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I've been trying to let go of my blocks by  following the recommending process of giving them over to Goddess however it has not been working.  I've also noticed as Mystress outlines in the course that when I try to connect and communicate to by using a pendulum (or indeed through my body) that I'm getting no clear answers either.  I'm wondering therefore whether all of this is interconnected and means something?  For example, is there confusion over which 'parts' of me is communicating and how can I establish a clear and direct link?  Can you help Mystress please I completely trust in Goddess and don't know why I'm not getting any results.  Whenever I asked for Goddess help prior to my kundalini awakening I always got results so I'm thoroughly confused.

In addition, I'm 2.25 years into the process which has been extremely painful thus far and has totally consumed my life.  I'm surrending to it completely so resistance is not the problem which again has me wondering what's going on?  I can feel my serpents within the body feeling its coils and it moving within me.  I don't know whether its become twisted or what but I keep thinking its stuck at the heart. I feel it most on the left side of body and I can sense it everywhere root to crown at times however it seems tied somehow around the heart.  The only way I've been able to clear my lower chakras has been by going into the pain which obviously is painful.  If I don't do this then the pain builds up to unbearable degrees so not doing anything isn't an option.  If you can offer any help I'd really appreciate it.

I think I should point out my body was frozen for many many years due to childhood trauma and have also had varies wayward spirit attached which have been removed so I'm totally at a loss as to how best to help myself.

Often surrender has to be done over and over again. That is because when the first layer has been surrendered, there comes up another one which looks so much like the first that we might not even notice the difference. It is like peeling an onion. Then, some things cannot be surrendered the normal way, but have to be dealt with in some special way, such as by making some important conscious decision to give up some attachments or taking action to change our life conditions. On the other hand, the tummo fire automatically takes care of a lot at the subconscious level, without any conscious awareness. I also have some karmic stuff stuck in my body. Therefore I use body therapy (massage, chiropractic treatment etc) to deal with it and also practice kundalini-yoga, which a form of yoga which focuses a lot on the physical body. I have also found out that focusing on pain and negative emotions (often in the heart chakra) can help rather effectively. This is also a yogic practice called pratyahara. By the way, getting the heart opened is a wounderful thing!

: I've been trying to let go of my blocks by  following the recommending process of giving them over to Goddess however it has not been working.  I've also noticed as Mystress outlines in the course that when I try to connect and communicate to by using a pendulum (or indeed through my body) that I'm getting no clear answers either.  I'm wondering therefore whether all of this is interconnected and means something?  For example, is there confusion over which 'parts' of me is communicating and how can I establish a clear and direct link?  Can you help Mystress please I completely trust in Goddess and don't know why I'm not getting any results.  Whenever I asked for Goddess help prior to my kundalini awakening I always got results so I'm thoroughly confused.

: In addition, I'm 2.25 years into the process which has been extremely painful thus far and has totally consumed my life.  I'm surrending to it completely so resistance is not the problem which again has me wondering what's going on?  I can feel my serpents within the body feeling its coils and it moving within me.  I don't know whether its become twisted or what but I keep thinking its stuck at the heart. I feel it most on the left side of body and I can sense it everywhere root to crown at times however it seems tied somehow around the heart.  The only way I've been able to clear my lower chakras has been by going into the pain which obviously is painful.  If I don't do this then the pain builds up to unbearable degrees so not doing anything isn't an option.  If you can offer any help I'd really appreciate it.

: I think I should point out my body was frozen for many many years due to childhood trauma and have also had varies wayward spirit attached which have been removed so I'm totally at a loss as to how best to help myself.

Hi!

I hardly feel qualified to give my 2 cents but sounds like you have could do with cooling the fire a little.  Have you ever tried Qigong? The Taoists approach is to cool the fire.  Some basic Qigong and some Microcosmic Orbit will help balance and circulate your energies.  Mantak Chia has some good stuff, he is no Martial Artist though, lol.  I%rsquoll pray for you.

Jeremy

: I've been trying to let go of my blocks by  following the recommending process of giving them over to Goddess however it has not been working.  I've also noticed as Mystress outlines in the course that when I try to connect and communicate to by using a pendulum (or indeed through my body) that I'm getting no clear answers either.  I'm wondering therefore whether all of this is interconnected and means something?  For example, is there confusion over which 'parts' of me is communicating and how can I establish a clear and direct link?  Can you help Mystress please I completely trust in Goddess and don't know why I'm not getting any results.  Whenever I asked for Goddess help prior to my kundalini awakening I always got results so I'm thoroughly confused.

: In addition, I'm 2.25 years into the process which has been extremely painful thus far and has totally consumed my life.  I'm surrending to it completely so resistance is not the problem which again has me wondering what's going on?  I can feel my serpents within the body feeling its coils and it moving within me.  I don't know whether its become twisted or what but I keep thinking its stuck at the heart. I feel it most on the left side of body and I can sense it everywhere root to crown at times however it seems tied somehow around the heart.  The only way I've been able to clear my lower chakras has been by going into the pain which obviously is painful.  If I don't do this then the pain builds up to unbearable degrees so not doing anything isn't an option.  If you can offer any help I'd really appreciate it.

: I think I should point out my body was frozen for many many years due to childhood trauma and have also had varies wayward spirit attached which have been removed so I'm totally at a loss as to how best to help myself.

  Most often when people have problems with this, it is because they are forgetting to distract themselves after surrender so Goddess can take it when you are not looking. Your attetion to the problem makes a cord, attachment to it and you need to shift your attention to something else.

