Night terrors

[kittygrrl]

I used to have night terrors as a very young child. It was a nightly thing for awhile and so frightening for someone so young. Of course, my parents thought something was wrong with my brain (heck, maybe there is!), and I think they took me to some doctor, which of course did not help. From what I can remember, these terrors settled down after a really bad car accident in which I got a head injury and all focus went to my healing, etc.

Over the years, I once in awhile will have this type of "dream" but not at the intensity they were as a kid... until the last couple of weeks. They seem to be back in both frequency and intensity, only the images themselves are much more clear.  They feel exactly the same in that I feel like I wake up and whatever I "see" is still there, and I cannot seem to separate reality from the dream. Last night, it was a spider the size of the entire bed sitting on its web above me, and as I interpreted it, I was in the web with it, maybe as its prey. At least, that's what my sleepy brain said at the moment. The thing is, these things seem to happen immediately after my head hits the pillow just like when I was a kid, so I can't imagine I could be in all that deep of a sleep? I am a person that really, really, REALLY dislikes spiders (these terrors often involve one) and therefore was freaked out and unable to sleep after this. I ended up reading a good part of the night, which is always fun but not so good for you when you're tired

I am wondering why these are happening again now, and if this is a normal part of an awakening? I am thinking there is probably something I am resisting or some message I am not "getting." Any insight or personal experiences anyone would like to share would be greatly appreciated

~Namaste~ Kittygrrl

[Tommy]

Hi kittygirl

I dont know if its the same, but i have had some dreams over the years where some nasty stuff happened. Usually a confrontation with an "evil woman". One dream she lured me into a car with her even though my intuition told me not to. When i realised what i mess i was in, she turned to me and cut the backside of my right thigh all the way to the bone. I woke up and the pain from the cut was still there.. it lasted for days.

I have somehow categorized these dream happenings as clearings, in time they all make sense.. and big changes inside usually follows.

I have noticed on this path that some issues and pains are to intense to grasp an handle consciously.. sort of like being lost in the wilderness and the hand is rotting off ~ if you leave the hand to rot you will surely die when the rot reaches the heart.. but knowing this does not make it easier to saw of ones own hand, i guess *ss*

What i am saying is that i believe these things are a great help to release the things that are too painfull to do by yourself.. even though it might not be all there is to it?? or very pleasant.

I have no fear of spiders.. perhaps because the spiders in Denmark are very small I have periods where i dream about spiders alot.. and they usually turn out to be my mothers fears.. and all the fear i have been spoonfed, and fears/pains related to my mother. My mother i sort of neurotic and had a hard time allowing me to grow and make my own experiences. I was not allowed to play as a normal kid, and she gave me the impression that danger is behind every corner and that if i was happy i was asking for lightning to strike us all. Many years passed before i had the courage to break free from her nurturing fears, and there was alot of things to clear out related to this. But at the end of the day it does not matter where all my inner stuff comes from, it is inside me.. i can set it free.  

After a while i stopped seing the dreams happenings as wrong, bad and a sign that there is/was something wrong with me.. i surrendered my fear and allowed this deep cleansing of my subconsciouss to take place, a few years has passed and i rarely get them anymore. They are more clear now and easier to understand.. and very gentle. There are not many spiders showing up.. my next inner chapter is crocodiles. The crocodiles are much easier to deal with, even the big ones

But i have no idea what these experiences and this huge spider has to offer you.

Blessings
Tommy

: I used to have night terrors as a very young child. It was a nightly thing for awhile and so frightening for someone so young. Of course, my parents thought something was wrong with my brain (heck, maybe there is!), and I think they took me to some doctor, which of course did not help. From what I can remember, these terrors settled down after a really bad car accident in which I got a head injury and all focus went to my healing, etc.

: Over the years, I once in awhile will have this type of "dream" but not at the intensity they were as a kid... until the last couple of weeks. They seem to be back in both frequency and intensity, only the images themselves are much more clear.  They feel exactly the same in that I feel like I wake up and whatever I "see" is still there, and I cannot seem to separate reality from the dream. Last night, it was a spider the size of the entire bed sitting on its web above me, and as I interpreted it, I was in the web with it, maybe as its prey. At least, that's what my sleepy brain said at the moment. The thing is, these things seem to happen immediately after my head hits the pillow just like when I was a kid, so I can't imagine I could be in all that deep of a sleep? I am a person that really, really, REALLY dislikes spiders (these terrors often involve one) and therefore was freaked out and unable to sleep after this. I ended up reading a good part of the night, which is always fun but not so good for you when you're tired

: I am wondering why these are happening again now, and if this is a normal part of an awakening? I am thinking there is probably something I am resisting or some message I am not "getting." Any insight or personal experiences anyone would like to share would be greatly appreciated

: ~Namaste~ Kittygrrl

[Scott E]

You can try sleeping on your side if you don't already to avoid getting intense symptoms in your sleep.

Scott

[Eileen]

Hi Kitty.  I know that spider!  Spider was the first and clearest (and most terrifying) aspect of K that appeared tangeably to me.  She would usually be dropping right near or onto my face!  One night when I woke to her dropping directly on to me from above I somehow managed the most supernatural feat of acrobatics to get out from under the covers, under her, and onto my poor husband who awakened quite dazed!

Spider (for me, and several others I know) is a representation of Kali.  The destroyer of ignorance...of ego death.  She finally appeared (later) as a more anthropomorphic figure and called herself "The Lord of Death - of things no longer needed."  Around that same time I also had scorpions dropping down in the same way.  After a while you actually get used to 'waking up' to all these things, and to waking up and seeing the room as a completely different place.  All of this comes out quite clearly, in utter darkness all the same.  Strange when there are shapes and such on the ceiling and they are in motion.

Anyway, thought I'd comment on the spider.  Spider is also the representation of the same amoungst the Native American and other Native cultures.  I've been told to let these things have their way with me, but still find myself resisting some of the more scary things in my dreams.  Lots of shadow work.  

Hope this helps, because sometimes just a little extra info allows us to relax a bit.
Blessings!
Eileen

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:  They feel exactly the same in that I feel like I wake up and whatever I "see" is still there, and I cannot seem to separate reality from the dream. Last night, it was a spider the size of the entire bed sitting on its web above me, and as I interpreted it, I was in the web with it, maybe as its prey.