I have found, that such conflicts are often better resolved at a higher self level. My
method is to ask my angels to arrange a meeting with my higher self and the higher
selves of everyone concerned. I trust the Angels to resolve the balance and find a
solution of greater peace for everyone...
This may seem a bit sneaky, but higher selves do have free will, and asking for a meeting
is not disrespectful of that. Angels play fair.

I did this, though the results of the meetings aren&8217;t totally apparent at this point.

: No, it is your ego that is trying to own it. Then you go into scarcity, and try to hold
back, and the whole system fouls up. Energy must flow...
Whose? Goddess in you blows his mind, and your ego wants to take the credit? Does it
own Goddess?

I&8217;m not sure about this - what happens is, I get depleted. Totally exhausted. Giving
becomes like water going into a strainer, the cycle becomes one of not being able to give
enough - Other wanting more and more until it&8217;s soured - *more* becomes some kind of
expectation. That&8217;s when I consciously pull back. I don&8217;t see where I go into scarcity,
but I do see the affects of it.

:Stop taking responsibility for how your Shakti pokes people's stuff, and getting bent out
of shape about what other people think and do, and your problems with boundaries will
be over. It is not that they are insufficint, but that you are trying to build your fences
beyond your property line, and install them in other people. You have drawn boundaries
wider than what is really your business.
What does it matter, what other people think? Pay attention to what Goddess in Carla
thinks, and stop making the other stuff more important than that. You give your power
away, reaching out with your beggars cup for love and approval. Wanting others to fill
you up... and they do, with their junk and then you complain about the empathy... fill
Carla up with Goddess in Carla, keep your eye turned inward to your own heart and
there will be no room for other people's stuff.
>
Yep - that&8217;s hitting a nail on the head. It&8217;s what I need to do.

Here is a trick I will teach you, that is properly part of FST level 2... Level one is the
mirror, getting clear enough and out of the world enough to have a higher chakra
perspective of the world of duality...
I call this stuff karma vampire judo. When people poke you with their negative ...
That is the Goddess power of feminine receptivity...
Detach from your personal emotional involvement, except as the thread of pain within
you, that you are pulling on... and rip the whole issue out of them and eat it as a nice
light snack.
What does Goddess do with the stuff we surrender to Her? Snack food, like Kali
munching the Buddha's guts. Goddess does not judge the snacks we give Her, it is all
tasty.
The emotional release may be chaotic, but will be very self limiting. You are not
accepting all of their stuff, just what is on the other end of the poke they gave you. The
feeling of their stuff transmuting within you, and the miraculous results are so
intoxicating as to be addictive... it is strong medicine to be used in the short term, to
clear some old relationship junk and set people who have known you for a long time free
of your past projections. Clearing your ego out of them, so to speak. Your ego spewed on
them for years, or moments, with your thoughts and actions... the stuff they are handing
you is your own stuff back. Accept it... surrender it, and be done with it.
This process will teach you a lot, and that is its purpose. Be selective, because you do not
need to train the people around you to use you as their trash receptacle... and you do not
want to get attached to being Goddess for people. Use it to clear stuff out of the people
around you that your own actions probably put there in the first place, or they would not
be aiming it your way. You and your too big boundaries. It is a way of shrinking your
boundaries so that they fit you properly. Quite taking responsibility for stuff that has
nothing to do with you.
The emotional process of their stuff moving through you will take some time, and it is
best to wait to practise the Judo till you can sit in meditation and let it move through you,
and keep pulling till you get to the place of stillness that tells you there is no more left, to
eat.

I&8217;ve something like this - sortof - with cords. They grow back, though. I will try it - some issues
are very layered and deep. Not only that, but I drew the Breakthrough card from Osho&8217;s
deck - it said my chaos is ancient. So, I&8217;ll work on it. : ) I&8217;ve just realized a few times
when I could&8217;ve pulled that thread - now I recognize how it feels when someone gives me
some crap. Hurray! There&8217;s my breakthrough!!! lol Thanks! You&8217;re right about
posting here - sometimes the act of writing alone can make a hugh difference.

Peace,
carla

Mystress · Mar 02, 2002, 04:17:46 AM

: Re: power

: Hi - I%rsquom finally getting back to responding to this post - sorry for the delay, but
: sometimes it takes awhile for me to process what you%rsquore saying...

