Thank you for the reply Sandy.
Honesty triggered something for me, I haven't always been honest and even now, I can think I'm being honest, only to realise that I'm talking out of my....after! but its all a learning curve. I suppose what I meant, was to speak your truth as best you can in that moment, I believe that takes courage, especially if its something you feel people don't want to hear or you could risk judgement from, including your own.
The Kiddie and adult stuff you mentioned. Have you read any inner bonding books? There really good, it taught me about co-dependancy, how stored fears of childhood re-act in adulthood and so on.
One of the reasons why people may be scared of messing round is you can't stir one without the other and old icky emotions can seem pretty scary, enough to put people off trying the positive, it indicates a lack of control. Which brings it back to me for abit.
My experience was abit different, being in that frame was a defence for me. Kundalini seemed to do that, reverse everything. Those incidents hid how scared I was with what was happening. Later they became an avoidance tactic so I didn't have to take responsibility and also highlighted how much I used it to dis-arm people, to make them laugh or to say I'm not a threat.
I did have one problem with the inner bonding though, the roleplay bit. Your meant to speak to a teddy. It was confusing. "what?? whos the teddy?, what?" ect, ect. I can lack focus sometimes and confusion can rein if I'm asked to be too many people at the same time. Plus I imagined a child so well it then felt that I had another part to deal with, as well as myself. Overload, overload.
Mystress helped me release her into the light and I am so, so grateful for that, it was like a huge load had been lifted. It was time to move on. Plus I learnt so much more by surrendering. I learnt that sometimes co-dependancy can be cool as well as cak if thats the only way that someone can communicate their love for you at that time.
Positives can be negatives and negatives positives sometimes, Goddess likes to keep us on are toes.
Which leads me to why this is going to be the last of my essays for a while. I surrendered Squirell to Goddess last night. Sometimes I get so excited about communicating with amazing people that the chattering becomes ten to a dozen. Hence the essays. surrendering brought balance and I realised it was time for me to turn it in for a while, give someone else a chance?
Mystress has provided a link about this somewhere (sorry, I can't remember which one)explaining about higher and lower energies and balancing the two. Talking to others can be just as positive as negative if used with balance. Besides, it takes courage to do as is. Mystress has spent her time providing a wonderful opportunity to communicate, I plan on honouring that when my time comes again. Thank you Mystress.
Theres just one thing I want to say before I go. Its to reply to your message Lucky. Sorry its taken such a while, but I love Queen too and spent rather along time deciding which tune I liked dancing best to.
At this moment its the following-
The Great Pretender
Your my best friend - to the Goddess
Don't stop me now
Thank you very much for the offer of a soundbite of the grounding and I would love a copy.
I also wanted to say how much I enjoyed your AC message. Two things stuck, which were "why are the ants so determined?" and greenish-yellow, the colour of the gas. Both of which I've given to Goddess and they have returned as things to give to you (no laughing allowed, I must have passed the gas bit so many times, and it keep coming back!)
Oh and finally, why do you astral plane?
Anyway, time to go before Goddess decides to find a way to drop breeze blocks on my head while I'm sitting at the computer.
Lots of love to everyone
I'm really lucky to be in your company
Squirell
I'm sharing the same feeling, that I think that I need to stop posting my feelings, because a lot of "coincidences" keep answering my questions to goddess, and every time something happens, it's easier to "leave the stuff up to goddess."
I also enjoyed reading the AC message, and I loved how it was analyzed, and lucky's shared feelings.
Namaste,
Sandy
I'm sharing the same feeling, that I think that I need to stop posting my feelings, because a lot of "coincidences" keep answering my questions to goddess, and every time something happens, it's easier to "leave the stuff up to goddess."
I also enjoyed reading the AC message, and I loved how it was analyzed, and lucky's shared feelings.
Namaste,
Sandy