Physical Changes

[Hasim]

Hi everyone,

Need some advice.  Been out the last few days with many things.
First let me share with you the physical symptoms :

a.  Aching sensation at the back of my mouth.[3 days ago]
b.  Nose bled[again!] quite harmelessly without me doing anything
to trigger it[ 2 days ago]
c.  Slight fever with achy feeling all over my joints[2 days ago]
d.  Diaorrhea [yesterday]

Whilst all these physical syptoms were going on, I felt as if
there was a huge vice/clamp on my head, making my temples VERY
tender. Moving from one position to another is a delicate
movement.  Also, my stomach/solar plexus felt that it was
on fire. And on Wednesday night, I could see different colours
in my mind's eyes, without being in a meditative state - mainly
blues, maroon, and burgundy.

There is a a major physical detox effect too.

I have had terrible detox from attuhements before, but
never this bad.

Have seen the doctor and taken his medication.

The thing is, I have not been doing any strenuous meditations
or intensive visualisations or energy work. It seems to come unbidden.

Well, it could just be a simply gastro-intestinal fever!

Any views as to what could be the cause?  Writing about it seems
to be helping to make me feel better. I tried surrendering it to Goddess
but it is one difficult thing to do when you are aching and in pain!
A lesson for me somewhere in there.

Any thoughts, views and recommendations as to how I can tide over
this period?

[Hasim]

yeah forgot to mention one bizarre dream I had
the other day. I was at a huge gathering of people
This guy, who was holding a task sheet, was reading
out everyone else's task. Mine wasn't read. When I
approached him, I saw that my task column was empty.
When I asked him, he -telepathically it seems- just
mentioned a phrase : Pure Mind.

Now, What does that mean?

[Mystress]

Hasim:
   Your dream made me laugh and applaud... pure mind, indeed... that is the goal of the course!

 I feel it means... abiding in the silence. Be at peace, while your body has kriyas and emotions and does life. Just watch it go by without complaining or making a fuss about anything.

 Your symptoms sound like they could be a case of the flu!
 Earth energy has been unusually high lately, and your DB may have decided it is a good time to properly open your third eye... and to do that, a lot of stuff you were carrying that made you shut it down in the first place comes out!

 What I am finding, is the high energy is bringing up stuff, but because many folks did not do anything to increase their Shakti, they get ungrounded by it and do not process what is coming up. Sometimes what is needed is :Active surrender"... is there something you have been pulled to do, and postponed doing?

  Putting this energy into a creative outlet is extremely therapeautic... and as you and others have discovered, writing about it to the tea room helps smooth things out a whole lot.

  This really is a cyberspace temple. The co-creation of the spell on this course amazes the heck out of me sometimes. Well, co-creation... some very kewl side effects of giving the course to Goddess, coming back better.

  I notice so often that students who start to write, mostly sort themselves out by the time the urge to write has passed.

 This tea room is a Shakti-fired space, and also a gentle vacuum cleaner to suck away the issues that are expressed to clarity can come. It is very kewl. Quite often, by the time I read a message, I find the course spell and the act of writing has mostly already resolved things.

Whether things are good or worrying, come to the tea room and write your thoughts and fears, and they will lift. Goddess takes them usually before I hear about it. I encourage you all to make good use of this room, by talking about your stuff!
 Blessings!  

: yeah forgot to mention one bizarre dream I had
: the other day. I was at a huge gathering of people
: This guy, who was holding a task sheet, was reading
: out everyone else's task. Mine wasn't read. When I
: approached him, I saw that my task column was empty.
: When I asked him, he -telepathically it seems- just
: mentioned a phrase : Pure Mind.

: Now, What does that mean?

[Hasim]

Hi Mystress,

Thanks for the advice.

Been out of action for the last three days. Good rest
time for me. Sleeping like there is no tomorrow and
eating like a refugee has helped to clear my system of
stuff.  Feel clearer now, but physically weaker.
Somehow, I feel that a lot of things have been cleared.
Maybe I should fast on a more regular basis.

Mystress, how do we increase our shakti?

Yeah, there is something I had been wanting to do
all these years - further my studies.

My dad, who has been quite uninvolved in my education, has been persistently
asking as to when I am going to do my post-grad studies. And the other
day, a close friend, who is a clairvoyant,told me that her guides
asked her to tell me that it is time to start deciding on my courses!
Been too busy with work to even figure out what post-grad course
I would love to take.

I guess this time out is time for me to start thinking, huh.

[Hasim]

I want to share a very interesting dream I had
just a few hours ago.

I was at a very huge temple ground -
Taoist-Buddhist syncretic sort it seems - where
they were seem to be having a fair and talks.
As I wandered along, I met 3 of my old recruits
whom I taught in the army. They remarked that
at first they could not recognize me as I am darker.
Now this is weird as I am fairer now than I was
in the army, when I was REALLY dark with all the sun.

As I moved along, I heard chanting up the hills, within
the temple grounds.  I ambled along. Apparently there was
a dharma talk being given .  I joined them, I thought for
a short while.  Whilst there, there was a Taoist priest
who emanated powerful energy. He managed to subdue and paralyse 4 animals.
The bizarre thing was that I could "hear" the thoughts of
this animal-beings - a dog, pig, horse and one more I cannot remember.
They were saying that even the Bodhisattva could not subdue them
yet this Taoist monk could.