: I have found, that such conflicts are often better resolved at a higher self level. My
: method is to ask my angels to arrange a meeting with my higher self and the higher
: selves of everyone concerned. I trust the Angels to resolve the balance and find a
: solution of greater peace for everyone...
: This may seem a bit sneaky, but higher selves do have free will, and asking for a meeting
: is not disrespectful of that. Angels play fair.

: I did this, though the results of the meetings aren%rsquot totally apparent at this point.

Well, that is no surprise. It is an odd trick I do not use often, and when I do I keep my nose out of it. Detachment.

: : No, it is your ego that is trying to own it. Then you go into scarcity, and try to hold
: back, and the whole system fouls up. Energy must flow...
: Whose? Goddess in you blows his mind, and your ego wants to take the credit? Does it
: own Goddess?

: I%rsquom not sure about this - what happens is, I get depleted. Totally exhausted. Giving
: becomes like water going into a strainer, the cycle becomes one of not being able to give
: enough - Other wanting more and more until it%rsquos soured - *more* becomes some kind of
: expectation. That%rsquos when I consciously pull back. I don%rsquot see where I go into scarcity,
: but I do see the affects of it.

They get addicted to you being Goddess for them. Why do you be Goddess for them in the first place? They are Goddess too, they have their own source.

Why do you keep attracting people who want to suck you dry? Being spiritual is not about being a doormat or sunday dinner for vampires... that is co-dependence.

You get tired because the energy you give them stirs up their karma, and karma itself, passes it on to you, the Goddess who stirred it up.

Here is FST2 in a nutshell.. karma follows responsibility, it flows uphill in hierarchies along with the power that is given by those who follow below your pedestal.

The plus side of it is the teamwork and accomplishment that comes of energy focused through hierarchies... like turning sunlight into a laser, but lasers must be handled with care.

You see, taking any kind of ego credit or responsibility for what Goddess does through you means you have to take the bad along with the good. Their stuff gets backed up in you and makes you tired, if your ego has to process it and your physical body has to channel the energy.

"Goddess has it handled" really works a lot better. Then they are fed by the Universal energy and nobody is standing in the way between them and thier outgoing karma.

I am really not naturally a very modest or humble person, but I have learned to give responsibility to Goddess and step off the pedestal, or choke on the shit fountains that Shakti stirs up. Works better anyhow, with the monkey mind out of the way.

You are giving energy deliberately, consciously and they are unconsciously playing along with your healer game and giving you their tumors and crap. If you want to be Goddess for someone, then you also get to be where the buck stops. Karma shit flows uphill, along the stream of Shakti. Put yourself above someone, you also intercept their sewer outflow... which is naturally going to be more intense with the increased clearing flow of the Shakti stirring all the crap loose like a high colonic shit fountain coming their head, in your face.

A pagan friend once found a description of me in a book of Witches... body type, skin, eyes, hair, nocturnal habits, the whole deal. This kind of Witch was called "Eater of filth". Yup. And it can be a tasty meal, buzzy with the transmutation if I am receptive and transparent. Focused enough to surrender it as it comes in so I am not still hauling stuff around days later, and it slowing my own life flow. There has to be consent. The power chakra knows consensuality.

: :Stop taking responsibility for how your Shakti pokes people's stuff, and getting bent out
: of shape about what other people think and do, and your problems with boundaries will
: be over. It is not that they are insufficint, but that you are trying to build your fences
: beyond your property line, and install them in other people. You have drawn boundaries
: wider than what is really your business.
: What does it matter, what other people think? Pay attention to what Goddess in Carla
: thinks, and stop making the other stuff more important than that. You give your power
: away, reaching out with your beggars cup for love and approval. Wanting others to fill
: you up... and they do, with their junk and then you complain about the empathy... fill
: Carla up with Goddess in Carla, keep your eye turned inward to your own heart and
: there will be no room for other people's stuff.
: Yep - that%rsquos hitting a nail on the head. It%rsquos what I need to do.
Yuuup.

: I%rsquove something like this - sortof - with cords. They grow back, though. I will try it - some issues
: are very layered and deep. Not only that, but I drew the Breakthrough card from Osho%rsquos
: deck - it said my chaos is ancient.

LOL!! Of course it is... ancient as trees competing for sunlight.

