I forget when I signed up for the course but it was at least 4 months ago.
I delayed the learning for a few months, I sort of felt that there was some stuff that I had to resolve in my life before I continued with the course. The summer and early fall was beautiful but also painful.
I am finding it difficult to find the shadowy parts of myself. Big hunks of karma that I could dig up and throw out. When I stilled the mind, and focused on focus, I could mostly avoid being at the edge of dualistic thinking. Not until I found myself in a situation could I resolve the things that bothered me.
Right now I seem to be somewhere between excessive attatchment and excessive detatchment. Sometimes somewhere between the edge and the middle. Sometimes between the middle and the middle thats between the middle and the edge. Haha.
I am astonished however that on my journey which was seemingly completely individual I was able to verify some of the things Mystress has written about quite often before I have even read that article or without any attempt at trying to understand what she has written.
Happily frustrated,
Scott