I carried them in a huge bag and brought them home.  After
explaining their situation to them, my parents were sympathetic.
I tried opening the bag to show them the animals. As I opened it,
they jumped out of the bag and down my high rise apartment!!

I went down to search for them. Somehow, I was led back
to the temple.  WHilst walking there, I had a flashback
of a scene soon after I left the temple. I was sitting
outside the temple grounds with a bunch of people. As I walked away
I saw[in the flashback] that I had left my wallet and phone behind.
I panicked as there were many priceless things in my wallet - not
in terms of monetary value butpersonal.  

When I was in the temple ground, I made my way up the hill.  Instinctively
I knew that there was a monk there who had founded my belongings. I
climbed up the hill.  Strangely, I saw a Malay guy in the vicinity.[It
is strange as 99.99999% of Malays are Muslims]. He smiled and wished me well.
He suggested that I go up the hill to meet the monk. Then it occured to me that
I had met him earlier in the dream. He had asked me why I did not climb higher
up the hill. I told him that there was a break in the ladder and the climb
was too steep, so I did not go all the way up.  This time around, I made my way up.
Just at that point when the break in the ladder occurred. A friendly face of a
smiling Tibetan monk appeared. It was Lama Yeshe, who wrote the book on the Tibetan
practice of Tummo/inner fire. He returned me my wallet and phone with
wonderful smiles and blessings.

After I made my way down, I saw a nun - seems to be of a high rank.
She smiled at me and gave me blessings as she passed by.

Guess what, when I woke up, I feel perfectly fine. The flu is gone. My body
is well. And yeah, I can finally work!!!

The dream is bizarre as I was born and raised a Muslim but has a strong
affinity to Buddhism. Not really inclined to Taoist spiritual hierarchy
, except their energy work on the channels.  I also did not expect to meet
another Malay in such an "unbeliever's ground" .  Third thing is that
I never had a close personal link with Lama Yeshe, who has reincarnated
in the spanish body of Lama Osel.

Any thoughts?

[Mystress]

: Hi Mystress,

: Thanks for the advice.

: Been out of action for the last three days. Good rest
: time for me. Sleeping like there is no tomorrow and
: eating like a refugee has helped to clear my system of
: stuff.  Feel clearer now, but physically weaker.
: Somehow, I feel that a lot of things have been cleared.
: Maybe I should fast on a more regular basis.

Fasting is good for some people. I find that occasionally K. or hormones will vanish my appetite for a week or so, and I remember to eat something when I get dizzy. When Goddess wants me to fast, She arranges it. Other than that I prefer surrender to resistance.

: Mystress, how do we increase our shakti?

Well, many things can do it, depending on what you focus on, as beauty. Goddess provides...

 How you increase it in your body is kegel excercises. These are tightening and releasing the muscle that you use to stop peeing. You learned to control it at age 2. These excercises where named for a doctor who would prescribe them for new mothers to regain bladder control.

Tighten the muscle that wraps from your pubic bone to the base of your spine. Tightening it and releasing it over and over for 3-10 minutes at a time wiggles up a shakti-storm from your tailbone.

 In men, it is the muscle that makes your lingham twitch, and for women it is the butterfly of your labia gently flapping its wings open and closed.

You can do this excercise anywhere...especially women, because no-one can tell. Combining it with pleasureable self worship can be very delightful.. but also very powerful. Fun, so long as the intention is to ride the flames of desire up through the chakras instead of redirecting it all sexually at another person or icon such as an image. It is a rocket fuel flamethrower that must always be directed upwards.

This one simple excercise is actually a very ancient mystery school secret, and the basis of kriya yoga.

Learning how to handle what it brings up, is the rest... and it can be a lot... that is why the lesson on the subject comes later in the course, after learning to ground and surrender, so that you wil be prepared to comfortably ride out the storms the kriyas will release.

I am telling you how to do it, but it appears to me that you already have all the Shakti you can handle... to the point where Goddess pulls me back from responding to your posts right away. Where my attention goes, my energy goes and sometimes I am moved to measure the dosage so as not to fry people. Turn it over to "Goddess has it handled", which is the strongest prayer anyhow.

 It is important to pace yourself. Gradually opening the body to more intense levels of Shakti, as it clears out the old junk that was blocking it.

: Yeah, there is something I had been wanting to do
: all these years - further my studies.

: My dad, who has been quite uninvolved in my education, has been persistently
: asking as to when I am going to do my post-grad studies. And the other
: day, a close friend, who is a clairvoyant,told me that her guides
: asked her to tell me that it is time to start deciding on my courses!
: Been too busy with work to even figure out what post-grad course
: I would love to take.

: I guess this time out is time for me to start thinking, huh.

Time to start feeling, I think. Goddess knows what you need, better than you do so ask Her. This is a good opportunity to hand the controls over to the Divine to choose the path. Goddess is moving you to go back to school, then She will also show you what courses to take.

She is also providing you with the support you need. Ascended Tibetan Masters visiting you and healing you in your dreams is really perfect. Don't attach to it, though. Let it go and Goddess may bring new dreams and visitors who can help rebiuld your body. Very kewl! Blessings!