MY SOMETHING BIG IS A BOY

[c-light]

Just to let you know....  I slept sooo well last night.  I feel really good today. No more fear tears, only tears of joy and beauty.

After spending time in the Chatroom with Mystress and her assistant,Jasper, I emerged knowing that my Devine Beloved is Male.  I spent about an hour with him in meditation today.  He is a WARRIOR, I call him my gentle warrior, because when he touches me, he is soooo gentle and yet he is STRENGTH.  He feels like a front line of defense within me.  He told me he would not let them? (I assume my parents) hurt me anymore.  He would defend me to the death.
I feel sooo strong with him there.  Thank you Mystress for letting me finally feel him there.  

I felt like there was a convention going on within me today.  Leslee, I know you can relate to that.  There was my little girl who has always lived with lots of fear and then there was my WARRIOR and then there was me watching all this and feeling their feelings.  

I feel so much strength within me now.  I know my Warrior has always been there, I just didn't give him free leash. I am not ever going to let him get away.  Not that he wants to, He is Madly in love with me.

Just a comment about the time I spent with Mystress and Jasper in the chat room.  It was my first time ever.  What a powerful experience.  I surrendered to Mystress and I could feel them working within me.  It was sooooo strong.  My rational mind kept saying to me--"if this were not so real, I swear you are insane."  But then Mystress? told me, "We are all insane"  
Whatever, sanity or no sanity, I WANT MORE OF THIS.......

I didn't understand all that happened yesterday, but I know I am more integrated.  And I feel alot safer than I can ever remember feeling.   Thank you Mystress, and thank you Jasper for all your love and help.  love, c-light

PS  WELCOME SHARA You have come to the RIGHT place.  I look forward to getting to know you.

[Leslee]

: Just to let you know....  I slept sooo well last night.  I feel really good today. No more fear tears, only tears of joy and beauty.

That's EXCELLENT, C-Light ))

: After spending time in the Chatroom with Mystress and her assistant,Jasper, I emerged knowing that my Devine Beloved is Male.  I spent about an hour with him in meditation today.  He is a WARRIOR, I call him my gentle warrior, because when he touches me, he is soooo gentle and yet he is STRENGTH.  

Your warrior sounds as beautiful and gentle as my illusive angel, only not as illusive (luckily for you)! I'm so very happy for you. I pray that my DB comes to me like that some day. He came once, in a dream... Gabriel... mmmm

: He feels like a front line of defense within me.  He told me he would not let them? (I assume my parents) hurt me anymore.  He would defend me to the death.

Wow... so cool, C-Light. So cool...

: I felt like there was a convention going on within me today.  Leslee, I know you can relate to that.  There was my little girl who has always lived with lots of fear and then there was my WARRIOR and then there was me watching all this and feeling their feelings.  

Well, I can relate, minus the warrior! lol Seems I have something really pretty to look forward to.

: I feel so much strength within me now.  I know my Warrior has always been there, I just didn't give him free leash. I am not ever going to let him get away.  Not that he wants to, He is Madly in love with me.

OMG, this sounds so fantastic. If I only felt my Divine Beloved I know I could do anything. I know it.

: Just a comment about the time I spent with Mystress and Jasper in the chat room.  It was my first time ever.  What a powerful experience.  I surrendered to Mystress and I could feel them working within me.  

I know jealousy is a horrible emotion, but I'm a little jealous. Mystress? Wanna introduce me to Gabriel so he'll stick this time, in my mind, forever? Pretty please with sugar on top? I need him so bad.

: It was sooooo strong.  My rational mind kept saying to me--"if this were not so real, I swear you are insane."  But then Mystress? told me, "We are all insane"  

Yep, all stark-raving insane . But what a way to go, huh?

: Whatever, sanity or no sanity, I WANT MORE OF THIS.......

I TOTALLY relate!

: I didn't understand all that happened yesterday, but I know I am more integrated.  And I feel alot safer than I can ever remember feeling.  

Safe... mmmmm

This is so beautiful. Thanks for telling us about your wonderful experience.

Love,

Leslee

[Jasper]

Hello C-light,

: Just to let you know....  I slept sooo well last night.  I feel really good today. No more fear tears, only tears of joy and beauty.

Yes, I had them too after the chatsession and woke up with an incredible bliss I haven't felt for months.
And your post is beautiful to read, what's more beautiful then to see and feel a human to be in love.

: After spending time in the Chatroom with Mystress and her assistant,Jasper, I emerged knowing that my Devine Beloved is Male.  I spent about an hour with him in meditation today.  He is a WARRIOR, I call him my gentle warrior, because when he touches me, he is soooo gentle and yet he is STRENGTH.  He feels like a front line of defense within me.  He told me he would not let them? (I assume my parents) hurt me anymore.  He would defend me to the death.

Yep, this describes the need the little girl had, she needed a protector. I can see the bond between
you and your warrior. Make love to him often, I would advise.

: I feel so much strength within me now.  I know my Warrior has always been there, I just didn't give him free leash. I am not ever going to let him get away.  Not that he wants to, He is Madly in love with me.

Perfect! enjoy

: I didn't understand all that happened yesterday, but I know I am more integrated.  And I feel alot safer than I can ever remember feeling.   Thank you Mystress, and thank you Jasper for all your love and help.  love, c-light

You are very welcome C-light, it was a true pleasure working with you.

Sir Pentacle