I was preparing myself to get timely for a workshop Mystress
was going to have in Oslo. I used too much time in the shower
and was delayed. Then, finally when a friend and an x-boyfriend
was ready, they couldn't manage to start the car. I got more
and more stressed, and I gave them a mouthful of bad words
until they could manage to start the car.
When we finally arrived at the venue where Mystress was supposed to hold the workshop, there was no Mystress there. There was a lady there however, and she told me that the workshop had already been held the week before, and today she was going to be in Tønsberg (a very little city in South-Norway). The lady was very sick, and was complaining about pain. I looked at her, and thougth that she also have Mother Goddess in her.
So, I rushed my two boys, and ordered them to drive me to Tønsberg.
I then I woke up, I suddenly realized it was all a dream.
I was so dissapointed. No workshop, no Mystress.
She seemed so far away. When I look at her picture now, I get sad. But in a good way.
It's important to not get attached to Mystress. She's not Goddess, only a vessel for her.
But still I consider this dream as something positive. Because, in the beginning of the course, I thougth she was really scary and didn't like her.
But now, I trust myself more and more, and also trust her. She's
like a strict aunt.
Now, surrender this.
The whole point is that Dear Mystress Angelique Serpent has shown me that Goddess is everywhere.
She has been there always, and now I start to see the glimpses of Goddess everywhere, in everything. Lasting longer and longer.
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You get a little crazy. Then wiser. Then crazy again. And wiser. Crazy
Ed feelin' crazy. Shakti-crazy! :)