Waking the serpents

[WhimsicalZephyr]

Hi all,

I loved the meditation included in this lesson, I could really feel the earth energy in my aura. I asked if it was time to wake the serpents and my heart voice said yes. It also said the serpents had already been awakened when I was two, when my mother blessed me and asked Jesus to watch over me. I'm writing about it and asking folks to check their discernment, because I want to make sure this isn't an entity talking. I didn't get any negative gut responses reading this post, so I'm guessing my discernment is ok and that I have been awakened for a long time. The heart voice also told me my kundalini went dormant in 2010, after a particularly painful breakup when the man I wanted to marry ended things with me. That makes sense, because I was suicidal after the breakup and it took a long time before life felt good again, many years. The answers I got from this lesson were very interesting, but I plan to keep grounding and checking in with the heart voice because I want to make sure I'm really hearing it. Namaste.

WZ

[WhimsicalZephyr]

I've been grounding and focusing on the Heart Voice some more since waking the serpents. My heart keeps telling me I've been awake since I was two and that the awakening experience I had when I was 23 with classic 'freight train' symptoms was just me paying attention and going within for the first time in a long time. The Heart Voice says I've pretty much always been kundalini awakened, I just didn't notice because I was busy! It tells me that I was focused on depression and escapism, and that's why I couldn't feel the Divine within. When I was 23 I started to focus on my own inner divinity and that's when the classic kundalini symptoms began. I'm going to keep grounding and clearing entities but it seems for now that my Heart Voice is telling the truth. I'm posting about it because I find it so magnificent!

WZ

[Mystress]

  Its important to remember that the heart speaks in the language you will understand, even if your understanding of what a word means, is different than the dictionary definitions.

  Some people lump all types of spiritual awakening together under the term Kundalini, and it is inaccurate and misleading.  Kundalini is wired in to the procreative energy, so awakening kundalini cannot happen until after puberty, which is also when a child becomes independent of being need to be fed energy from the caregivers. Kids are all little vampires, they need the attention of adults like they need air. Is like how they have to build gloves into premature baby incubators so people can reach in and touch the babies without contaminating the incubator. The babies need attention, the adult gaze and touch and will die if not petted frequently. We just don't have the right stuff to hook into the earth energy for ourselves, until after spiritual adulthood at age 13.

  For myself, always had the heart voice, little shaman kid had tons of paranormal experiences I dared not talk about in my very roman Catholic family. ESP went into overdrive in high school, (after puberty!) I had started working with energy and visualization before that.

  The freight train experience for me was in 1989 or 90, and after that I was working with a distinctively different energy that did not behave like the white light I was used to using and playing with.  I had a sales job, and it was normal for me to charge myself up with the white light before going out on calls, because charisma improves and being shiny made people a bit more receptive, sharing it made people feel good. It was not enough to sway their free will decision about whether to buy,  but it let me get my foot in the door to ask. Manipulative, yes, but sales people are taught to be manipulative and I didn't think twice about it. (Except when I was offered a job selling insurance... my guidance showed me who I would become after a few years of promoting fear for profit. )

    After, there was this new energy, somehow brighter and more intense. I could meditate and charge myself up with it, was a bit harder to do. The second I tried to use it to charm a client it would abandon me, gone completely as if I had not just spent 20 minutes building it up. I struggled for a few years frustrated that this new energy that felt so loving was not the least bit interested in supporting me in attaining my goals. I did not realize that the awful mood swings and emotional phases were connected. Days of feeling wretched for no discernable reason, I would burn it off with yoga and long bike rides before I was inspired to make a T-Rex to eat it all.  Three years of struggle, before a late night TV show called "Thinking allowed" had a Yogi as a guest, and he described my freight train and my struggle as "the opening of enlightenment" and how the first years are the hardest even for people who have a clue. I had an out of province hairstyling licence and half a BFA, I was struggling to make a career as a commercial artist and with improv comedy but commission sales jobs were all I could get that paid the bills.  Instead of supporting, doors kept closing for me and it seemed the new energy was doing it. It was not until I accepted the only door left open to me- become a ProDom or become homeless, and for the first time that the energy actually seemed supportive of it, that I realized the way to work with it, was to align myself with Its will for me, instead of trying to tell it what to do. Spring, 1993.

  To make a longer story shorter, before and after the freight train I was working with two distinctly different energies. FST lesson, Kundalini Shakti and the chi I had been working with all my life before that, as spiritually awakened little shaman kid were different. One would obey my will and the other would just fuck off if I tried!

  So, I really hate to contradict anyone's heart voice, my job to teach you to trust that... but being kundalini awakened at age two, is impossible like having a baby at age 2 is impossible. Being spiritually awakened at age 2, as I was, is more likely. I don't think your heart voice lied or was mistaken, it was just talking about kundalini in the way you might be defining it, as any sort of spiritual awakening.

   However, what it said about you not paying attention before, sounds too close to criticism to be the heart voice. It does not judge and it does not criticize. You might be about the make the worst mistake of your life and the only discouragement you  would get from the heart is a calm "are you sure you want to do that?" Never a criticism or judgement... nor will it manipulate your emotions by saying things to make you feel good. Entities do that, they will tell you of your specialness all day long if pumping up your ego will get you to listen and do what they want you to. 

  Its like how everybody is completely psychic, on an unconscious level... but if the intuitive information isn't getting into conscious awareness, then you are really not a psychic. Goddess is All, including all of us, so you could say everybody is spiritually awakened on an unconscious level... but saying you were k awakened and too depressed to notice, makes no sense at all. If you are really kundalini awakened then you got stuff going on that is impossible to ignore.

  If you step into Witness and really look at your life, before and after the freight train you will get a better sense of how much it changed you.
 

[WhimsicalZephyr]

Kundalini is wired in to the procreative energy, so awakening kundalini cannot happen until after puberty... but being kundalini awakened at age two, is impossible like having a baby at age 2 is impossible. Being spiritually awakened at age 2, as I was, is more likely. I don't think your heart voice lied or was mistaken, it was just talking about kundalini in the way you might be defining it, as any sort of spiritual awakening.

Perhaps the heart voice meant I was spiritually awakened at age two though my gut says no. Rereading my posts, I do get negative gut responses but they are mild. Usually when something is patently untrue, I feel like I've been kicked in the stomach. Conversely, when something is true I get full body shivers. I'm still learning to read subtle body language. My heart voices generally speaks in body shivers, generally when I'm listening to a really good song. I'm having a hard time hearing the heart voice with all the other voices from entities and the music in my head.

Boy, I sure do have some interesting entities with some interesting stories. Goddess, please take these voices, they are a gift for you. Thank you very much.

Zephyr