What has been occuring/coming up for processing during the spring is something like an old addiction to be ungrounded. Like when I go down to the earth crystal and up, I feel tension in my gut along with the grounding.
I started to realize I have had this addiction to not be grounded and present most of my life, and every day, I surrender another piece of it. My wife also mentioned that it quite likely lies in that I try to force myself into grounding even though I'm already there!
It ties in with what Mystress told me before that when I am already grounded, why do I choose ungroundedness? That old lack of trust that it won't work. Yet, it always works.
I find this board to be a beautiful, sacred place for surrender, and from the depths of my heart, I give it all up. I wish to be here fully! Everything else is falling away.
Thanks for letting me share!
In gratitude
Gustaf