Cycles cycles....

[Keith]

Hello everyone,
Cycles... Cycles... they come and go don't they?
And what to do now?
I came across the mailing site during my freshman year at college, and now I'm a senior and graduating. Such a time brings about serious contemplation on where I am, where I have been and where I am going. But what does that all matter, for there is only Now. Of course its that simple, but I being human make it oh so much more complicated.
  Life, existance is wonderful and marvelous, a mystery. And that should cause me great wonder and awe. Right now the full moon (at elast it seems pretty full and amazing) looms over me through a large window. A large bright light looming out in the dark. I should be happy about this wonderous mystery but all too often find myself scared and lost in it. I should embrace this feeling, our glorious freedom, but its difficult at times. That is the path I sometimes find myself on. But it is just another cycle.
  From self hypnosis to medition, to kundalini and energy games to dreaming. Lucid dreams, tibetan dream yoga, Carlos Castaneda. To sleep, perchance to dream, theres the rub. I cycle through different human experiences, flitting from one description to another of life. I guess I am searching for answers, but I move on much too quickly from one thing to another to discover anything of meaning. Perhaps I am not looking for answers, but instead for acceptance and approval by others. I don't know really. Thats where I'm at. Just thought maybe I should come back and just follow the cycles. Perhaps its time to look at kundalini again and see how it mixes with everything else I've experienced. So I just wanted to say hi again to everyone. Perhaps others here are feeling similar to me, floating about in an ocean of tides and currents... cycles... cycles...