The pulse of the earth

[Gustaf]

Since Mystress has already made a comment on the tearoom about the experiencing the pulse in all things after the Grail ritual, I'd like to post some reflections on it.

First of all I was stunned to find out that everybody don't feel the pulse through the whole body. The second thing is that I have no recollection of when it started to happen. It's more as if it was always there.

If I stand or sit still and relax I can feel it immediately, like a pulsing wave in my body, but also in my energy field, which seems to be so closely connected to the body. (On a level of feeling it's sometimes difficult to tell apart!)  If I rest my arms or hands or feet onto anything, I can feel it respond to me, and there's often a little haze or shimmer of light or a dance in it.

There's one thing that seems odd, and at first ego-mind swirled into action and created a big problem about it. Funny that, how the ego can create a problem out of -anything-, even a blissful experience. Anyway..  

I took the time to measure the inner pulse and it is nearly always somewhere around 80 beats per minute, but the "physical" pulse I feel when I put my fingers on my neck can vary, especially if I have excercised, get nervous or excited... The physical pulse can also vary a bit if I get too analytical, lol! *pause for some heart voice laughter*
So there can be a bit of a variation in the physical pulse. Mattias once did an Ayurvedic examination on me, and while he did he explains that we have several pulses on different depths..  So when I put my finger on my neck, I may be feeling a different level than the one radiating from within.

While laying down in relaxation last week, I spent a while to observe this inner pulsing through my being, and noticed various movements in the body that had slightly different "speeds" but at the same time moved in some sort of rythm or dance with another, like different areas/layers of energies (like what the yogis call the 5 pranas)

I've realized there is an entire symphony of pulses within me, and if I am really sensitive I can sense if something plays out of tune/beat, and ask Goddess to be the conductor instead of the little me. It sure is an ego role to step out of since I'm a musician! Let Goddess be the composer, arranger and conductor.

I'm also reflecting on the insight that the perfect alignment with the earth pulse is also a process now taking place, as more karma is being cleared..

I have been used to everything being so intense. This is something far more gentle and peaceful. In fact I often prefer to just sit or stand somewhere watch nature or people than chase thrills.

Thank you Goddess for the gift of this space of sharing!

Namaste!
Gustaf