The structure is very tight. There is not much space between the different individuals. The whole structure is kept together by strong attracting and repulsing forces between individuals, which seems to be stereotypical and thus the same for everybody living within the structure. These are intellectually manifested in a set of commonly shared beliefs. Many of these are either basically wrong or driven to the extreme where they create a lot of problems. As a consequence of this, there is an extreme amount of disharmony in this structure, which is really sad. The structure indicates that the negatively charged forces keeping the structure together might even be stronger than the positively charged forces. But most of this is because a lack of harmony; a lack of good judgement when it comes to how and when to apply different values and principles; a disability to keep personal feelings for other people out of professional decisions. This is caused by an intellectual confusion; especially a disability to think clearly as soon as people are involved. This confusion is in its turn caused by an emotional confusion, which seems to be caused by the tight and basically disharmonious energy pattern of the interpersonal structures. If it was not for these disharmonies, most of the basic components of the structure are as such fair and sound %ndash or would be if used instead of misused, understood instead of misunderstood etc.
This structure does not allow for personal freedom outside the limited stereotypical energy patterns between the individuals. If you want to live inside this structure you have to adjust your personal energy system to this stereotypical energy pattern. A kundalini awakened person like me would hardly be able to adjust to such conditions. The kundalini would simply not allow the accumulation of so many emotional attachments and limiting beliefs. Nor would any awakened person want to do such a thing. If he still did, he would be like a big burning torch within the structure. He would then burn away the stereotypical patterns, force people to think for them selves and scare the hell out of them. Thus he would create a chaos. The structure is also keeping strongly together and does not allow the entrance of anyone not formed (or possible to form) in the exact stereotypical shape of everybody else. Such an entrance could only be forced from the side or the bottom with the use of violence. Part of the structure has to be burned away first.
The top is what is keeping the whole pyramid together %ndash when perceived from anywhere inside the pyramid but from the top. However, this is not because the top differs, has more energy or is less restricted than the rest of the pyramid. Surprisingly, it is the same pattern. The idea that the people in the top differs from the rest is mostly an illusion. They do not. Their limiting energy pattern is the same. Perceived from anywhere but from the top, the top people are in charge. Perceived from the top, the rest of the pyramid is very difficult to control. In the same time, whatever the top people do or don%rsquot will affect the whole pyramid. They are powerful mostly because other people believe they are. Still, they are equally confused as everybody else. Thus the top of the pyramid is somehow open. I could easily be taken over by anyone with the guts to do it. Such a person could also break the pattern. But to be able to do that, he would have to come from outside the pyramid, or else he would end up just as the top people of today.
If a kundalini awake person would be able to place the torch of his shakti on top of the pyramid something wonderful would happen. There would suddenly be harmony spreading throughout the pyramid. The strong negative forces would dissolve. The positive forces would grow. The whole structure would grow, as there would suddenly be a lot of space between people to exercise free will in all directions. People of all kinds could freely enter or leave the structure as they chose. People with a serious interest in such work which is supposed to be done at the workplace would come. Dilettantes who would be better of somewhere else would get the courage to stop complaining and go somewhere where their talent would be honestly appreciated and they would be happier. The whole pyramid would slowly collapse and transform into some other shape, which would then change and transform depending on the peoples free choices. There would be stronger, but more flexible, positive connections between the people at the workplace.
For me, it is normal to become sleepless when K is trying to push insights past my misunderstanding mind in order to release a blockage. I trust Goddess with my sanity to a degree most would find terrifying.
With sleep deprivation there comes a time when you are catapulted into a hypnotic state... when you get too tired to resist or hold onto resistance and the twilight zone between the conscious and unconscious mind seems to thin and melt.
It does not have to be extreme.. pushing it too far is unhealthy but I find 30-36 hours awake will wear out any resistance. Takes a few days of recovery afterward, sometimes... more as I get older.
It also makes you really suggestible so insights that bring release sometimes need a second look by the light of day. Some of them will be the karma of limiting beliefs trying to flow out... don't attach to anything. Just sit back and watch the movie.
: I practiced some kegels now and then for a few days a few days ago and now, several days after, my kundalini is keeping me awake almost all night. Last night I went asleep while feeling frustrated and pondering how my workplace could turn and stay as sick as it is. I slept for two or three hours. Then I woke up and had a kind of energy image in front of me. It was as if I perceived the whole interpersonal structure at the workplace; how it was formed and what kept it together. It%rsquos like a pyramid shaped %ndash but rather conical %ndash structure, looking a little bit like a three dimensional illustration of the atomic structure of a metal I once saw.
