog. Like the sun going down, og smelling the trees. Very cool.

When interacting with other people it%rsquos like observing myself and my thoughts and my reactions, and also the same awareness when observing other people.

One thing this slapping has shown me (and still does, everytime I get slapped), is that I%rsquom not that non-prejudical as I thought. I can be an very bitchy, arrogant and nasty ass sometimes.

I really like the idea about the opposite gender stuff when it comes to aspects of conciousness, because I have always felt not quite an all male-person. Even though I%rsquom a rather straight-acting gay boy, I have felt more like androgynous.

Anyway, the grand search of Enlightenment, Self-Realization etc., has like ceased now. Enlightenment is not a state of being, but a process. Right now.

I feel like a lumber, floating down the river. It goes automatically, just need a push here and there (Goddess takes care of that).

Everything is in abundance.

Listening to Donna Summer%rsquos %ldquo I feel love%rdquo just underlines the general emotion I%rsquom having nowadays.

And if anybody knows the song  %ldquoI%rsquom a woman%rdquo by Cassius, that%rsquos like Shakti singing directly to you.

Edward

[edward]

By the way, here is a link to the "I'm a woman" video:

http://www.blastro.com/player/cassiusimawoman.html?detect_mediatype=wmv%detect_bitrate=_128

• http://www.blastro.com/player/cassiusimawoman.html?detect_mediatype=wmv&detect_bitrate=_128">I'm a woman by Cassius

[Scott E]

Mystress has mentioned that you have achieved enlightenment when you can stay grounded 24/7.

: Anyway, the grand search of Enlightenment, Self-Realization etc., has like ceased now. Enlightenment is not a state of being, but a process. Right now.

Cheers,
Scott

[edward]

That sounds reasonable

I had a real strange experience a couple of days ago. I was slumbering in the bed with my dog Dennis.

I was doing the grounding, and went in to a light dream-like half awake state.

I suddenly woke up because my dog was shaking (I was lying with my head on his paws), he himself was sleeping. I removed my head from his paws, and he stopped shaking after a few seconds - but still I felt like something vibrating, and then I understood that I myself was vibrating. It was a like a internal vibration, a little bit faster than seconds. Very powerfull.

My theory is that I was physically vibrating with the pulse of the Earth.

Anyway, I try not to get hung up in phenomenas, but I still think it was an interesting experience.

Edward

: Mystress has mentioned that you have achieved
: enlightenment when you can stay grounded 24/7.
:
: Cheers,
: Scott