Can the Divine Beloved also behave aggressive or rude?

[Marco]

Dear Mystress, dear friends,

I just had an irritating encounter with my Divine Beloved. The previous encouters have all been blissfull but this time she ripped out my eyes with long and sharp fingernails and after she replaced them she ripped them out again and said that she would test me by blinding me for three years to test my courage and as I tried to keep the meditation up I heard a lot of strange stuff like my teeth will fall out as well and other more rude and aggressive stuff. The strange thing was that her words were accompanied by an immediate sharp pain in my chest which was not related to fear. I still feel the pain afterwards and what also happened was that my body immediately cooled off so much that I actually started to feel cold during a warm sunny afternoon. I have dilligently practiced that heart-center-lesson before and actually felt "clean". Maybe not even my Divine Beloved loves me 

Best wishes,
Marco

[Mystress]

  Marco, did you skip ahead? You were warned against doing that. The mere fact of your judging your DB as "rude" says how much you were not ready for that. 

  Is that your real DB? I dont know... but having body parts replaced is not unusual, and your being in a resistant state in the meditation coloured the expereince for you, more than what was done. Mine has chopped off my head a few times... but shamans get killed often.

  You really like to make drama, doncha? What do you get out of that?

    Blessings...

 

[Marco]

Dear Mystress,

I must have come across as pretty hysterical. I apologize for that. Before this session I have had quite some wonderful experiences with the Divine Beloved. Prior to this meditation I had had for some days dreams of being eaten alive by giant ostrichs and also dreams of getting disembowled and the day before, my girlfriend (the one we have been talking about) dumped me for another man. Her justification was that she was not able to stand my “strange aura” anymore as she always felt hot and miserable when she talked with me and was constantly reminded of her grievous past. So I used this meditation to cheer me up a little without being well grounded. While you were on vacation I clearly examined the whole situation and I came to the conclusion that approaching the Divine Beloved via the method of Active Imagination might probably also not be the right approach for me and so I did  a shamanic journey to my Divine Beloved to drum music and I must say that this worked very well and the whole experience was much more vivid and insightful: I went to my favourite place and searched for the entrance and found a wooden door where I stated that I would now enter “my inner world in order to meet my Divine Beloved” I went down some winding basement stairs which ended at another wooden door. As I opened the door I entered what looked like a medieval bed-chamber and on the bed was my Divine Beloved dressed as a medieval princess. She stood up, ran to me and flung her hands around my neck and addressed me as “her beloved prince” and coaxed me to her bed where she started to massage me. Then she transmitted energy by touch and mostly worked on the third and fourth chakra and the energy she transmitted was much stronger than I had experienced during the more active meditation on the Divine Beloved. Actually, the energy was so strong that if I would not have been lying down, I would have fallen off the bed due to the kriyas. After she had stopped transmitting, we had a little talk and she said that she indeed wanted to exchange my eyes but in order to improve my visualisation skills. The rest of the scene was resistance due to fear. In this session she exchanged my eyes actually again and did it this time very gently and lovingly. After she had replaced them she encouraged me to try them out afterwards. As I left her, she said to me that she truly loves my and that I should never ever think again that she would harm me or be rude to me. Then she kissed me and I went back the stairs to the entrance. After the meditation I was really in need of some grounding and while I grounded I noticed that my visualization skills had enormously improved. It was almost as if I could literally see the sun and the heart of the earth. My skills have a little faded by now but are still markedly better than before. So I guess that this was a pretty encouraging experience. By the way, I am actually now at the lesson of the Divine Beloved unlike the first time we talked about this meditation some weeks ago.

Best wishes,
Your Marco