I haven't posted here in a long, long time...
Always when I start to type, or write, something like this, at first I don't know what I'm going to put in it.. and then I end up putting more than I could have realized I would. x3
Suppose I could share a few updates on myself, hm? ;)
I've definitely wandered a lot.. When i first started the course, I would just read through it, understanding it intellectually, but it wasn't my experience yet... I could accept it, but it hadn't.. integrated fully into my daily life..
At one point I joined a Medicine Circle (I'm home a lot, missed a lot of high school due to being sick(which I've decided wasn't so much being sick, as it was energy wanting to be.. recognized, and worked with..), so I wanted to try and get out more in the community), at which I was very grateful to have learned what I had from the lessons here, as they, people in the Medicine Circle group, would be saying something like.. "Poison to Medicine," and I'd be like.. Oh! What bugs you is yours.. the shadow.. and I'd understand more deeply into what they were discussing.
Then in June/July, we did Death Medicine, and went on a Vision Quest..
I dreamt my vision, although I have yet to recall it.. But Bigfoot visited me in my circle that night, and dragonfly, and stump.. and spider.. which, after the vision sweat lodge we had after quest, in which I saw lots of spiders, found out that Spider is my clan, or lineage..
I've had a lot of healing work done, done not just by others but by myself as well.. and have lately been much more aware of things flowing in my life.
In December, I got a haircut.. I hadn't had my haircut in so long, and had been wanting this particular haircut for months.. And that day I got it, my period started, but not only that. I usually don't feel very well during my period, but it had almost felt as though I was getting a cold.. but I didn't buy that, i believed that it was more something having to do with energy.. I asked one of my friends to take a look at me, energywise.. and what he saw was that I had a seal the core of my energy, he called it Ananzi's Seal.. a Spider.. and over at least the next week, the seal actually shaped the core of my energy into.. a Cobra.. with a serpentarius symbol, a symbol of healers, on it's hood.. and an amethyst on its head.. I showed my friend a picture of the Fire Serpent, and he said that it was the same. The serpent of my core energy even bit him once, amd he felt a pain in his heart, and then there was an egg there.. which later hatched after he gave it lots of love..
I let the Serpent bite me too.. and the last thing I recall it doing was making a nest out of the energy...
Oh! And just this last weekend.. I was at the Nevada's City's Psychic Fair.. My Medicine Teacher had organized it this year, so I helped out some.. and I got to give away a lot of hugs. x3
It's really helped a lot that I've been practicing the Grounding Visualization more often...
But at the fair, on Saturday, this one woman, named Akka, was doing a talk on the spirit of Aloha and such.. and at the time, I wasn't sure if it was just my glasses (which don't help in seeing too far away), or something else.. but as she was speaking, (I was sitting across from her, all the way in the back, down the aisle) I actually saw her shift, her face changed, her form changed.. from an older woman, to a younger one, even to guys with beards, or mustaches..)I had to try not to laugh aloud, so I wouldn't interrupt her, when I saw mustaches..) I asked her about it after her talk, and she said I had seen the ancestors that she had been channeling, that were coming through...
Earlier in the day I mostly just stayed at this one booth, next to my teacher's, which was being run by a friend of mine, Kendra (the booth was about the Biomat, with has something to do with amethyst being embedded in a heated mat, and changing the temperatures of it.. When I laid on it, I also had headphones on.. and while laying there with my eyes closed, listening to some music, and feeling the effects of the Biomat, to me it felt like a healing temple of singing crystals in Lemuria.. or something. x3), and at one point during the day Kendra was very tired.. so she laid on the Biomat.. and I got to perform a healing on her. ^ ^ She felt so much better afterwards..
And the next day.. I had to get up earlier than usual to get there, and I was pretty tired.. but it was still a really great and fun day. At one point Kendra and I were at this one booth that had a lot of stones and crystals.. So I picked up a Tangerine Quartz, and.. it was so weird, and so funny.. but I could TASTE it. It tasted all orangey, and all I had done was pick it up in my hand.. Gold tastes rather buttery. xD
A friend of Kendra's, who I had only just met at the fair, Robert Tobis (he looked like some kind of sweet monk), a Sufi? Well, he was sitting on the biomat, so I came up and hugged him, and he asked me why I did that.. because I love you. xD And later, when he was about to go, he said that he'd like to talk to me more, because he was going through some things he'd like advice on.. Which just feels a little strange to me, but not in a bad way. It's only strange in that I'm not so used to people with EXPERIENCE, asking ME for advice. xD Building up more confidence, eh, Goddess?
And another person I met on the fair on Sunday.. Well, I don't recall EVERYTHING he said (at least consciously. I know my subconscious takes in everything.), but he was referring to me as Shesus, like a female Jesus.. His name was also Robert. Robert Ray Hedges, I think. There was so much that he said.. and I recall the feeling of what he said, but not so much the actual words of them.
But a lot of what he said, felt right. He seemed to me to be a very open and honest person, even intense.
I know I'm being guided in the right direction.. and I will keep Grounding myself, and center myself.. Asking within, for what feels right.. and following and flowing with bliss.
Thank you, Goddess.
Very cool Whitney! Personally I am not so open minded these days, especially to some of the noise that is sold at psychic fairs... but I am a cranky old woman, stick in the mud... it sounds like you are having wonderful growing...
Just, don't get too attached to what other people tell you about who you are, OK? You are All and thier perceptions are reflections of who they are!
Have fun but Be discerning.
Blessings!