Persons dumping their karma on other people

[edward]

Hi

After I started keeping my energy and focus inwards, I've been bothered less by other people's karma.

I have also cut off or chased away (heh) friends that had a tendency to make me feel bad.

Anyway, I have this colleague, that has been away from work for a long time (due to sickness). And when she comes at work, she always wants to talk to me. We've had a close friendship before, but not anymore. She says that I have good energy, and then she
apparantly dump her karma on me, and I feel like trash afterwards, even when I focus inwards and avoid her.

Is this unavoidable?

Are there any AKA cords between us two that makes this?

Is she deliberately dumping her karma on me?

Or is this just being a karma waiter for Kali?



Regards,

Edward

[Blossom]

could be all of the above. I'm sure these things will always crop up, the main point being you notice it. so, you feel bad about it? why?

[edward]

Why I feel bad about it?

Well, I do know that all is one, and usually "broken boundaries" don't affect me that much anymore, as it is a part of the process of "becoming" all that is.

But this body is mainly made for handling my karma, not other people's stuff. That's why I feel bad.


Edward

[Mari]

Hi!
I was just before reading your post talking and comforting a young man who gets very burdened by incoming karma. He is also sweet cute man like you, people love to hang around him. He is so sensitive and gives often too much... In a way I cannot give much else to you than my compassion towards your struggle, because I haven't ever been a person who attracts lots of people because of the vibe... I have been a different kind of karma magnet. But I see how difficult it can be. What I do feel is that there might be something about perception and boundaries like you have already noticed yourself  I see it as a great gift, that people love you and your vibe, ed. I love you as a person and your energy too!

I don't think people consciously use you as a trash can. They love the energy you radiate, your adorable personality. Karma comes to you because of the differences in the energy level? Because this happens to you so often, maybe it is being waiter for Kali? I'm also quite a hermit in my private life like you are, so I can handle better. Some people are more sticky and difficult, but there is a gift inside all the crap. I believe so, and so it has been for me  I put boundaries and do navel gazing. It helps for a while until next layer comes up. They always, always mirror myself back at me. I often start being very resistant towards the mirror, but it's a blessing when I time after time see that it was me, all along... Growth. Those people take the tough job being my ugly mirrors. When I have been surrendering some layers of certain ugliness in me, I react better when it comes up in others again.  I do not know what is your situation in the end, just sharing my insights. You have grown so much I can't really tell. Usually navel gazing is the key tho. There is some pattern you might share with people that cause you to fall from grace? Otherwise it might flow through you, you could transmute it easily or the relationship ends one way or the other.

I've been travelling for a while with school mate. First we totally shared the worldview on certain things in our class. Slowly my perception changed and there was a time I almost hated my friend because she was still reacting like I used to, and I was very vulnerable to her reactions. It was very sticky and stressful. Slowly I have been finding ways to handle and I have been able to surrender one bit at a time the complaining pattern we share because of our insecurity and fear. I'm not done with the pattern fully yet, but I see that the training she has given to me is going to end soon because our studies change more free as we start our specialization studies. Some ground work is almost done, and I'm happy! She has become dear friend again, and I do not fall so easily when she has hard times. She has proven to be very loyal and supportive friend and I love her.

We could also really start having regular karma vamping meetings between FST chats, that might help some students here. Living in a normal work life and so on is often stressfull no matter how much we navel gaze, maybe I could become active and call people to karma vampire circle like we planned a while ago. Ehm, I have been so busy and stressed I haven't had time, lol!

Take care!

[Mari]

Hi Ed!
same what I wrote to Blossom fits on my post here too. I'm dealing atm with my harshness and it was not about you if the energy hits you, I take it back. I guess I put the reasons for my current flu in these couple of posts...

Navel gazing and more incubated posts for me in the future, thank you Goddess

[edward]

Mari, you reply was not harsh at all!

Gonna read your reply a couple of times and digest it!


Edward 

[edward]

Gazing at my navel.

I have for a long time, not understood it literally, but thought that it means focusing on the power chakra.

But after you wrote your post Mari, I've focusing on my navel literally, and wow, it does do wonders!

Funny thing is, when entering my psychologist's office yesterday, she said "So, now you've descended even more into your body". heh

Heh...she said that also, the time I descended from the heart chakra down to the power chakra to. Then she said when I entered her office, something like "So now you are back to the world".

This process is very interesting. I remember, this course first opened my heart chakra. It was fun and special, becoming aware of empathy with others. Before that, I was mostly in my head or somewhere else out of the body. Then, many months after I had dream where Mystress visited me (I have written a post about that earlier), and she hit my back, and in the dream I saw cobra snakes hitting something like a top of a chimney - and shortly after, I experienced complete oneness with all. Then for a long time I was mostly somewhere else....and then, earlier this year I descended in to the power chakra...and now in to the navel.

Now mostly, I do namaste all day long and sometimes smile and laugh to myself, seeing my qualities reflected in other people.


Edward

[Jackman]

Beautiful journey Edward!

Namaste,
J