It feels like my entire life is entering a new direction. Where all of my old life patterns are just not needed.
Watching them destroy as I move into some sort of oblivion is weird. I can't really find a middle ground.
The intent of the last moment is colliding with what I want in the next. Joy colliding with fear. Overcoming the phenomena of the past has been difficult.
Realizing that I have pure free will in every moment, in a place where time and space don't exist, is hard to wrap my head around, because it feels like all this energy needs movement. A cummy pattern. Especially feel it in the lower chakras.
I look at all of the phenomena in my past year and it felt like I didn't have another angle of attack.
Scott