: The structure is very tight. There is not much space between the different individuals. The whole structure is kept together by strong attracting and repulsing forces between individuals, which seems to be stereotypical and thus the same for everybody living within the structure. These are intellectually manifested in a set of commonly shared beliefs. Many of these are either basically wrong or driven to the extreme where they create a lot of problems. As a consequence of this, there is an extreme amount of disharmony in this structure, which is really sad. The structure indicates that the negatively charged forces keeping the structure together might even be stronger than the positively charged forces. But most of this is because a lack of harmony; a lack of good judgement when it comes to how and when to apply different values and principles; a disability to keep personal feelings for other people out of professional decisions. This is caused by an intellectual confusion; especially a disability to think clearly as soon as people are involved. This confusion is in its turn caused by an emotional confusion, which seems to be caused by the tight and basically disharmonious energy pattern of the interpersonal structures. If it was not for these disharmonies, most of the basic components of the structure are as such fair and sound %ndash or would be if used instead of misused, understood instead of misunderstood etc.
: This structure does not allow for personal freedom outside the limited stereotypical energy patterns between the individuals. If you want to live inside this structure you have to adjust your personal energy system to this stereotypical energy pattern.
Academic hierarchies are ridgid, academics are not supposed to do certain things... like you not being in the photo for the workshop, eh? There is peer pressure and expectations from above and below. An illusory idea you are pressured to live up to.
There is also competition between similar institutions, which is partly responsible for the armoured sides you saw. "Be true to your school"
What you are getting is similar to what I see sometimes, with the eye of the power chakra. The lines of power and hierarchies, and which are beneficial to making an effective team and what is dross, karmic side effect of people who are not happy with their place in the harness.
:A kundalini awakened person like me would hardly be able to adjust to such conditions. The kundalini would simply not allow the accumulation of so many emotional attachments and limiting beliefs. Nor would any awakened person want to do such a thing. If he still did, he would be like a big burning torch within the structure. He would then burn away the stereotypical patterns, force people to think for them selves and scare the hell out of them. Thus he would create a chaos.
ROTFLOL!!! Welcome to my life... Yup.
:The structure is also keeping strongly together and does not allow the entrance of anyone not formed (or possible to form) in the exact stereotypical shape of everybody else.
Humans are herd creatures by nature... pack animals will instinctively push out the one that smells different than the others. Especially if being around him makes you self conscious of your flaws. Demon, ouuuuuttt!! LOL! Burn the witch.
:Such an entrance could only be forced from the side or the bottom with the use of violence. Part of the structure has to be burned away first.
You are part of the structure and you are fire. So, Goddess has it handled. Let go of the limiting beliefs.
What you are seeing is that you, as an individual did not set off the campagn against you. Goddess did it, your Shakti fire. It is really not about you, as an individual except that it hammered on your power chakra blockage.
Your shakti field is really not "yours" because you don't own Goddess. She owns you. The only control you have, lies in what you give attention to. Laser beam eyes.
: The top is what is keeping the whole pyramid together %ndash when perceived from anywhere inside the pyramid but from the top. However, this is not because the top differs, has more energy or is less restricted than the rest of the pyramid. Surprisingly, it is the same pattern. The idea that the people in the top differs from the rest is mostly an illusion. They do not. Their limiting energy pattern is the same. Perceived from anywhere but from the top, the top people are in charge. Perceived from the top, the rest of the pyramid is very difficult to control.
Make that, impossible to control. Free Will is Goddess law. That those at the top really have any control is part of the illusion. They are controlled by those they try to lead, it is part of the reciprocal nature of power. In SM we say "The leash has two ends."
: In the same time, whatever the top people do or don%rsquot will affect the whole pyramid. They are powerful mostly because other people believe they are.
Really it is a fractal. Chaos, a butterfly's wings in Japan to a tornado in Ohio. You have gotten into a line of limiting beliefs here,
surrender them. Stuck people are Gods of their own lives whether they know it or not.
: Still, they are equally confused as everybody else.
Of course, they are human.
: Thus the top of the pyramid is somehow open. I could easily be taken over by anyone with the guts to do it. Such a person could also break the pattern. But to be able to do that, he would have to come from outside the pyramid, or else he would end up just as the top people of today.
Limiting beliefs... let it go.
