Strange days

[Sean]

Hello,

Still kinda walking around in wonder at things that have happened. Still trying to intigrate new things. Its all so new. I was flying around before using little wings to go to different places so amazingly beautifull that I cannot even remember them. And later trying to dismiss them like it never happened. To far out...  I walk around and remember what happened... Did that happen to me? Wow... Other things like this... Its pretty strange.

Now I know what ego is and my higher self is. I thought My higher self was ego because is says "I want to do this now." But then it works for my good, its been telling me things too. Like when I get sad at something I see that I dont have yet, it tells me that I can have a better one pretty soon. And that I dont need to bother with this or that, but do this instead. And I dont let things slip anymore, If there is something I dont like about a situation. I jump all over it now and fix it, or just leave.. Its great for me.

Lots of different things happened, I forgot most. But I learned to use my feelings about situations. That's what they are there for, to help me out. Protect me. I'll never let them slip again. I'm going to laugh a lot though, and probably get a lot of looks... But its better than any consequences though...  This is one of the things that happened...

Me going for a haircut: Can I get a haircut right now?
Nice lady: OK! Here is your hairdresser...
Me thinking after one look at new lady: This hairdresser has no artistic skill in her body, and has never had any pride in anything she has ever done in her entire life. And she wants to cut my hair.. This is a bad idea and will not be good, I won't like the result.
Hairdresser:This way...
Me: I should ask for a different person... (looks around) Like her... Maybe I should leave? They will think I'm nuts, I just walked in here, and now I tell them I gotta run? I cant think of an excuse!!!
Hairdresser: This way...
Me: Sigh... Follows..

later.. I hate my haircut.  And this is just one of the lesser things that happen. I'm working on a plan of action to get out of these situations. Its not that easy when your commited.

Another strange thing happened today. Was shooting my friends and neighbors in online games today. I was not doing good. The glare was bad here and I could not see them to shoot. I'm not happy... Suddenly the brightness-contrast menu pops up... I switch it off quickly thinking that the monitor is about to blow up as it is going nuts because this never happened before... I get back to shooting... It pops up again 2 mins later. It takes 2 menu's to get to this one. This should not be here... I go to switch it off again... But pause... I get a realisation... I turn up the contrast and brighten it up a bit... Oh! I can see them hiding in that shadow now! Ahah! Switch it off... shooting with new vision... Menu never came up again.  Godess is looking out for my game playing? LOL!!!  This is strange... Although I did send Her my PC as I am sick of dealing with it hehe...

But on a serious note. I can be really good at this faith stuff. I was always really good at it. Blind. Story behind this..  But I was just going around saying "This is handled" "This is done" And knowing it deep inside. Like I used to. And I got to the point where I just said. Ok this is all done. Final. No doubts at all. None. And it felt like something pulled open up in my brain in the top left part. I got really scared. I mean what is this? This is not the first time this thing has happened to me either.. I ask about it, but I think I get back, "Dont worry about it" But I am worried about it. It freaks me out. I dont really know what its message is... It doesnt feel good at all. I surrender it. I am wondering if I did something wrong and not getting the right message...

Thanks

Sean

[Mystress]

  Feels wierd sometimes when an ego bit lets go so completely that you don't even know what it was that left you. Just say "thank you Goddess". No worries.
   Blessings!

:Ok this is all done. Final. No doubts at all. None. And it felt like something pulled open up in my brain in the top left part. I got really scared. I mean what is this? This is not the first time this thing has happened to me either.. I ask about it, but I think I get back, "Dont worry about it" But I am worried about it. It freaks me out. I dont really know what its message is... It doesnt feel good at all. I surrender it. I am wondering if I did something wrong and not getting the right message...

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