FST and Vampires.

[Gopi]

ATTN: hungry hungry vampires*

If you feel low on energy/motivation/inspiration, check on this and snack as much as you want to whenever you want to.
https://www.worldometers.info/coronavirus/#countries

Invite your vortex to snack all it wants - open buffet; no limits
No need to focus on individuals
You most likely will end up snoring into deep restful sleep waking up feeling refreshed and ready to face a new day...
With all the strength, vigor, heightened senses, burning passion, inspiring creativity, and vitality of a vampire than Goddess made *you* to shine forth in this world every day...

* I am still very very hesitant to use the word vampire on myself simply because it comes with so much preloaded garbage.
I am gay brown Indian man (a very privileged one) who is interested in self growth.
I feel like I already have to work on not being associated with Indian guru types (I teach yoga and meditation) simply because I am not interested in that lifestyle and I very much like my career as a researcher...
I get to do fun stuff and learn every day instead of listening to same old crap.
Goddess gave me a good brain and She created a world full endless wonders to explore, experience, and appreciate with others.

My point is: I have enough 'weirdo' labels on me... never bothered me... always wore my freak flag proudly.
I don't want a bunch of people asking me 'Can you confirm if I am a vampire?'
What would you do if you walk into a coffee shop and a stranger approaches you: 'I have this suspicion for a while but can you confirm I am a human?'
I also could care less about bigoted religious groups.
I am *here* because Goddess wants me here.
You have problem with vampires dispensing spiritual growth advice and doing groundwork for collective evolution?
Talk to the boss.
*giggles*

Back to my point - I don't care to identify as vampire but it's a label and like all labels they have some purpose at some times.

Namaste!
Gopi

PS: There is no new information in this post really other than what Mystress has already said.

[Priestesssss]

   Pissing people off to get the negative emotional energy spewed at them, is the only way some know how to feed. Creating a ton of drama, fights, rumours that hurt people, lies and theft to make others send them anger energy is easy, it gives them a rush, they get to feel badass.

This happened to me, recently.  I felt like it came out of nowhere.  It knocked me down and kicked my ass out of being grounded, blissful and being a vessel of unconditional love for Goddess. I've been so off center for the last couple months, it's not even something I can describe. It's more like 'wtf was that??'.  At least now I know and can say  - 'you're welcome'.

A gift in it is that I *ran* back to here.

[Leos]

Well this is something. After some strong hinting and some advice I've started feeling that gut-level presence that I thought I'd lost for years once more. What a nice re-discovery, like getting a friend back.

I'm still perplexed about this and how it's possible. I thought I was just an empathic person who cared to listen to people's feelings as a result of an unhappy childhood. It didn't occur to me that I might have been eating people's misery. What shut this down? It was always a wonderful guide and teacher, and a compassionate listener to me. It's what helped propel my spiritual journey in the first place by feeding me ecstatic bliss whenever I encountered something it wanted me to see or hear. I really felt like I lost a piece of myself when I stopped feeling it.

The "vampire" label is honestly pretty funny. I understand the need to relate things to pop-culture, but I'm definitely not some kind of bodily parasite, or pulp fiction creature swooping in through windows to steal young women. I'm sure there are people who enjoy role-playing like they're in Vampire the Masquerade, and perhaps there are some people who are closer to that reality than I realize, but dark fiction to me doesn't do what I feel now much justice. This seems more like a refinery, finding the good in all things where the surface shows unpleasantness, like sifting through dirt to find diamonds, alternatively a universal transmuter. Much less scary. There is one part where the label fits well, which is the "tasty" energy part. I feel once more like I'm getting a constant stream of bliss, better than any man-made confection.

I have to wonder how this came about. In my childhood I had to be extremely cautious and aware of my father's emotional state, as the wrong words and the wrong mood would lead to physical violence towards me. People were always taking out their frustrations on me in the early years of school despite wanting to be their friends. I felt like if I couldn't have their love I'd have their ire, and so became the type of nasty provoker they wanted me to be - a viscous cycle. I felt a deep lack of love and acceptance in my childhood. I know this is stated to be "genetic" here but I have to wonder, can things like this be brought on as a response to trauma? If a child's self-esteem is broken, can the "power" chakra form the "vortex" in an attempt to gather the missing sense of strength that normally would come from within, leading to a genetic mutation/adaptation? Is this a retroactive "gift" given by quantum beings who know people will have a potential use and calling for based on the experiences they will encounter? Or is it just a more grounded genetic difference like blood type or bone density, which just happens to bring with it some curious spiritual differences?

