"I use my sexual energy K-fired and combine it with create visualization for manifestations and healing. Sometimes this diverts my sex drive temporarily,I goes wandering off to do the work and seems gone from my being..but it never really is."
Do you mean by this that your sex drive..or libido is absent for a time? And do you mean that this can be a matter of minutes..seconds or can it go on for a few weeks?
I was in the process of learning and practicing solo tantra, making love to the Goddess within. I had begun to have experiences with the practice, when something shifted and I no longer have any sex drive. This is going on 3 weeks. I've pretty much always had libido, so this is a new experience for me. Does this paragraph coincide with what I am experiencing?
Please clarify this for me if you will and if this is not what you meant, can you help me with this situation and how?
Thank you
Sue
Two lists you posted to, and finally you get an answer from me!
It maybe that you accidentally diverted your sexual energy, but I think it more likely that Shakti did it, and is presently using it for something else... some other part of your growing.
That it distresses you so much is important to know, it is an attachment. Your sexuality is part of your ego identity which feels threatened by change.
You think your sexuality is "yours" and it is not. Get over it. It belongs to Goddess and let Her do with it as She pleases.
Explore your present state, notice how much free time you have to get things done and focus without being driven by sexual need.
Give gratitude for it. Stop thinking there is something wrong with you. Clear the "Cosmo grrl" programming from your brain.
(cosmopolitan magazine identity.)
OK, so what came out in this place is completely different than what I planned to post to the list, so there is perfection in my not having time to respond before.
K can give you bliss and ecstasy sex never can, but give Goddess some time to do the rewiring. The sacredness of sexuality means it belongs to Goddess. You started with Tantra, gave it to Her and She took it. I am sure She will give you back a better one, in Her own time. For now, slide with Her flow. See perfection.
Blessings...
: I would like to make sure that I understand what you have shared in this paragraph of this lesson and I quote:
: "I use my sexual energy K-fired and combine it with create visualization for manifestations and healing. Sometimes this diverts my sex drive temporarily,I goes wandering off to do the work and seems gone from my being..but it never really is."
: Do you mean by this that your sex drive..or libido is absent for a time? And do you mean that this can be a matter of minutes..seconds or can it go on for a few weeks?
: I was in the process of learning and practicing solo tantra, making love to the Goddess within. I had begun to have experiences with the practice, when something shifted and I no longer have any sex drive. This is going on 3 weeks. I've pretty much always had libido, so this is a new experience for me. Does this paragraph coincide with what I am experiencing?
: Please clarify this for me if you will and if this is not what you meant, can you help me with this situation and how?
: Thank you
: Sue
: I would like to make sure that I understand what you have shared in this paragraph of this lesson and I quote:
: "I use my sexual energy K-fired and combine it with create visualization for manifestations and healing. Sometimes this diverts my sex drive temporarily,I goes wandering off to do the work and seems gone from my being..but it never really is."
: Do you mean by this that your sex drive..or libido is absent for a time? And do you mean that this can be a matter of minutes..seconds or can it go on for a few weeks?
: I was in the process of learning and practicing solo tantra, making love to the Goddess within. I had begun to have experiences with the practice, when something shifted and I no longer have any sex drive. This is going on 3 weeks. I've pretty much always had libido, so this is a new experience for me. Does this paragraph coincide with what I am experiencing?
: Please clarify this for me if you will and if this is not what you meant, can you help me with this situation and how?
: Thank you
: Sue