Etc. and Ken's Article

[Leslee]

What a wonderful kick to learn about some of who I am after all these years. Like these other wonderful folks, Light and Sean, I've felt like odd-wo-man-out; I just thought I was a spastic nutcase who took everything too personally. I find it strange how one can be completely clueless for so long, and then suddenly, ZAP! I can't help but pray that there's a reason for this.

Surrender, patience, and humility are probably what's in order for me, but it's not easy to feel the walls tearing down all around while I just stand here watching in awe, feeling it in the pit of my gut. If I'm not a rock star, what am I, I shout? But only silence answers now. It would probably be easier if I felt Goddess holding my hand or something, saying something to me in any way. She doesn't come to me when Fear is visiting, apparently.

Anyway, I read the Ken Page article. The exercises are wonderful, so thank you Mystress for pointing this article out. A few questions came up, though, last night about the words, as I tried experientially to work it...

1. Does this clearing/balancing/centering keep us from suckulating feelings from e-mails and other written words, too? I seemed to still feel "stuff" off of an e-mail I got last night from my sister.

2. I was feeling overlapping boundaries last night when I was with my husband. I had pulled myself into my own space, I thought, yet I still felt my husband's crap sometimes. (He's going through some HEAVY shit right now, so it hasn't been easy around here.) Does this mean he's invaded my space instead of the other way around, and if so, is there a way that I can feel less of his stuff (besides physically disappearing)?

3. Mystress, you mentioned that when I walk into a room and check things out, I invade everyone's space with my energy. I understand this now, and Ken's exercises seem to help. But when we talk to people or look around, are we also invading other's space with our energy? When we hug or make love, how can we respect others' boundaries? I'm having a hard time differentiating what the correct way to be with this is under the above situations.

Well, it's time for this one to ground...

Love...

[Leslee]

: It would probably be easier if I felt Goddess holding my hand or something, saying something to me in any way. She doesn't come to me when Fear is visiting, apparently.

In the Holy Trinity lesson, I learned that Fear is the separation.

[Mystress]

Leslee wrote:
: 1. Does this clearing/balancing/centering keep us from suckulating feelings from e-mails and other written words, too? I seemed to still feel "stuff" off of an e-mail I got last night from my sister.

Where your attention goes, your empathy follows. Surrender everything that comes in.

: 2. I was feeling overlapping boundaries last night when I was with my husband. I had pulled myself into my own space, I thought, yet I still felt my husband's crap sometimes. (He's going through some HEAVY shit right now, so it hasn't been easy around here.) Does this mean he's invaded my space instead of the other way around, and if so, is there a way that I can feel less of his stuff (besides physically disappearing)?

the marriage agreement usually goes something like "let these two be joined as one"... so it is consensual. You own parts of each other, and have agreed to share and care. Surrender his crap to Goddess and he may start to feel better. If Goddess won't take it, process it by drumming then find kind words to express what insights come after.

: 3. Mystress, you mentioned that when I walk into a room and check things out, I invade everyone's space with my energy. I understand this now, and Ken's exercises seem to help. But when we talk to people or look around, are we also invading other's space with our energy? When we hug or make love, how can we respect others' boundaries? I'm having a hard time differentiating what the correct way to be with this is under the above situations.

: Well, it's time for this one to ground...

Why do you get grounded after you post, and not before? You have noticed that the answers can come from within you with perfect understanding and clarity if you put yourself in the right frame of mind...
I can wear myself out describing the process to you a hundred times, but you will not understand it without experience. So ground, walk, and let Goddess show you.
   ah... also ask her about the condition of your inner child. You can project love back through time to yourself, you know... it is never too late to have a happy childhood.
  Don't ask me to explain it. Get Goddess to show & tell you and then share what you discover with the group.

   Blessings...  
: Love...
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