Level of Consciousness

[c-light]

Hi, it is Light again.  Even though I am feeling rather foolish about my last post, I have decided this is a place for me to speak my truth about what is going on, no matter how much fear I feel about not doing it right.

I am still at Levels of Consciousness. In meditation, I have had many unexplainable experiences.  I wonder where my consciousness is at times, because I do not have a clue about what is going on, other than to simply observe.

Today,in meditation, as the energy is moving thru me, I start crying. (I have spent many hours crying like this) These are deep tears of great sorrow.  I have no idea why I am crying.  I have no awareness of where the sorrow is coming from.  IS IT NECESSARY to have knowledge of what is happening?  

I feel like there is a release taking place with the tears. I worry about not knowing consciously what is taking place within my body. Why don't I know? Perhaps it is not necessary to know, but to simply let it happen?  Does everyone else know?

[Lady C]

Hi Light,

Welcome

: Hi, it is Light again.  Even though I am feeling rather foolish about my last post, I have decided this is a place for me to speak my truth about what is going on, no matter how much fear I feel about not doing it right.

No need to feel foolish...this is a safe place for you.  Besides, there's no right or wrong about it.  : )  

: I am still at Levels of Consciousness. In meditation, I have had many unexplainable experiences.  I wonder where my consciousness is at times, because I do not have a clue about what is going on, other than to simply observe.

: Today,in meditation, as the energy is moving thru me, I start crying. (I have spent many hours crying like this) These are deep tears of great sorrow.  I have no idea why I am crying.  I have no awareness of where the sorrow is coming from.  IS IT NECESSARY to have knowledge of what is happening?  

No - it isn't necessary.  You may discover what the issue is at some point in time, but not knowing is o.k.  

Peace,
carla

[Xerxenca]

: Hi, it is Light again.  Even though I am feeling rather foolish about my last post, I have decided this is a place for me to speak my truth about what is going on, no matter how much fear I feel about not doing it right.

Thank you for writing!

: Today,in meditation, as the energy is moving thru me, I start crying. (I have spent many hours crying like this) These are deep tears of great sorrow.  I have no idea why I am crying.  I have no awareness of where the sorrow is coming from.  IS IT NECESSARY to have knowledge of what is happening?  

: I feel like there is a release taking place with the tears. I worry about not knowing consciously what is taking place within my body. Why don't I know? Perhaps it is not necessary to know, but to simply let it happen?  Does everyone else know?

I don't think it's really necessary to know . . . sometimes just letting go of the need to understand let's more healing take place. But I also know that I've got a basic ego need for continuity . . . I've read Mystress suggest that we give it up to the Goddess and take whatever abreviated cliff-notes understanding comes back.

I'm starting to think I should be journaling more - so that I can put any insights down on paper and get that feeling of continuity, but let them out of my head for the moment to moment-ness of it all . . .

The grounding is incredibly powerful.

Welcome!

[Mystress]

  I just want to say that it always delights me to see the students supporting each other. I have nothing more to add. Thank you, Light, Xerxenca and Carla!
  Blessings!

: : Hi, it is Light again.  Even though I am feeling rather foolish about my last post, I have decided this is a place for me to speak my truth about what is going on, no matter how much fear I feel about not doing it right.

: Thank you for writing!

: : Today,in meditation, as the energy is moving thru me, I start crying. (I have spent many hours crying like this) These are deep tears of great sorrow.  I have no idea why I am crying.  I have no awareness of where the sorrow is coming from.  IS IT NECESSARY to have knowledge of what is happening?  

:
: : I feel like there is a release taking place with the tears. I worry about not knowing consciously what is taking place within my body. Why don't I know? Perhaps it is not necessary to know, but to simply let it happen?  Does everyone else know?

:
: I don't think it's really necessary to know . . . sometimes just letting go of the need to understand let's more healing take place. But I also know that I've got a basic ego need for continuity . . . I've read Mystress suggest that we give it up to the Goddess and take whatever abreviated cliff-notes understanding comes back.

: I'm starting to think I should be journaling more - so that I can put any insights down on paper and get that feeling of continuity, but let them out of my head for the moment to moment-ness of it all . . .

: The grounding is incredibly powerful.

: Welcome!