Gratitude

[Indigo]

I am grateful to have been introduced to the reality of the divine beloved on the kundalini teacher website.  I have had experiences over the last year that I could not make sense of until now.  A woman comes to me during meditation and seduces me.  I have experiences as if I am seeing through her eyes.  I feel her on my hands and body during the day,  What has been immensely confusing is that she has taken the form of someone I know and love deeply.  In fact, I have witnessed countless lifetimes with this person during meditation.  To be honest I am not really sure if these experiences are solely my divine beloved.  This woman has admitted that she can feel my presence across a distance.  I have felt her's also.  The relationship with the real woman has been painful because I experience a deep remembrance and longing for what we have experienced together in the past, but I cannot be with her in this lifetime.  The beauty of the pain has been that it has allowed me to stop grasping for love outside of myself and to realize that my basic nature is love.  That love has begun to overflow in my heart. 

I know I said this was gratitude, but I do have a burning question that has been bugging the hell out of me.  On the internet there is a lot information floating around about the concept of the twin soul, that is two people that are created together and share a similar energetic imprint.  Is this concocted bullshit that comes from a culture that is obsessed with romantic love or do you think that it is a spiritual reality?  I am thinking it could also be a perversion of the concept of the divine beloved.  I used to really cling to the idea when I was obsessed with securing romantic love, now I am just curious.  Thanks for reading.   

[WillyT]

Hi Indigo,

It sounds like your DB is showing you something that may need to be surrendered.
The DB lives inside of you. I don't believe we have a twin soul outside of us that we meet physically, or its very rare.

You mentioned there's pain with thoughts of the real woman.
You may want to try the Aka Cord clearing ritual: http://kundalini-teacher.com/karma/akacords.php anything that's for your higher good will be left intact.

Although your DB can absolutely decide to show up as someone you know, being that the person it chose stirs up karma in you points to a blockage she would like to clear. A deep connection with someone can leave its mark with energies intertwined some useful some not. 

She will arrange any circumstances she must to be with you again.

[Mystress]

  I think twin souls are BS. I thought I had found mine many times, chasing after the romantic concept in my 20's. My lovers would become telepathic with me and I thought it was A SIGN and it MEANT SOMETHING and the relationships typically lasted about 3 months. Around the time I was discovering my FemDom nature and really burned out on romantic relationships I found a book, I think it was called "The Cinderella Syndrome" that sort of cured me of the western culture of romance. Some of the ideas in it contributed to my developing the concept of the Divine Beloved: that the soul mate only exists, inside of you.

  Funny, some years later I met someone who looked exactly like my DB at a party, and he felt an odd recognition of me too but he seemed to me to be a cokehead flaky party boy who was there with several women,  and I was not at all tempted!

  One theory of quantum physics is that the big bang created only one photon and its very busy showing up as all of them. I think the concept is even more true of the soul, there is only one and its very busy experiencing all of life inside everybody. Like the zen parable of one candle in a room full of mirrors.

  Same for past lives, let go of that. You are All that Is, so all past lives are yours and what you get when you go looking tends to be a reflection of where you are at, here and now... because only the present moment exists. Curiously, you can find future lives too, if you go looking... kinda blows the whole linear concept out of the water. If time and space do not really exist, then neither does the past or the future.

  WillyT is right about entanglement though, good advice. You need to talk to your DB about not wearing the face of a living person to avoid the karma entanglements. Making her be Goddess for you means your karma flows to her and that's a nice free ride on the guru train for you but not nice for her at all.

  Very rarely, once every few years in FST chats and about 1/4 of the time in weekend intensives, I will do a ritual to invoke the God Light in men. That is just about the only time I allow to be worshipped as Goddess, a manifestation or reflection of the Divine Beloved. My efforts to teach it to other women have failed, they cannot deal with the energy and karma incoming or what it triggers inside them.

   Yes, you are love.