: If a kundalini awake person would be able to place the torch of his shakti on top of the pyramid something wonderful would happen. There would suddenly be harmony spreading throughout the pyramid. The strong negative forces would dissolve. The positive forces would grow. The whole structure would grow, as there would suddenly be a lot of space between people to exercise free will in all directions. People of all kinds could freely enter or leave the structure as they chose. People with a serious interest in such work which is supposed to be done at the workplace would come. Dilettantes who would be better of somewhere else would get the courage to stop complaining and go somewhere where their talent would be honestly appreciated and they would be happier. The whole pyramid would slowly collapse and transform into some other shape, which would then change and transform depending on the peoples free choices. There would be stronger, but more flexible, positive connections between the people at the workplace.
Well, here is the other shoe, dropping. You just visualized all this change happening, giving it the shakti fire of your kegel charged attention. Every thought is a prayer of manifestation... So, the torch has already been lit. Goddess did it, through you.
I just hope the Dean has not fried like a little ant under a magnifying glass... Trust Goddess has it handled, especially as you released it in this cyberspace temple... and sleep well! Blessings...
For this spring an event is planned where I will lead an NLP seminar regarding future research strategies and goals. I hope that people will come and listen to what I have to say. Maybe they will learn more about who I really am %ndash as a contrast to all official "truths" from the defamation campaign.
In my teachings this semester I have integrated some of the wisdom from this course, such as the lie detector we have in our hearts and power chakras. I am surprised how many of the students (especially female) are nodding really enthusiastic when I speak about such things. ;)
Actually, I did not do so many kegels. And they did not raise a lot of strong energy movements (felt as heat, cold, tingling etc). Nor did they affect my body so much (as energy tends to do). But rather it was as you described before; I got "sort of moody and hypersensitive".
I can%rsquot tell if I have experienced the hypnotic state brought about from not sleeping %ndash and I really do need my sleep. However, I often experience different kinds of visions, energy releases, minor chakra openings and such when I am kind of at the boarder to fall asleep in the night or to wake up in the morning. In that state, the veil between the conscious and the subconscious seems to be much thinner than normally. I suppose it is even thinner when I have not got enough sleep. I have also found that relaxation, especially during yoga nidra, can put me in a similar state.
It is true that academic hierarchies are traditionally ridgid. But this institution differs from the traditional institution in many ways. In my country the old collegial management has been substituted by an almighty prefect (who controls the prefect controls the institution) and the professors have no power as such. I do not want to be on photos from workshops, yoga courses etc mostly because if my colleagues got their hands on such pictures, they might use them as part of the defamation campaign, which wouldn%rsquot be nice for any one involved.
Actually, what you refer to is more like the traditional structure at a university institution, which I perceive as much more fair and sound than the sick and corrupted bullying structure at my workplace. E.g. science and education does not matter much anymore. It%rsquos all about political correctness, mostly in the sense of loyalty towards the "right" people (the informal managers and their relatives, friends and disciples) and their ideas. Thus too many loyal dilettantes are attracted to this place, but not enough serious scientists and teachers. The need to keep the structure together is more a need to get away with things, such as giving PhD and other titles, employments, high wages, money and other benefits to loyal people (or their disciples) who have no right to them or have not earned them; all of course at the expense of other people. Basically there is an express or silently understood bargain for everything that matters between those few people who counts %ndash and which are leaders of groups rather similar to mafia families, but more integrated with each other %ndash instead of obedience to the applicable legal rules.
It is really interesting that my vision was from the power chakra, because it was of a similar nature as most of my thoughts. My former NLP teacher claimed that thoughts are visual, auditory or kinaesthetic (or sometimes gustatory or olfactory) and that%rsquos it. I told him mine where not only that but he did not believe me. I said they where multidimensional forms or patterns containing many types of information. He never accepted my word for it. However, when I did some kind of chakra photography this summer, the lady interpreting it told me that I got a lot of insights and wisdom directly from what she called %ldquothe higher spheres%rdquo. She said I did not have to use my analytical mind to find solutions to problems, but got them ready in all details from above. I suppose this is correct. I now understand that my thoughts, and some other visions, are actually mostly what I perceive from the eye of the power chakra. This makes sense, as I did not recognize them as visions of the third eye.
Sometimes I have actually wondered what would happen if you, Mystress, where inside such a structure as the one at my workplace; probably chaos as you indicated, at least for a while.