Whatever the case I'm very grateful to be feeling more whole again. I'm excited to go further and see what else comes of this, what rules are helpful to follow and what self-work will bring this to optimal efficiency. Thank you for the kicks in this direction, Mystress, it truly has been a blessing.

[Mystress]

 Things people do to themselves.

  You do realize the entity you wanted exorcised and the friendly presence you remember, are the same vortex guide? You demonized and rejected it, what else was it supposed to do, but hide from you? It cannot leave you.

  I find issues with the vampire label to be quite revealing of the level of self acceptance. Triggers all the shadow stuff. You have a lot to work on, to own it. The V door is so scary you are trying the others? They won't fit you.

   Your dad is what vampires turn into, if they do not own it. Monsters who feed on abusive power games with the most vulnerable, whom they are supposed to protect and care for. It is genetic. His example, represents all the motivation you need eh? To be better.

  There is so much misery in the world to feed on, help people feel better. There is no reason or value in being the cause of it in others. In time, as you come to know yourself better you will understand how rejecting his nature was the root of the misery he lived and dealt.   

Ask to see a vision of yourself as a newborn baby... vortex is there.  Anyone can do the alchemy of unconditional love to transmute energy. Broken boundaries in childhood can be a source of unwanted empathy. Quite different if you *need it* to feel whole and good about yourself, and have a specialized guide for it with amazing capabilities.

  BTW the concept of vampires goes back thousands of years in japan, china, persia and russian folk tales.

  It is excellent you already have a good connection and it sorted the troubles too eh?  You will find the guide supports your path through FST, adding insights. This tenement board is for the vampire related threads, so they are not too distracting for the regular students. Start a blog thread of your own here if you want to.

[Gopi]

Re-read this thread and found the following quotes helpful as timely reminders.

Mystress wrote on 21 June 2018, 21:01:10
"A vampire's problems with unwanted empathy is actually just a digestive issue. Absence of consent. The impulse to take energy is inborn, knowing what to do with it is not. Inviting the vortex to eat all the empathic stuff, including the pain, and to keep eating it as it comes, puts an end to that misery and instead it becomes fun snacking. The energy the vortex gives back is delicious like candy, ecstatic, glowing."

Mystress wrote on 23 June 2018, 15:28:45
"Vampires who are untrained and do not know themselves have a bad tendency to feed on other people's life force. This is an invasive, aggressive act and some people will feel it and reject them. It also means they are taking in all kinds of garbage that they might not be able to process. Karma stuff, its all ego fragments and some undigested bits can get so embedded you think they are your own. Stolen energy is less digestible, because the vortex respects free will and the people owning the energy might not let go. Entanglements.  The people it is taken from did not consent to give, so they hold on and its like swallowing a puffer fish that gets scared and inflates and sticks all spiny in the gullet.  So they get a one-two punch of karma from theft by black magic, and are slowly physically and mentally poisoned by the snacking. Both contribute to some emotional and mental instability, and sometimes conflicting psychiatric diagnoses."

Mystress wrote on 18 July 2018, 19:19:05
"Karma, is fear. Free will is binary, love or fear. Karma is made of all the times you chose fear.  Choosing fear is making more karma but also puts you into a state of resistance where what is trying to be cleared does not flow.  When you are well grounded and free from fear, that is optimum for karma clearing and vortex work.  Being in a fearful state really throws a wrench into things... but you can invite it to take the fear and its sources. Ask it to take anything that interferes with your grounding, and staying grounded.  You cannot keep investing energy in choosing fear. Becoming fearless is part of grounding discipline."

Mystress wrote on 20 July 2018, 05:34:04
"I have found that people suffering emotional instability due to excess empathy just need the roots. Deep wide roots of a big old oak tree. Roots reaching along under the grass, taking up the rain and the minerals. They don't have to be crazy big (one overachiever immediately wrapped them all around the planet, useless) just what would be normal for an old oak.  The big taproot, thick and strong down the center, growing down so deep,branching,  anchoring it against all storms. Focus on that one. Yes, everyone. Try it. Imagine it there below you, part of you, and meditate on it until you feel a distinct shift in your sense of self.
  The radio of all the noise and chaos fades and switches off. In feeling the roots and knowing the taproot, you discover who you are. You will feel a shift when all the external influences switch off and you become your real self. It is like coming home, to yourself. Your unique personality."

Mystress wrote on 21 July 2018
"Keep in mind, higher vibe people register as "guru" in the unconscious minds of those in need and they will be moved to dump some of their karma on you, because that's what people do with gurus. If you have a vortex then it is negotiating for snacks with the unconscious minds and higher selves of other people and they won't know why they feel moved to share."