After dropping the burden of peace and enlightenment attainment when it is already here, a new layer of ungroundedness reared its head.
Mystress asked me:
"Yet you choose ungroundedness, why?"
It becomes very clear when I practice the grounding meditation. When I move the awareness and energy down towards the earth crystal, I feel discomfort in my gut. It comes from two things, first is the lack of trust of doing it "right" am I imagining it bright enough or clear enough or is it straight enough or god-dess knows what else. I am surrendering that idea now.
The biggest thing though is the fear of being fully present in the physical body. The grounding does that, I become fully present. I didn't quite want to be on this earth, so I kinda hovered in another dimension to not have to deal with it. Doesn't quite work when K is sparked does it?
Trust.. Trust to go deeper into the earth. Be held, be present. Trust that everything will be taken care of just fine in the physical, too! It's quite simple really.
In gratitude
Gustaf