I knew from the start that the campaign against me was not really about me and suspected that people where rather projecting their own flaws at me. There are mostly only a lot of crazy fantasies about me, and very little of what I am accused of (most of it is not severe at all) is true (but of course, I am guilty of other things, of which they do not know). Although, I expected you to think that I should se myself reflected somewhere in this mess. It%rsquos actually not a big deal to do that. The severe sickness of the workplace is created by the cumulative effect of a lot of flaws and mistakes from a lot of people. Most of those are minor. I could easily have committed most of those mistakes myself and probably even many of those which are not minor. I would guess that only a few people are really psychopaths or hateful towards others. I don%rsquot think I am better than most of the people at the workplace. But ever since I was a child and most of my life I have been terrorized by a really tough conscience, which made me extremely aware of most of my flaws and mistakes. That slowly calmed down as I grew older and understood that I was indeed a hopeless lazy, undisciplined, pleasure-seeking, selfish, greedy bastard anyway, so why worry about what couldn%rsquot be fixed, but I suspect I am still more aware of my defects and mistakes than most people.
Actually, I did not care so much about that most of those people where turned against me. I knew that the judgements of the people in charge could not be trusted anyway and that 99 % just went along with the rest. What really hurt was although when this woman, who was working for me and who I considered a friend, was turned against me (my other friends left the workplace but stayed loyal to me). This stroke was worse than all the rest together. Therefore it is such a wonderful relief to know that at least her higher self loves me. ;) This makes me feel much better. I would also like to mend our relationship at the ego level, but I don%rsquot know yet if that can be accomplished. However, when I was thinking of this the other day, the idea came into my mind that "a meeting has been arranged for". So, I will just wait and se what will happen and what will come out of that.
:--- Perceived from the top, the rest of the pyramid is very difficult to control.
Make that, impossible to control.
%ndash This is funny! ;) This was what I first wrote. And they would certainly agree with you %ndash that is definitely how they perceive the situation. But then I changed it, because they actually have managed to influence a lot of decisions. There was even an interview where the prefect (the real, formal manager making most decisions at the workplace) admitted to not being able to make his own decisions. He said there where informal structures of power which he had to obey (he later denied having said that, which made the writer or the article rather confused).
Free Will is Goddess law. That those at the top really have any control is part of the illusion. They are controlled by those they try to lead, it is part of the reciprocal nature of power. In SM we say "The leash has two ends."
%ndash In the big picture, this is true %ndash when it comes to influencing the people. But still, if you have the power to make decisions or to influence the one who does, you can gain a lot of benefits for yourself without having to influence anybody else. And you can get away with a lot without the people in the other end of the leash even noticing (and if they do, you just give them a small piece of the cake).
: In the same time, whatever the top people do or don%rsquot will affect the whole pyramid. They are powerful mostly because other people believe they are.
Really it is a fractal. Chaos, a butterfly's wings in Japan to a tornado in Ohio. You have gotten into a line of limiting beliefs here, surrender them. Stuck people are Gods of their own lives whether they know it or not.
%ndash Maybe you are right. Maybe they would have difficulties to influence other people by will (but as I said that is not necessary to gain benefits from decisions). But in the same time much of what is happening at the workplace is directed by a wish to do what the people who everybody believes are in charge would like. In the end, I suppose people are afraid of them.
: If a kundalini awake person would be able to place the torch of his shakti on top of the pyramid something wonderful would happen. There would suddenly be harmony spreading throughout the pyramid. The strong negative forces would dissolve. The positive forces would grow. The whole structure would grow, as there would suddenly be a lot of space between people to exercise free will in all directions. People of all kinds could freely enter or leave the structure as they choose. People with a serious interest in such work which is supposed to be done at the workplace would come. Dilettantes who would be better of somewhere else would get the courage to stop complaining and go somewhere where their talent would be honestly appreciated and they would be happier. The whole pyramid would slowly collapse and transform into some other shape, which would then change and transform depending on the peoples free choices. There would be stronger, but more flexible, positive connections between the people at the workplace.
Well, here is the other shoe, dropping. You just visualized all this change happening, giving it the shakti fire of your kegel charged attention. Every thought is a prayer of manifestation... So, the torch has already been lit. Goddess did it, through you.
%ndash Yes! I saw this happen! It was as if the great white shakti light was burning downwards, following the energy patterns and burning away all the red negative colour from them, in the same time making them stronger and more bright, longer and more flexible. It was as a magic touch that was transmitted though the whole pyramid, transforming it into something much more flexible, radiant and beautiful.
I just hope the Dean has not fried like a little ant under a magnifying glass... Trust Goddess has it handled, especially as you released it in this cyberspace temple... and sleep well! Blessings...
%ndash I have not seen the dean in almost a year (I am mostly working from home). She doesn%rsquot seem to be able to handle the work very well. She has been lying and cheating towards me and made a fool of herself in front of other people. When I have seen her, she has most often looked as if she did not feel very good. The prefect will leave his position prematurely next summer. I don%rsquot know why.
It is not always easy to know when to trust that Goddess has it handled and when to tie up the Camel! ;)