silent heartvoice

[Jyotiram]

Dear Mystress,

In your last message you asked whether I feel in my body when being more at cause. I remember in the beginning years of my spiritual practice I would sometimes slip into a state in which name and form coincide; every thought projected in this state of lively silence would create a wave on the ocean. At these moments it was very difficult to for instance to even move an arm. Since the last 15 years this never occurred anymore and now I feel really glued to my physiology, even in times when some special spiritual experience is occurring I also feel in the body and in control. Our spiritual path was not especially crown chakra oriented I would think. It is a holistic one based on Vedic tradition (Maharishi): TM and TM-Sidhi&8217;s, Hatha Yoga, Pranayana&8217;s and various other Ayur vedic approaches like diet, purification therapies, etc etc . Although my wife gave me lot&8217;s of healings in the last two years, clearing hundreds of entities, emotions and bockages, I still don&8217;t get any response from my heart voice, apart from a little mind blabla there is just a total silence. Also the grounding tends to have more resistence in the body for the light to flow and fill the cup. Can it be there is some deep purification process taking place? Also in the last 8 month&8217;s or so, at times of settled activity like prayer, sleeping or meditation etc, my heart tends to become very irregular, (I don&8217;t see any cause for worry since I&8217;m full of energy in normal activity and feel totally healthy) These symptoms, together with quite a dormant level of sexual energy are sometimes associated with kundalini awakening. What do you feel about this, and if so, how long might such a situation continue from your feeling and experience?

Lot&8217;s of love and joy from Jyotiram

[Mystress]

: Dear Mystress,

: In your last message you asked whether I feel in my body when being more at cause. I remember in the beginning years of my spiritual practice I would sometimes slip into a state in which name and form coincide; every thought projected in this state of lively silence would create a wave on the ocean. At these moments it was very difficult to for instance to even move an arm.

So you were experiencing a kind of catalepsy..? The body was immobilized? That is a common occurrance.

Since the last 15 years this never occurred anymore and now I feel really glued to my physiology, even in times when some special spiritual experience is occurring I also feel in the body and in control.

Those two words really caught my attention. In control. What does that meant to you, to feel in control?

Our spiritual path was not especially crown chakra oriented I would think. It is a holistic one based on Vedic tradition (Maharishi): TM and TM-Sidhi%rsquos, Hatha Yoga, Pranayana%rsquos and various other Ayur vedic approaches like diet, purification therapies, etc etc . Although my wife gave me lot%rsquos of healings in the last two years, clearing hundreds of entities, emotions and bockages, I still don%rsquot get any response from my heart voice, apart from a little mind blabla there is just a total silence.

Silence is good too. Peace.

 The rest of your post.. I am going to let it sit and see what insights come up. I am getting mixed signals from you... there is a big separation... part of you that feels switched off, almost and I am not sure if it is a blockage or simply a phase of K. that serves you. Empathically, tuning into you it feels almost like I have been cut in half across the bottom of my ribs. Power chakra... the issue is control... I have faith that your process will unfold, as it is meant to. Blessings!  

Also the grounding tends to have more resistence in the body for the light to flow and fill the cup. Can it be there is some deep purification process taking place? Also in the last 8 month%rsquos or so, at times of settled activity like prayer, sleeping or meditation etc, my heart tends to become very irregular, (I don%rsquot see any cause for worry since I%rsquom full of energy in normal activity and feel totally healthy) These symptoms, together with quite a dormant level of sexual energy are sometimes associated with kundalini awakening. What do you feel about this, and if so, how long might such a situation continue from your feeling and experience?

: Lot%rsquos of love and joy from Jyotiram