: I've been trying to let go of my blocks by  following the recommending process of giving them over to Goddess however it has not been working.  I've also noticed as Mystress outlines in the course that when I try to connect and communicate to by using a pendulum (or indeed through my body) that I'm getting no clear answers either.  I'm wondering therefore whether all of this is interconnected and means something?  For example, is there confusion over which 'parts' of me is communicating and how can I establish a clear and direct link?

Well, you are talking about the blockages as if they are entities, so maybe they are. Try using the entity clearing on them instead.

: Can you help Mystress please I completely trust in Goddess and don't know why I'm not getting any results.  Whenever I asked for Goddess help prior to my kundalini awakening I always got results so I'm thoroughly confused.

: In addition, I'm 2.25 years into the process which has been extremely painful thus far and has totally consumed my life.  I'm surrending to it completely so resistance is not the problem which again has me wondering what's going on?  I can feel my serpents within the body feeling its coils and it moving within me.  I don't know whether its become twisted or what but I keep thinking its stuck at the heart. I feel it most on the left side of body and I can sense it everywhere root to crown at times however it seems tied somehow around the heart.  The only way I've been able to clear my lower chakras has been by going into the pain which obviously is painful.  If I don't do this then the pain builds up to unbearable degrees so not doing anything isn't an option.

Going into the pain is good. Do it with an attitude of gratitude for the pain and it will provoke an endorphin response... just when you think it is really unbearable and you cannot handle any more, it breaks through and changes to bliss.
 To clear the heart, focus on what you love.
 Let us know if this helps. Blessings! <.i>

Thanks Mystress I'll try distracting myself more and entity clearing as going into every blockage and experiencing the pain is both slow and seems more difficult than it need be.  I'll also try surrending it several times and will let you know how I get on shortly

:   Most often when people have problems with this, it is because they are forgetting to distract themselves after surrender so Goddess can take it when you are not looking. Your attetion to the problem makes a cord, attachment to it and you need to shift your attention to something else.

: : I've been trying to let go of my blocks by  following the recommending process of giving them over to Goddess however it has not been working.  I've also noticed as Mystress outlines in the course that when I try to connect and communicate to by using a pendulum (or indeed through my body) that I'm getting no clear answers either.  I'm wondering therefore whether all of this is interconnected and means something?  For example, is there confusion over which 'parts' of me is communicating and how can I establish a clear and direct link?

: Well, you are talking about the blockages as if they are entities, so maybe they are. Try using the entity clearing on them instead.

: : Can you help Mystress please I completely trust in Goddess and don't know why I'm not getting any results.  Whenever I asked for Goddess help prior to my kundalini awakening I always got results so I'm thoroughly confused.

: : In addition, I'm 2.25 years into the process which has been extremely painful thus far and has totally consumed my life.  I'm surrending to it completely so resistance is not the problem which again has me wondering what's going on?  I can feel my serpents within the body feeling its coils and it moving within me.  I don't know whether its become twisted or what but I keep thinking its stuck at the heart. I feel it most on the left side of body and I can sense it everywhere root to crown at times however it seems tied somehow around the heart.  The only way I've been able to clear my lower chakras has been by going into the pain which obviously is painful.  If I don't do this then the pain builds up to unbearable degrees so not doing anything isn't an option.

: Going into the pain is good. Do it with an attitude of gratitude for the pain and it will provoke an endorphin response... just when you think it is really unbearable and you cannot handle any more, it breaks through and changes to bliss.
:   To clear the heart, focus on what you love.
:   Let us know if this helps. Blessings! <.i>

Hi Jeremy.  Thanks very much for your input too.  I used to love doing Qigong but have had to stop doing itt since my kundalini was awakened as it was building up too much energy in the body which can't be discharged properly (no matter how grounded I am).  Qigong is great if your body isn't too blocked up which sadly is where I am at the moment.  I've also had to give up any exercise that potentially may also have a toning effect on the body because of the same effect. I guess with my body being so contracted for so long this might be why some of the usual kundalini advice is not appropriate.  For me the process is very much based on what your life's journey has been.  On the up side I'll be a totally different person after it comes through for sure.
: Hi!

: I hardly feel qualified to give my 2 cents but sounds like you have could do with cooling the fire a little.  Have you ever tried Qigong? The Taoists approach is to cool the fire.  Some basic Qigong and some Microcosmic Orbit will help balance and circulate your energies.  Mantak Chia has some good stuff, he is no Martial Artist though, lol.  I%rsquoll pray for you.

: Jeremy

:
: : I've been trying to let go of my blocks by  following the recommending process of giving them over to Goddess however it has not been working.  I've also noticed as Mystress outlines in the course that when I try to connect and communicate to by using a pendulum (or indeed through my body) that I'm getting no clear answers either.  I'm wondering therefore whether all of this is interconnected and means something?  For example, is there confusion over which 'parts' of me is communicating and how can I establish a clear and direct link?  Can you help Mystress please I completely trust in Goddess and don't know why I'm not getting any results.  Whenever I asked for Goddess help prior to my kundalini awakening I always got results so I'm thoroughly confused.

: : In addition, I'm 2.25 years into the process which has been extremely painful thus far and has totally consumed my life.  I'm surrending to it completely so resistance is not the problem which again has me wondering what's going on?  I can feel my serpents within the body feeling its coils and it moving within me.  I don't know whether its become twisted or what but I keep thinking its stuck at the heart. I feel it most on the left side of body and I can sense it everywhere root to crown at times however it seems tied somehow around the heart.  The only way I've been able to clear my lower chakras has been by going into the pain which obviously is painful.  If I don't do this then the pain builds up to unbearable degrees so not doing anything isn't an option.  If you can offer any help I'd really appreciate it.

: : I think I should point out my body was frozen for many many years due to childhood trauma and have also had varies wayward spirit attached which have been removed so I'm totally at a loss as to how best to help myself.