So, I%rsquoll work on it. : ) I%rsquove just realized a few times
: when I could%rsquove pulled that thread - now I recognize how it feels when someone gives me
: some crap. Hurray! There%rsquos my breakthrough!!! lol Thanks!

You bet. Power chakra gut instinct knows. Power games of the power chakra, how people feed on each others life energy. Life eats life.
Gut knows when someone is leaning too heavy, pulling your strings, yanking your chain, or stringing you a line... what a metaphorical language we have, for what the body knows.

Part of the purpose of surrender, slavery to the DB to clear as much as possible, of the free will and divine will issues. Clear the fears that are usually blocking the clear voice of instinct that moves through this chakra. It is the chakra of free will and Divine Will, and also the chakra of the breath of life, prana and human power games. Status games, hierarchies, dreams of winners and losers all play themselves out in this chakra.

This is the level where house spells are manifested, where you can draw a boundary that will keep out a ghost, where an ordinary wall would not.
When you surrender your ego, Divine Will in the form of body instinct, teaches you all about where your boundaries are, and exactly when they are being invaded. You have to be in your body to hear it clearly though, and you have to have cleared enough fear from your belly and increased your flow enough to notice the more subtle information.
Turn inward. Your body knows more about what is going on with power games than external validation could ever tell you.

Thanks... and blessings...

: You%rsquore right about
: posting here - sometimes the act of writing alone can make a hugh difference.

: ) Goddess did it. You know previously, I was having some trouble with my students karma moving through me, the teacher... I surrendered a lot of stuff and reset my intentions to "Goddess has it handled."
Sometime later, I noticed that people who posted, often had answered their own questions or otherwise sorted themselves out, before the post was done... or would send a second, shorter post later with new insights. Goddess ate it and gave them back insights before I even read the message. It's Handled.

I sometimes think, there are a lot of posts written to this room, that by the time the seeker is done writing, they have answered their own questions and feel no need to hit the submit button. This is a good place to think out loud.

Often when I read a message even if it is fairly recent, the emotional content has already been shifted. I blow a bit of dust away and give Shakti where my attention goes, always and I know my thoughts communicate... but usually it feels like the work is done.

Often am not given a response in words, till later... and often it is quite different from what an immediate response would say. Pacing, timing... Handled.

I mentioned the spell on the course to Sir. P. and he checked it for me, and tested it with a vid and discovered that it eats projections. The Shakti brings up stuff and eats it, and I am not involved. It is beautiful, and interesting because it works on me too...

I don't know... Goddess did it. I can't even hold a thought about HOW it works long enough to attempt to describe it. It just Is. The results are miraculous, and I am feeling them too. This tea room temple of Shakti and healing is the place to journal your process.

: Peace,
: carla

Lady C · Mar 09, 2002, 07:30:05 PM

: : Re: power

: They get addicted to you being Goddess for them. Why do you be Goddess for them
in the first place? They are Goddess too, they have their own source.
:
: Why do you keep attracting people who want to suck you dry? Being spiritual is not
about being a doormat or sunday dinner for vampires... that is co-dependence.

Yes - this is the bazillion dollar question. I%rsquove referred to my co-dependent critter before.
I still don%rsquot know why he%rsquos hanging around

: "Goddess has it handled" really works a lot better. Then they are fed by the
Universal energy and nobody is standing in the way between them and thier outgoing
karma.

Something I%rsquove done has had some pretty incredible results...I%rsquove set my intent to use
only my energy, but also, I set the intent that if someone tries to suck my energy, they
receive Goddess energy in abundance. It seems to be very positive. Today though, I got
hit with a mood. I%rsquom not sure why or what it was about, but I felt like I was getting
someones%rsquo crap. I grounded and did the intent thing again. It seemed to help.

: You are giving energy deliberately, consciously and they are unconsciously
playing along with your healer game and giving you their tumors and crap. If you want to
be Goddess for someone, then you also get to be where the buck stops. Karma shit flows
uphill, along the stream of Shakti. Put yourself above someone, you also intercept their
sewer outflow... which is naturally going to be more intense with the increased clearing
flow of the Shakti stirring all the crap loose like a high colonic shit fountain coming their
head, in your face.

Hummmm. I%rsquove always felt that the buck stops here. I%rsquove (also) always wondered why it
didn%rsquot stop anywhere else. : ) This must be why I have had this expectation that my
parents will accept responsibility.

Thanks again. Things continually clear.

Peace,
carla

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