Hello to all: It has taken me awhile to make this introduction. I am enjoying myself here. My K date is Dec.6, 2005. I had never heard of any of the new language that I use now, especially kundalini. I was searching for answerers to life questions and got a lot more than I anticipated!!! On that day, I was sitting in the floor and I said ....I need help moving from my head to my heart. Out of nowhere, the most beautiful warmth hit my heart..i felt it vibrating and then it moved until my entire body was quivering in warm, loving light. Within in 2 days...more information than i thought possible was available. For about a month, I sat up most nights talking out loud....writing...dancing and wondering who in the world had taken control of my body. There was nothing that i could ask that i didn't receive answers to. I actually thought I was Mary Magdaline for several weeks...as i was given details of her/my life.!!! Got past this and tried to settle into my "normal life''. Soon the energy started and to this day, has not stopped. Inch by inch...my body is being remade and everything that I once believed has changed. It seems to have worked itself down...out of the bliss state and into the lower chakras ..and for awhile felt like a complete fall from grace. I now understand that my "stuff" is getting all shook up and cleaned up and surrender and trust have been a daily necessity. At first I wanted to read and "remember" everything I could. Now I find it hard to keep much information in my head and don't read much. This site makes me feel at home and I would like to thank Mistress and all of you fellow kundalites for all you share.. Tammy
Hello, Tammy. Given what you've said about the breadth of your awakening, fst school should be a smooth sail for you. In any case, I know you'll get mileage from it as you work your way through it. I know I did and I'm slowly reviewing the lessons even though I've already graduated.
I wonder what grounding has done for you, given what you describe?
All the best to you as you make your way.
hmmm..grounding has been a huge challenge. Some days there is so much energy that i feel like a tornado or tsunami and i just surrender to it. The spirals of energy seem to be like a giant rotorooter working there way into the center of my being. After a really hard day, it seems the next day is very blissful and the energy circulates all the way down my legs and feet. But on the hard days I struggle to get it below my waist. Recently I had the pleasure of meeting a lady that has been fully awake for years and just being near her, i felt myself grounding immediately. She told me to fill in the holes. I have been practicing that and as i do, I get much relief and it feels like the energy is pouring into places that were once very painful and i am able to hold the vibration there afterwards. Most days at work, I will slip away to my office and turn on the computer to the grounding site and feel the relief. I own a restaurant/nightclub and i realize that i pick up so much stuff there. The energy can be very intense and i have yet to become real efficient at putting up a shield of reflection/protection. I seem to take on allot of emotions and feelings that took me awhile to realize were not my own and spinning them off is a daily routine.
Lately, I see a large white light above my eyes and feel an intense pulling on my crown..always with my eyes closed but often with them open. Does anyone have any experience with this?
I am enjoying the FST course and looking forward to having more time after the holidays to dedicate to it.
I am enjoying the fst course and thank you for your response
Hi Tammy,
I am new to FST and also find grounding a big challenge......but I am beginning to think, in a different way - now I wonder if I am too grounded :)
From the sound of it you have much more connection to energy than I do - I am fretting a little because I have a tiny connection - like a Dial-up to your Broadband - but as I read it takes so much effort to stay grounded it has turned my understanding on its head.....maybe I should be content with a tiny connection as 'the goddess has it handled' and knows what is appropriate for me at any time.
Your description is lovely.......... " I sat up most nights talking out loud....writing...dancing and wondering who in the world had taken control of my body " have you read about OSHO and his Kundalini practice music - it sounds like you intuited right to one of his methods for helping people work in a healthy way with K energy - his CD encourages exactly these methods for working....so I think you're doing really well.
Please take everything I write here with a good pinch of salt because I really know so little about anything I am scared to say anything most of the time in case it's crap (except that I do feel lovely senses of knowings coming from the source of All that Is, it's being able to distinguish them from the promptings of my own ego that's the difficult bit).
Anyway - I think you're right about all the ups and down too - that's all a load of ego stuff, hopes and imaginings, Karma and personal & character development happening all at the same time - burning away the Karma, clearing debris away, spinning your chakras, balancing your bodies, little bit more spin here, slowing the spin there - it's such a glorious dance of possibilities and configuration and it makes every day a new day, full of potential.
Someone suggested to me recently that a good way might be to just do the very next thing you need to do (from the tiny voice within) and let the rest go.....it's a nice concept so long as you're listening to the right voice :) :) :)
Thank you for sharing Tammy and hope everything goes well, I'm sure it is.....lol Hollyberry